Yes I'm back with updates~!

I'm having holidays now~!!! Finally finished my 4 month internship.. It has been tiring.. but yeah it has finally ended.. It doesnt seem that long now that i look back.. haha... And suddenly I find myself waking up at 8am in the morning.. wide awake.. haha... look what 4 months of waking up early has done to me..






The next day after my internship ended, I went Banting with my friends~!

There were 7 of us.. 4 frm banting.. HAHA... I really had fun.. I have always loved that place.. dont know why.. maybe cuz i've always been living in the city all my life? Busy streets with traffic jams are all I see everyday.. Its nice to have a relaxing trip once in a while~ :)





Had a great time there.. we flew kites too~! My dad used to bring me to fly kites when i was young too~! Had so much fun.. Also we had seafood for dinner it was free~! Thnx to bx's dad.. thanks uncle~! :)


Right after that... The next day, I took a flight back to JB~! So.. here I am.. home sweet home~!
Nothing beats having a simple home cooked meal.. tofu.. baked beans and eggs... vege.. n over-cooked prawns.. lol~! Hey I'm not complaining~ :P Just the 3 of us... Oh i really enjoy that..

Anyway.. dad has been discussing what I would do after I graduate.. Its either work or continue to study... but after looking at the masters courses available.. I think most probably I'll be working.. HAHA... I'll keep my options open though.. We'll c how it goes

In the mean time~ I'm so gonna take these 2 weeks and have a really nice long break... After 4 months of working.. Nv thought working would be THAT tiring.. lolx

Goin to SG on weds~ Cant wait! :)

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I got a job as a guitarist/singer at Lifes Cafe together with Jiayi and Bing Xin~! We went for an interview few days ago n all of us got in!

Today was my 1st time performing at a music cafe as their singer/guitarist.. lol.. Although i have performed in many places b4... it was for fun onli.. n normally i played guitar for my friend.. thats all... dis time... i have to be on stage like... 2.5 hours? lolol

Believe it or not.. i actually took the day off to search for songs n practice... n also to pick up my taylor guit frm da repair shop... yep~ MY BABY IS BACK~!!!!

Anyways... today's performance.... there was me, jiayi.. n 2 other ppl... sharon, n wei yang.. another guitarist... cuz i think our agent didnt want to stress us out since its our 1st day.. so he arranged 4 ppl to be on stage...

So... our 1st half of the performance was VERY VERY VERY shaky... i mean like... wrong chords.. singing out of tune n stuff.. yes it was TERRIBLE~!

Can't believe i can make DAT many mistakes when i'm so used to performing on stage.. maybe normally its with a band.. n u kinda feed off each other's vibe... but here... its u alone with your guitar... n its been a long time since i sang on stage while playing my guitar.. ALONE... ahhaa....

I played so so so many wrong chords... my mind seemed to wander off when i'm right in da middle of singing my song~~ cham la.. too tired maybe...

I seriously need more practice....

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Just registered courses for my final sem. SAD~@ Can't believe time passes so so fast~

Anyway.. heres my time table~!

Monday: 8-10am, 4-6pm
Tueaday: 12-3pm, 4-7pm
Wednesday: NO CLASSES~!
Thursday: 10-11am
Friday: 10-1pm, 2-4pm, 4-6pm Eeks~

So yeah~ quite happy with my time table for the nx sem.. I kinda have 2 days free~!! Although Friday is kinda hectic.. but..who cares? hahahah... yayness~! :)

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Wow its been ages since i last did something like this~ HAHA

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Water with some tea mix.
2. Last phone call: Sze Lin.
3. Last text message: Jiayi.
4. Last song you listened to: You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift (On the radio).
5. Last time you cried: 2 days ago - after calling my grandma.. Long story.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yes.
7. Been cheated on: Don't think so but if backstabbed, yes. Once too many in fact.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yes.
9. Lost someone special: Yes, my grandpa.
10. Been depressed: Was super depressed back in the past.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Been a bit drunk, yes. Never threw up though.. :P

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.Black.
13.Pink.
14.Green.

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:08 AM
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It's been a few hectic weeks for me.. I've been working on weekdays.. Song practices~ Goin out on weekends~

So yea.... I've been really tired... But happy as well.. Hey.. I'm not complaining~ :P

I've been having so much fun.. It's been some time since I felt like that... Other than feeling tired after work everyday and returning to a kinda empty house n eating alone... :)

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Since working here, I've gotten a a lot of weird responses from clients.. Askin me to call tml, or nx week... but this is by far the most interesting 1~!

CAN YOU CALL BACK NEXT MONTH?


LOLX~!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:46 PM
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Whenever I try my best in doing something, I expect people to appreciate it.

Even if you don't appreciate it, the best you can do is keep quiet and at least let me self indulge.

But wad always happens is.. People never keep quiet.. Let alone appreciate.

Well you can say I don't take criticism very well. I don't care.

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:25 PM
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I've already apologized not once but twice to u. Please do understand the reasons for my reaction that night. Its not that you don't know why. You saw how much stuff was in my car. If u still want to blame me n continue to ignore me, I have nothing else to say anymore.

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i look upon the moon and stars at 2:02 PM
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为什么我每次都要受这些种种的委屈?

为什么无论我做什么都是错的，都是不对的，都一定会有人不高兴，有人不爽？

我也有我自己的事忙。。 难道我这么得空，这么闲来找骂，来受人家的气？

换成是别人，也会这样被对待吗？也会有这样的遭遇吗？

关心是一种错。。明明是出自关心也要被冤枉。。每个人就只会怪我。。

自己死了都不知道是怎样死的。

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:42 PM
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Dear Grandpa,

Last week was my uni's convo.. Saw lots of my friends graduating... n it really made me kinda emotional...

Dad said to me:" When its ur time to graduate nx year, ask your friends if they have any extra passes.. those who dont live nearby or their parents can't come.. so we'll have 1 more pass for ur grandmother to go into the hall"

I tried my very best not to let him see I was already tearing up.... It would've been 2 extra passes.... 1 for grandma n 1 for you...

Grandpa... I really want u to c me graduate.. U being there really means a lot to me... You always asked me to study hard.. I know how u have wanted to c me graduate frm university.. You'd be able to tell your friends how happy u are to c ur grandaughter graduate... I want to make you the happiest and proudest grandpa in the world...

I haven't had the chance to drive you around... I wanted to drive you to the temple... To where ever you wanted....

I haven't had the chance to buy u dinner with my own salary...

Why did u have to leave so soon?

The 1st time I drove your car... I cried.... And I still cry everytime I think of you... even now as I'm writing this post... I really really miss you... You have no idea how much you matter to me... You have been a doting grandfather... The best grandpa one could ever have...

I love you grandpa...

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:24 AM
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This is me trying not to look too pissed off~



There are 13 phone lines in my company....











N onli 1 is working...


Damn~

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:25 PM
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Working has been really boring for me... haihx... i've been dreaming in the office the whole day...

I juz read through some of my older posts.. like.. 3 years ago.. n realized nana's name 1st appeared in a post dated 11 feb 2006~! dats like... the 1st week in mmu malacca~ haha...

I really miss those days..

neways.. goin to malacca nx week! yays~! :P

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:09 AM
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It hurts to c ppl I care about suffer... it really does..

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:22 PM
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Why is it always my fault????? Super fed up now.

Its been a super bad day for me.. I bumped into some1's car.. n its because he double parked! n now i have to pay for it


I cried..

i got so stressed and tensed up, i took half a day off.

公公。。 你在天之灵，保佑我好吗？

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:51 AM
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Sometimes I really do wonder.. Why certain things always happen to certain ppl..

But then again.. Who am I to judge them?

Anyway... had dinner with ZY juz now... Thnx for da dinner!

U know wad? I got lost on the way back, drove 1 big big circle back to the same place...

And when I finally reached Cyber, I drove into a big hole n my car got stuck..

Lucky for me, 4 taxi drivers helped me out.. :)

Anyways.. performing in IMU tml.. Hope everything goes well..

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:28 PM
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My eyes hurt~

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:32 AM
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I wouldn't say that teaching guitar is my dream or passion.. but teaching guitar was something i had wanted to do for a long time..

I've learnt guitar since the end of Form 2.. I had my 1st performance in Form 3.. I nv really had any formal training whatsoever.. I learnt mostly from seniors in my high school back then.

Since then, I found that my passion in music was actually guitar and not piano that i have been learning since 6? I don't really remember.

Anyway.. I've been playing guitar ever since..

I still remember I saw my seniors playing guitar n my friends singing the song Eternal Flame to it..I fell in love with guitar instantly.. I went home n told my dad:" Hey.. U know what, I saw my seniors playing guitar in school n its pretty cool.. I wanna learn guitar.." n guess what?? Not long after that, I saw a new guitar in my house.. my dad actually bought a guitar for me~! I can't tell u how happy I was.. Although it was an ordinary Fair Lady guitar (similar to Kapok), I still loved it..

My mum enrolled me in my 1st guitar class.. I was there for about a month or so n the guitar teacher stopped teaching.. then i sorta changed to another teacher who i thought i was wasting my time there cuz i couldnt really get anything frm him.. well thats the end of my acoustic guitar classes..

I kept on playing until 1 day in form 4, I wanted to try out classical guitar.. so i went n learn classical guitar from another teacher.. he was da greatest guitar teacher i've ever had.. he taught me lots of values n views on life other than classical guitar.. although in the end, i found out i still liked acoustic guitar more n i stopped my classes, i still keep in contact with this particular teacher.. Mr. Albert (also known as Mr. Bert) n hez Hainanese by the way.. A pretty crazy 1! 1 of the most talented bassist i've ever seen too~

After i graduated from high school, i went to Malacca MMU n proceeded there... i went on participating in various events n performances. Same goes for Cyberjaya mmu after i went there for my degree..

Since then i have changed a few guitar.. The 1st 1 was Fair Lady, 2nd was an unknown brand (I have donated it to my music club after i graduated from high school), 3rd was my Yamaha C-70 (classical guitar), 4th was my good old Yamaha APX-3... and the Taylor guitar that i'm currently using is in fact my 5th guitar.. after my Yamaha APX-3 died.. Yes it was killed by my ceiling fan.. I accidentally held it too high up~ T.T


Every since i graduated from Form 5, I've thought of teaching guitar while waiting for my results.. I got my offer letter to MMU soon after n I never got to teach guitar...

I had a chance to teach guitar in my foundation year in Malacca.. I was helping the guitar teacher out as a tutor in the guitar class.. its was very fun actually.. to teach friends..

Now i have a chance to teach guitar again.. My roomie's friend is looking for guitar teachers for her music academy.. i'm kinda interested but my dad doesn't seem to approve of it.. He says I shouldn't be teaching guitar since i'm in my final year already.. I was thinking the opposite. I'm already in my final year n i really hope i get to do the things i like before i graduate.. after that, i might not have the time or the opportunity to do so anymore..

Oh well.. we'll c how it goes on thursday.. meeting up with the person in charge.. :)

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:07 PM
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Me: AAAAAAAAAAA~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FED UP WITH MY BOSS~!!!!!!!

Nana: 为什么~~~ tell me whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy whyy???? huhuhu AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I WANT FOOD AHHH SUPER HUNGRY!!! LET US GOOOOOOO LAAAA AAALALALALA

Yes we are shouting out to the world~

i look upon the moon and stars at 8:01 PM
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My boss pisses me off~!!! He asks us to call ppl up to market our service: Telesales Outsourcing.. But he nv told us anything about what we actually do!!

Our conversation

Boss: So you call them and tell them we do bla n bla n book an appointment with them so I can go over to explain to them more.

Me: Okayy~ So what do we do actually?

Boss: You dont tell them much. Thats not your job. If you already explain everything to them, there won't be any point of me meeting up with them right? Just tell them very briefly we mainly do telesales outsourcing and customer service. Thats all.

Me: Uh huh~ So what if they ask more?

Boss: Just cut them off. That's how you do it.

Me: What they ask us what do we do? As a matter of fact, what do we ACTUALLY do to help them increase sales?

Boss: That you don't need to know. Just book an appointment. Tell them we want to collaborate with them, help them find ways to increase sales and cut costs at the same time.

Me: Okayy~ So I'm supposed to tell them we do telesales outsourcing, book an appointment and cut them off if they ask more?

Boss: Yes.

End



ok so dats basically what we were told to do... So we did it~ n of course ppl's reply was:

Huh? what is that u r doing? do you have more information? can u send it over 1st? What is Telesales Marketing?


n so we told our boss their reply.. n u know what he told my roomie?

Boss: That is why you must 1st understand what we are doing before you start calling people~

Roomie Nana: That's the problem. We don't know what we are actually doing..

Boss: If you don't understand, why didn't you ask in the first place?

Me: (In my mind) WTF?! I asked you SOOOOOO many times what do we do and how are we supposed to help them increase sales n u juz tell me I don't need to know all these. My work is to book an appointment THATS ALL.

PLEASE LA~ Who will agree to meet you without knowing who the hell you are and have no single idea what you do? You think people will meet you jus on the term TELESALES MARKETING?

And who told me I don't need to knw so much IN THE FIRST PLACE?!

OMG i have no idea how to deal with him. Someone please tell me how.

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:07 PM
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Some people just have it their way. They never need to work hard or strive for it. Things just goes the way they want it to be. I've seen so many of them in my life. Never once they need to worry about anything.

Why does these people get all the privileges while some of us work our ass off but never get credited for anything? I feel so unjust for all of us that that work so hard.

I'm super lazy to tell my story all over again but those who know me well should know what happened in the past. I worked so hard for the things I like, my passion.. and in the end? I got nothing. NOTHING.

I know the world is unfair. There are still golf clubs in the wolrd that blacks are not allowed into, even Tiger Woods. But I just can't help feeling stupid n sorry for those who tried so hard but failed in the end.

Sometimes being too nice will only lead to you yourself being used and left to die.

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:26 PM
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I haven't been blogging lately have I? Yea I've been busy with work.. I started my internship or as we mmu peeps call it industrial training.. I started working on 15th June.. So it's been a month now..

Working life has been boring.. except the fact that I get to FINALLY use my makeup stash which has been piling up.. lolx~

Anyway.. what I do in office everyday is basically taking calls for Shakeys Pizza.. Call customers n advertise our client's programmes or the stuff they r selling.. do reports n design websites (nana does it all~ hha)

My company does outsource telemarketing.. so everyday we r doing marketing for clients.. Hope it has some relevance to my major (Management with Multimedia) since it has to do with PR.. :P

Anyway.. will try to update often..

So yea.. feel free to dial 1300 88 1818 to order Shakeys Pizza from me!

i look upon the moon and stars at 6:52 PM
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是不想，不是不能吧？

i look upon the moon and stars at 8:48 PM
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I'm going crazy... I don't know if its because i'm too tired.. or I'm just stressed out..

I keep having dreams about people dying.. 1st it was my dad.. dat was before the sem break... n this week itself... i first dreamt that my grandmother died.. then my mom... n i also dreamt about my grandfather who has already passed away..

What is wrong with me?

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:47 AM
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"takecare alright and, really wanna thank you for being such an awesome friend for all these years.. really sorry i wasn't even half of it.. "

A friend said this to me..

Instantly brought tears in my eyes...

Looking 6 years back when we 1st got to know each other.. It sure has been a long time..

Thank you too for everything.. you've been a great friend n a great little bro to me too..

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:23 PM
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Just finish watching Bride Wars starring Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway.

It's a story oif 2 best friends becoming enemies because none of them would agree to change their wedding dates which was accidentally scheduled on the same date at the same venue. They tried to ruin each others wedding but in the end, they realized their best friend was missing in their lives and nothing was happening according to what they had planned... Finally they realized their mistakes, apologized and made up..

Quoted from the movie..

"Sometimes in life, there really are bonds formed that can never be broken.



Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.



Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding.



But there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime;
The one person who knows you;
Sometimes better than you know yourself;
Is the same person who's been standing beside you all along. "

I really believe in best friends.. I really believe that best friends do exist.. For some, friends exist only for a purpose: to be used. Sad but true enough. Many people nowadays use each other to get what they want. To them, there are no real friends in this world. Only those worthy of being used, and those who are not.

I dunno about others but if I can call some1 my close friend, I really truly care about them...
Yes nobody is perfect so we have to embrace their negative sides and accept them for who they are..

Whatever it is, I'll keep believing in "Friends Forever!" :)

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:59 PM
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有事情, 敢做就不要怕被人讲.

有东西, 不爽就说出来.

Blog本来就是用来抒发情感,自我表达的一个地方,我敢写出来的东西,就不怕给人看,也不需向任何人交代.

如果看了又不爽,就干脆不要看.

i look upon the moon and stars at 7:47 PM
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Quoted from a friend (you know who you are :P) :"Caring a person is oni to a certain extent. Don care any more than that else it'll turn to feelings or annoyance."

I totally agree to that.. To think that I have always placed friends above myself is totally stupid...

Anyway, not gonna make myself miserable over these kinda things d..

Was reading through Wikipedia on PMS... n guess wat came out under the list of risk factors?

High Caffeine Intake

HAHAHA... okayy.. probably this is one of the reasons causing my recent mood swings~

I'm drinking too much coffee.. yes yes.. i know.. :P

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Anywayz~ had a great time today at Seoul Garden, IOI with Nana n Kenny.

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:35 AM
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I must be happy... At least try to be happy.. Or even act like I'm happy so I won't cause so much trouble..

I miss my buddies in JB..


MS, LY, n YX...

Although we're like... in 3 different places.. 3 different countries to be exact... We nv really forgot about each other.. We would lose contact for months.. Meet up, n still be as close as we were months or even years ago...

I nv had any great memories during high school... But I would say the greatest thing was knowing them...

I miss the time when YX would come to my house almost everyday... Watch a movie or 2... Eat pizza... Chat... n play force me to play Chocobo with her on my PS1...

Then we would meet up with LY, hang out at YX's place..

MS would meet us and all 4 of us will have a sleepover at my house... We'd go eat crabs... Go back to my house and chat about everything under the sun...



We'd go to Singapore together n take stupid photos throughout...

With them, there are no walls around me...

No judging...

No lies...

No sarcasm...





With them,

Theres laughter...

Theres sincerity...

Theres care...






Cuz they

Know me...

Understand me...

and Accept me for who I am...






With them,

At least I can let go of everything n be myself...




Really miss the gals... Hope we get to meet again soon...

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:39 AM
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Quoted from CH during lunch today:" You are just a bridge."

Come to think of it, I don't disagree. In fact, i realized I have been a bridge all along.

Since secondary school, people have always used me to get near to the people around me.

Until now, it's still the same thing. I'm still being used so that people can get near to the people around me.

Why is it I'm the one being used all the time?

Guys want to know the girls around me, they come to me.

Girls want to know the guys around me, they come to me.

Guys want to know stuff about the girls they like, they come to me.

Girls want to know stuff about the guys they like, they come to me.

Other than that, they won't bother to talk to me AT ALL.

I have always been listening to other people's problems, other people's love stories.

Why is it when i need someone, no one's there?

I always envy those people with a bunch of friends that will do anything for them, friends that will be there for them no matter what.

But it doesn't happen in my case does it?

The thing about me is that I always go all out for my friends no matter what. And most of the time, I hope to get treated the same.

People always tell me, treat people they way you want them to treat you back.

That is what I always do. I care about the people around me, I talk to them, I worry about them.

And what do I get in the end?

Just another broken heart.

What have I done wrong to be treated this way?

For once, I just want to be treated equally, fairly, and sincerely. Why can't anyone do so?

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:39 PM
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Quoted from the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Button



"We're made to lose people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?"

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:28 AM
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I always mean it when I say something. Why can't everyone do the same?




If you don't mean it, don't say it.




Sometimes, it only takes a little to show that you care.




Sadly, no one cares.




I should just go hide in 1 corner so no one would notice me.

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:52 PM
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When we study too much...



We tend to stress out...



We tend to do wierd stuff...



and that is how Fillet-O-Fish became

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i look upon the moon and stars at 12:36 AM
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I had the worst dream today... I slept at 9am in the morning... woke up at 12.30... in tears... n i couldnt stop myself from crying although i know it isnt real....

i dreamt that my dad was going to die.. he told us the doc said he had 1 week left only...

laz week he called n said he was goin to buy me an i phone for my birthday... in the dream.. he was telling me he woudnlt be able to do so anymore... he was hugging me n telling me sorry for not being able to be there anymore...

i couldnt stop myself from crying.. i hugged him tight n told him i loved him...

the dream was so real... even now when i think about it, my eyes start to tear up again..

i realized i have a fear of losing my loved ones...

my grandfather's death has already had a great impact on me.. i still can remember just 1 year ago... i just finished my 3rd final paper... i received a call from my mum... telling me that grandpa has passed away... i've never been so heart broken in my life... i couldnt accept the fact... days ago i was still talking with him on the phone.. telling him to take care of himself.. n he just went like that.... the pain was excruciating... i couldnt believe that i wont be able to see his face anymore... thinking about it just breaks my heart all over again... my grandpa has always doted on me the most.. i've had so much nice memories with him.. i really miss receiving phone calls from him everyday asking me whenther i have eaten or not....
he would ask me about my exams... ask me to study hard...
he would insist on giving me fifty or hundred dollar notes every time i went back... asked me to keep the money for my own use..
he fetched me everyday to from school n would bring me for luch at my favorite stalls...
he taught me how to eat indian food..
he would come to school 1 hour earlier to fetch me just to make sure i wouldnt have to wait for him after school...
i wanted so much for him to see me graduate from university..
i wanted to make him proud...
i wanted to be the best grandaughter hez ever had...
i wanted him to be the happiest grandfather in the world...


My grandpa has been a big part of my life.. n now that hez not there anymore.. it feels as if a big part of my life is missing..


I really miss him alot... I know hez up there watching me.. keeping me safe from harm..

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:08 PM
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I'm slacking a lot this time around.. exam is onli hours away.. n i'm here blogging.. what on earth am i doing? I'm supposed to lock myself in the library 2 weeks before the finals... n yet i'm going out almost everyday.. i have no idea how on earth am i goin to get through this exam...

my lungs are drowning in phlegm.. n i cant do anything about it..

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:57 AM
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The latest addition of Things-To-Bring-In-My-Bag-Everyday. Yes... an inhaler.. juz in case I get an asthma attack or have difficulty breathing suddenly..

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:27 PM
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I'm having a lot of problems with my internship recently.. my roomie suddenly had no car to use and decided to stay back at her house... which totally landed the nuke on me..

I've tried so hard to persuade my parents to let me work in cyber... i really wanted to prove to them i can do it on my own... for once.. i want no help from them at all... they have been over protective throughout my whole life... juz because i'm a gal and the only child doesnt mean that i cant be independant right?

anyways... i had initially planned to take bus to work everyday.. i even called up rapidkl to confirm the bus i should take to get there... but after my friends found out, they helped me think of different solutions...

so... DREW (he requested his name to be in brown color) n QIN YI 勤毅 (he requested his name to be super big), thnx for offering to lend me ur car... n bx, thnx for offering to fetch me... really appreciate it.. it really has been a long time since i felt that some1 really cared... thnx..

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:52 PM
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I didn't know that having friends can be such a superficial thing.. Maybe I do know.. I'm just lying to myself to make everything around me look wonderful.

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:06 AM
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Yes yes... the guys finally convinced me to go see a doctor... they fetched me to the putrajaya hospital juz now after luch since it was the nearest 1 that was open.. all the nearby clinics are closed on sundays....

the nurse checked my breathing.. n said there were "cracking" sounds in my lungs... what was that supposed to mean? lolx.. anyway.. she sent me off to get gas... AGAIN....

n so they bought me into a room... did some cocktail mix with a few different liquids.. then screwed the bottle underneath the oxygen mask and gave it to me...

after 20 mins inhaling the gas... my arms and legs went numb... my hands were shaking.. n i couldnt even walk properly.. seems that the medicine will make u a bit shaky.. since its some kind of relaxant...

I was given a letter to go see another doctor in the clinic.. will have to go over tml i guess..

heres a pic of me with the oxygen mask.. dont worry... i'm not dead yet...

i look upon the moon and stars at 6:24 PM
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I kinda had an asthma attack just now.. I dont know how it happened... i just started coughing a lot.. and the next thing i knew.. a lot of phlegm was forming in my throat.. n i had some difficulty breathing... whats wrong with me? I'm really worried....

I check online for the symptoms of asthma.. heres wad i found:

Asthma Symptoms:Shortness of breath, episodes of wheezing. coughing, tightness of chest and difficulty exchanging air through lungs

Basically the only thing that hasnt happened is episodes of wheezing.. If that happens again like what happened back in my beta year, i'll have to go to the clinic for gas again.. That time i coughed for 2 months straight n went to 7 doctors.. the wheezing came around the 6th or 7th week... i was literally breathing with a wheezing sound... n i went to the clinic 3 or 4 times to get gas... i dont have an inhaler.. so i have to go to the clinic where they put an oxygen mask on u... n screw on a bottle of liquid under the mask where it will emit the vaporized medication.. its some kind of muscle relaxant i think...

but anyway.. glad that i'm okay now.. :)

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:01 AM
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Finally I've completed and submitted all my assignments... I have 1 more presentation next Tuesday n everything will be done~! At least thats something worth celebrating.. right?

i look upon the moon and stars at 8:41 PM
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ok i feel hurt.. to say the least... u guys dont want me there.. i get it now...

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:18 AM
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Recently I keep feeling down for no reason... I don't know why.. I can't seem to find a purpose to do anything... It's like I'm wasting my time.. It's been a long time since I felt like this... I can stare at my laptop screen for a long time not even know what am I doing at all.. I really feel i'm reverting back to my old self again.. n its not a good thing.. i really suffered a lot in the past.. I'm scared to even think about it... but what can i do?

I really should start studying already.. I'm slacking way too much..

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:45 PM
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I really think I got asthma.. I mean... it's getting worse... I keep having difficulties in breathing... At times, I even need to breathe through my mouth to get enough air in.. And most of the time, I have the feeling as if there is not enough oxygen going into my lungs.. Its like I'm breathing in nothing..

Recently I've been inhaling a lot of second hand smoke.. I think this is one of the reasons why I'm having all these problems... Sometimes I feel as if my lungs are going to collapse anytime or there's the feeling I might get an asthma attack... I can start coughing suddenly until I feel like vomiting... Suddenly phlegm juz starts accumulating in my throat.. I don't even dare to breath in too hard..

I'm really very worried about my condition.. And I don't know what to do about it.. I know telling my parents would be suicidal cuz my mum will go crazy over this... I've been sick for the past 3 weeks.. I really hope the symptoms will go away after I recover.. I think i should lessen my intake of cold drinks.. Maybe that'll help..

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:36 AM
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We had our recital post mortem a few days ago.. I was quite disappointed in the attendance.. very few people came despite we had already posted up the announcement 4 days ago.. I expected ppl to complain about the recital as usual.. but i did not expect those who talked the most to be our organizing committee... I'm not against anyone but hey, if u has so many comments n thoughts about the way we did things, y didnt u ppl voice out earlier? its not that you didnt had the chance to do so... When we asked u all to voice up during meetings, u all juz sat there with ur arms folded n shaked ur head.. n when everything is over, u ppl suddenly became the best critiques in the world. This event is not about the top 3 decision makers onli.. its about the whole organizing committee. Quote from a friend:" don't forget... we are all here because of music". Since when has this event become so political? n since when has it become a fight over power? I remember having so much fun back in my foundation years in melaka. There were no such thing as politics. We worked together, strived together.. all because of music.. n now, what do i see? ppl quarreling over authorities, quarreling over the decisions being made. There was even a heated conversation over the definition of composing. Since when has music become so stereotyped? Music used to be something to express how we feel... something in which we can chanel our emotions and present it to the audience.. but from that day's debate, it seemed that composing was onli melody and words. full stop. nothing else. well, i will never agree to that n i stand firm on what i believe in. Compositional techniques are the methods used to create music. Useful skills in composition include writing musical notation, instrumentation, and handling musical ensembles (orchestration). Other skills include extended techniques such as improvisation, musical montage, preparing instruments, using non-traditional instruments, and other methods of sound production. I got this from Wikipedia. If song arrangement is not a part of composing, then pls tell me what is compositional techniques?

anyway, enough said. I wanna extend my apologies to a few person also.. i was in a super bad mood that day until i shouted at a few of my friends. i really feel bad for doing that.. but i have been so stressed out for the past month..

i'm just glad that everything is over..

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:42 PM
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why do ppl juz like to call me names? i know i'm not pretty, i dont act like a gal.. fine.. but pls dont call me weird names and expect me to take it as a compliment ok? i know its never something good... n every1 refuses to tell me y... i dont even know wad to react to these names.. Its like goin back to my high school years where i suffered for 1 whole year... I dont even know who my real friends are.. all these insecurities are coming back... the same stuff happening all over again...

maybe i should juz revert back to how i used to be...

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:53 AM
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I know.. i'm the extra 1... i always am..

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:39 AM
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Yea.. recital is finally over.. We've done it again.. although this year the PA sucked.. nonetheless, the quality of our songs were better... in fact, it has been getting better every year.. seems that our emcee is interested in getting our songs into the music industry.. hope everything works out.. :)

finally i'm free from all the stress.. all our hard work paid off.. it was great working with alvin n having him as our director.. made many new friends along the way..

photos will be up soon..

p.s. I'm still sick..

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:53 AM
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i'm officially sick... hows dat?

got another bad news from the emcee... hopefully everything will be fine...

y some people dont understand that we dont have much time left??? haihx..

I'm so vexed and tired... n now that i'm sick...

kinda missed practice today.. overslept... i totally knocked out... from 6 to 8... had weird dreams..

i'm coughing like nobody's business... i dont know how am i supposed to sing if i continue coughing...

i really need a break from all this...

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:55 AM
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got some bad news from the hair n makeup sponsors today.. haihx.. luckily we had a laz minute idea to fix the problem.. 1 thing we learnt today.. quote from alvin:"money doesn't solve everything."

tml alvin will be goin down to jb to get the event t shirts.. hope everything will be fine...

anyway, today's practice was quite okay... every1 performed quite well..

ticket sales are not gd enuf... will need to put in more effort to sell tickets tml d..

I'm falling sick~~

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:21 AM
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judging from today's rehearsal... i can say some songs are not up to standard yet... including my songs... i'm really extremely stressed out now...

y cant some ppl understand that there are only 4 days left before the recital.. 4 FREAKING DAYS~!!! n they still wanna make changes... they r still unsure of what to play... they dont even knw the chords... dont they feel at least A BIT nervous?

n the 2 songs i'm singing.. i totally screwed it.. i'm really worried about my singing.. i keep going out of tune.. it would be a disaster if i go out of tune on the night of the event.. haihx...

i really need all the help n confidence for these last few days to make this event successful...

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:59 AM
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i thought everything would be fine today... didnt seem so... was asked to go for practice when the total number of ppl showing up for 4 song practices were like 4 ppl only? pls la if there are no ppl, juz cancel off the practice... its saturday n i dont even get a day off..

it was halfway through practice.. when some1 said sumthing to me.. i couldnt take it anymore.. walked out of da room n cried.. luckily there was some1 with me.. the same person that made me cry.. ironic isnt it? he took me on a car ride around campus... talked to me until i felt better.. i'm really totally stressed out..

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:33 AM
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I have been through a lot of ups n downs these few weeks.. really getting frustrated over lots of stuff.. recital would be one of them.. I really don't appreciate people not turning up for no reason.. If you r not coming, let me know at least.. don't go MIA when i'm frantically searching everywhere for you..

Another thing.. a phone call yesterday made me miss my class.. great..

I'm getting really short tempered these days.. really cant keep my temper down.. but so far i have not shouted at anybody.. yet..

n i'm really stressed out singing... n no1 is taking me seriously... when i tell them i'm stressed.. every1 just brush me off like i'm talking crap.. fine.. n when others get stressed.. ppl go to them n calm them down.. n when its me, the juz tell me:"you'll be fine." End of story. why is it that no1 is listening to me at all? do i look like i'm dat strong and i'm able to take in everything? even the stress and the nerves? i seriously cant take it.. but anyway.. who cares? no 1 will..

ok i'm getting emotional.. haih.. better stop my ramblings.. signing out..

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:29 AM
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I feel so stressed out n tired now.. I duno what am i doing wrong.. my voice just doesn't sound right.. every1 is telling me theres something wrong.. but when i ask more, no1 can tell me what did i do wrong.. I'm so frustrated at myself... I'm worried i might just spoil the song.. i dont want the comments to come out like: "this singer sucks", "she cant sing at all", "she went out of tune", "she totally spoilt the song".... N i onli have 2 weeks to make it right... what am I supposed to do?

I think i've been pushing myself too hard recently.. with all the practices n stuff.. I had an asthma attack 2 days ago.. n its the 1st time it ever happened to me.. I started coughing suddenly n the next thing i knew it, i had difficulty breathing.. took me 10 minutes to regulate my breathing again.. i broke out in cold sweat... i was shaking all over by the time the asthma stopped... i couldnt even talk properly.. hope it doesnt happen again..

I'm addicted to coffee recently... at 1st it was 1 cup per day... started drinking more n more.. i had 4 cups of coffee today itself.. n this has been going on for 2 weeks.. n its not helping to keep me focused... i cant seem to feel the effect of caffeine anymore..

theres something else making me very frustrated recently.. i have made things clear.. hope things will be fine soon..

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:59 AM
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My sleeping habit is a mess.. I have been sleeping at 5am in the morning almost everyday for the past few weeks.. Not good for me I know.. but what to do.. Until I finally finish everything I'm doing (surfing, arranging documents, chatting, gaming.. etc) ITS ALREADY 5.. lolx..

My friends have been trying to pair me up with every guy I hang out with recently.. haha... anyways... enjoying my single life now.. not gonna rush into a new relationship.. take things slow~ heh..

recently have been busy looking for jobs for internship.. i hope i can find a job in Cyberjaya.. i really dont feel like goin back to jb to work.. especially when i found out that i'm gonna work for my relative.. not that its not good.. but i just dont like the idea of working for a relative.. although the thought of being able to drive n a sure A in my results seems very tempting.. I'll still try n look for jobs in Cyberjaya.. going back to jb will be my last resort..

Having holidays right now.. enjoying every bit of it~ heh.. went out with keesiong today~! didnt think we would be able to meet up cuz none of us knew we were having holidays.. haha.. saw him online n we chatted... found out both of us are in jb.. wad a coincedence... n he paid for my movie ticket! so nice of him.. thnx ks! hee.. n we gave up on hanwei.. super fed up.. got gf d dun wanna go out with us d laaaaa NVM.. lolx.. jk la.. anyways.. had fun today.. watched Marley and Me.. quite a nice show to watch la.. a story about a dog and a family.. got me crying in the end.. :P

anyway.. v tired now.. going shopping with godma tomorrow! gotta force myself to sleep earlier tonight.. its already almost 1.. eeks! signing out! Nitex~!

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:37 AM
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Hey guys.. its been a month in to my new trimester... i've been super bz.. in juz 1 month.. i have already performed in 3 different events.. lolx... of cuz i enjoyed all of them..

1st was Chinese New Year Extravaganza... I was da guitarist for 2 songs.. Qin Yi's Huo Yuan Jia and Ghim Yao & Hui Yen's Xiao Jiu Wo.. It was nice la.. All of us had fun..


2nd was Japanese Cultural Night.. i was da singer! like for da 1st time.. singing japanese songs! LOLX... I actually didnt really have confidence in this... cuz i always thought i couldnt sing.. i nv thought my voice was good... yes i love to sing n i always hoped that i can perform on stage n have a band play for me.. but i'm always scared of singing on stage... not stage fright... but i juz dont think that any1 would think i can sing at all.. so yea.. i dont know if i screwed up the song.. but i still kinda enjoyed it.. haha


3rd 1 was yesterday night! a wedding!! i actually played for a wedding!! hahaa... its a first for me man.. 20+ songs... live band at a wedding... sounds so pro right? HAHAHA... no la.. actually there were some glitches here n there but overall it was great.. n all of us got an ang pow! n 1st time we got paid so much... i mean.. ppl are paying to get us to perform.. wow~~~ although its still below market price for a live band but hey~ we r not professionals right? hehe.. anyways.. i'm still very happy to be able to perform at a wedding.. a very pleasant experience for me.. :)

so this whole week was super bz la..

monday - interviewed the singers n musicians for the 6th recital
tuesday - FB gathering
weds - song practice for japanese cultural night
thurs - japanese cultural night performance
friday - practice for the wedding night
saturday - wedding night performance

n juz like dat.. my whole week gone~ hahhaa

eventful, tiring but fun as well~ :P

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:55 PM
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Hey ppl.. its been some time since i last blogged... well.. i"m gonna blog about my unlucky holiday.. ahha.. not to say its THAT bad.... but still... so here goes.. n its according to the lunar calendar...

28th
-No electricity

29th
-No water

30th
- I almost got blinded by a wooden hanger accidentally flung at me in Jusco
- My house was suddenly filled which mosquitoes and no1 knew where they came from

1st
- Good thing nothing happened on CNY

2nd
- My 2 good friends bought another 5 guys to my place.. making it 7 guys in total.. including my ex boyfriend.. n my mum almost recognized him from a foto she saw 2 years ago
- 1 side of my high heel dropped into a fish pond while i was at a buffet at a relative's place

4th
- I bought a lipstick which the gal at the shop gave me the wrong color...

9th
- A pearl from my earring fell out n went missing... Did i mention its new?

11th
- Some1 I totally disliked had me waiting downstairs for him for a long time with another gal who came down after me... n he actually apologized to her ONLY. Fine.
- I suddenly got involved in a performance I never actually intended to join... On SHORT notice

14th
- A screw came off my guitar n i cant seem to fix it back.. n its the Taylor by the way..
- I broke a glass which costed me RM18? I think so...

and Finally... its the 15th already... Chap Goh Mei... its the end of CNY.. n I hope this ends my v unlucky CNY too... :)

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:24 AM
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YAY~!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been eyeing this watch for SOOOO LONG~!!!!

I saw this watch a few years ago... in the Esprit shop... I fell in love with it instantly.. But it was way too expensive.. So i had no choice but to only look at it every time i went into an Esprit shop or the watch shop...

Yesterday, I went out with godma.. She wanted to buy me a watch.. As a belated Christmas present and a New Year present.. The brand is Che Che.. The watch had a poodle in the middle all covered with white and light pink swarovski crystals.. and the outer ring of the watch had bright pink swarovski crystals around it.. the strap is the same as my casio pink watch.. onli its made of plastic.. n its white in colour..

Lucy for me the shop had Esprit too.. so Godma let me choose between Che Che and Esprit... both the same price.. RM399... v pricey for a watch... although it was temtping and the little poodle was soooooooo cute... I finally chose my all time favorite ESPRIT!!!!

Thanks a million Godma!!!




YAY~!!!!!!!!!!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:01 AM
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After 1 year, 9 months and 24 days.. we broke up on the last day of 2008.. yup... its over between us.. Actually, I've been thinking a lot about this relationship.. I don't regret making this decision and I'm actually quite relieved I made this choice.

Just now, I called my dad and told him about this.

Since young, my dad has never asked me much about what I do or who I mix with. He always gave me the freedom to do the things I wanted as long as he thought it was okay. The only thing he cared about a lot was my studies and my future. I really thank him a lot for bringing me up this way. He made me found who I am and what I really want.

Just now during that conversation with my dad, tears came rolling down my face. He not only understood me, he even gave me advice. He told me, you have lots of relationships ahead. This is no big matter. Who ever you want to be with, what matters the most is that you have to have the same interest.

We talked about what I would do after I graduate. And for the 1st time, he asked me:"What are your plans?" I have never heard him say this before. For years, my dad has planned everything for me. Where to study, which course to take, every single thing. For the 1st time, he asked me what are my plans. I was so overwhelmed by all his words. It may seem normal for some, but for me to have this conversation with my dad, I was really very happy.

I'm very grateful to have a dad like him and I really look up to him. He is the best dad I could ever have! Love ya! Happy 2009~! Looking forward to a new year ahead!

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:43 PM
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Friends do really matter a lot to me. They are always there for me when I need them. They are always there to share my joy n sorrow. I'm someone who needs someone to talk to when I'm down. People who don't know me well always see me as the happy-go-lucky type. I'm not. I do have my ups and downs. I do tend to think a lot. Too much sometimes. I know how it matters to me when I'm really down and that someone is there to listen to my rants and complaints. So yeah, just wanna say thanks to a few people here.

Yi Xian


I've known u longer than anyone else. It's been 10 years. We were in the same class from Standard 4 to Standard 6. We did the newspaper project together in Standard 6. We got into the same Secondary School. We were in the same St. John team. We were in the same Chinese tuition class. I went to your place more than other friend's places. We had a lot of fun together. So cheers to our 10 years of friendship~!

Li Yinn


Liyinn oh Liyinn.. You have always been so much fun~ Thanks for ALWAYS fetching me around in JB. Its wierd that we never get a chance to go out together in KL although we are studying in the SAME uni. Oh ya, change your wallet. LOLX

Kee Siong


You have always been there for me whenever I needed someone to talk to. You've given me so much advice. My problems always seem to disappear after talking to you. You always bring calmness and encouraged me a lot. I couldn't thank you enough.

Zhen Yang


My dear little brother. You heard me cry the most on the phone. Haha.. I really enjoy takling to you, no matter its just casual chatting or serious talking. You seem to be able to cheer me up whenever i'm down. Talking to you just makes my day. =)

Bing Xin


Xin er~ Although we've only known each other for less than a year, we hit off pretty well! We have similiar personalities and share the same passion for music. I really enjoy performing on stage with you. You are a great friend to have and I really treasure our friendship.

Christina


Last but not least, Nana~!!! My best Uni-mate, Course-mate, Class-mate, "Les-mate", House-mate, Room-mate! We met in such a funny way. We've shared so much great times together from Malacca to Cyberjaya. I think it was meant to be, for us to get to know each other and ultimately becoming good friends. Love ya~!

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:14 AM
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Results are out... yep... totally screwed it again... i got like.. 3.2 gpa and my cgpa dropped again frm 3.34 to 3.31... I'm not at all happy with my results although it showed little improvement from my previous 1... I'm so so so angry at myself for not doing well. I could have done so much better.. I used to be able to get 1st class results... i could in the past, why not now? Is it that i'm reverting back to my lazy self? I cant let this go on...

I feel so bad.. This is not what i should get.. This is not me.. What happened? Being average is not enough.. I know i can do better.. I must work extra hard next sem..

Today my family celebrated my birthday.. I teared up when we were taking photos... I tried my best not to let any1 see it... It was my 1st birthday without grandpa.. Me, grandpa, n godpa used to celebrate our birthdays together.. our birthdays are only days apart.. n now... i'll never get to celebrate my birthday with grandpa anymore... Grandpa... i really miss u alot... Thanks for coming into my dreams b4 my accounting paper... u gave me the confidence i needed to sit for the paper... although i did not do well, i still passed.. I know u are watching me up there...

Its really hard for me to just wake up everyday and realize that you r not there anymore.. When i come back to jb, I see your car parked at grandma's house.. I dont see you walking out of the house to greet me.. I dont see you sitting at your table... I dont see you fetching da kids to school... it just breaks my heart... words cant describe my pain..

i really miss you...

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:32 AM
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I'm super sien now... juz got woken up v abruptly by my housemate... super pek ckek.... until i cried... stupid right.. i know... bt my heart is beating like way too fast now... i cant even breath normally.... stupid... I seldom have a day of good slp... n this is wad happen when i finally get to slp..... super stupid...

i look upon the moon and stars at 8:41 PM
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I've been thinking to myself quite a lot lately.. What is it that makes you a person as a whole? Is it true that no one can ever be THE perfect person in everyone's eyes? So no one is ever perfect right? Can one ever rectify a bad first impression? These questions really got me into thinking.. How much do I know about myself? I've been having these fluctuating feelings..

When i was in high school.. People used to say I was too serious.. I used to be depressed.. I used to be suicidal.. I used to think that theres no meaning in life..

I realized this problem.. I tried to understand myself more.. I tried to look at things in different perspectives.. I changed..

Yet now.. I'm being described as childish.. I'm being described as someone who have no brains.. Someone who isn't a good leader..

Why is it so hard to find the balancing point in life? To be the person that people can accept without much complaints..

I'm not trying to be THE person people want me to be.. But by ignoring them, I'm ignoring myself.. By denying them, I'm denying myself..

What actually is the problem with me? And when can I actually find this balancing point of mine?

i look upon the moon and stars at 7:24 AM
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The original image:



Step 1: Use the brush tool to turn the sky into grayscale.



Step 2: The same tool is used to color the slide with any color you like. For me, i colored it with green, blue, pink, yellow and red.




Step 3: Color the pant with brown. Make sure the brush is in "color" mode.



Step 4: Color the shirt

Step 5: Use brush tool to draw a sun on the right.



Step 6: Crop a girl image from the other picture and paste it into this image.



Step 7:



This is the final image.

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:45 AM
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Its 5am in the morning and I'm super tired. There are so many things on my mind and I don't even know what I'm thinking at the moment.

Something happened today made me think to myself. How does other people see me as a person? Put aside physical appearance which I know very well myself. What about my character?

Is it that once people have a preset view on yourself, or should I say, have expectations on you, you have to live up to their expectations? So what if you can't?

i feel that sometimes, I try to become what people think I should be.

And when you don't perform well enough, they think the problem lies in you.

Is it really that hard to just be myself?

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:48 AM
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I'm having really bad luck recently...

• I lost my phone (Heart broken)
• My guitar broke (Devastated)
  
• The guitar string went deep into my finger when i tried to remove it from the guitar. (Bled. Alot.)
• I lost a watch(Numb)
• I'm sick (Weeks? Months?)
  
• Misunderstandings with my housemate (Completely broke down)

And i thought people said it'll stop after 3 rounds of bad luck.

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:12 AM
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Alrigh... I'm finally back... guess wad happened? I actually forgot my username and password for my blog!!! well thats a first for me~ anyway... after trying countless times trying to get the right combination... i finally gave up.. and tried to retrieve the correct email that i was using for this blog.. then i had to change my password again... and finally... i'm here... obviously... i'm getting old..

So anyway... I've shifted to my new place... its great... i mean... at last i dun have to see the faces of my old hsemates... which included an indian gal who ALWAYS used our stuff without permission.. and melted da edge of my soup bowl.. hows dat? oh yea.. not forgetting.. blasting indian music early in da morning and late at night.. and indian guys appearing in my place on and off... i'm not trying to be racist here... but its juz her i cant stand.. and 2 other ppl are my "beloved" house owner and her husband.. who ALWAYS forgot to pay da bills leading to some electricity and water supply cut off... GREAT...

I'm done there.. so yea.. I LOVE da new place... 5 of us.. 3 gals.. 2 guys.. got to know all of them from activities.. and da coolest thing is we all play music! theres this drummer, a bassist, a guitarist/backup vocalist, a keyboardist/vocalist, and a shakerist! hows dat? we hav a full band in da house yo! hhaah...

I'll be back in jb next weekend... grandpa passed away 49 days.. theres a ceremony which i must attend to.. so yea.. will be updating soon i guess... chao!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:37 PM
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公公。。你走了已经有十二天了。。你还好吗？我们烧给你的东西都收到了吧？ 你在那里开心吗？ 有认识到朋友吗？你人缘那么好，应该没问题吧？

其实，我有好多东西想跟你说。。 你也真得不应该。。怎么走得那么突然呢？ 我多几天考完试就会回来找你了啊。。

星期三早上，一考完，接到老妈的电话。。 我崩溃了。。

回到去。。看到你安祥地躺在那里。。 我不能接受。。 我真得不能。。明明前几天才跟你通过电话。。 我还告诉你要好好照顾自己。。 怎么会这样？

从小到大，你最疼我了。。 以前除了爸爸，就是你跟婆婆陪我玩了。。家里就只有我一个小的。。 回想起从前，其实你每次陪我玩的那些游戏，你其实都不会玩吧？不过你从来都没有不理我，每次都会陪我玩。。以玩就玩上几个小时。。

从幼儿园到小学，到中学。。每天载我去学校。。载我放学。。载我去补习。。载我去学钢琴。。 我懂你最没有耐心了。。总来都不喜欢等人。。 不过你载我载了那么多年，从来都没埋怨过一句。。每次在我都会提早一个小时到。。甚至更早。。是因为怕塞车，怕我等。。每次载我，总会买一罐水，一点点心给我吃，怕我饿。。 每次买东西给我吃，明明都是贵，你都不舍得买给自己吃，却买给我吃。。

还记得小学时，你每次驾车都给我控制手轧。。 我想，也只有你会敢让一个小学生那么做吧？

妈妈每次跟我说，我跟你最像了。。 喜欢吃的东西都一样。。 她还说，你跟我说话的语气最温柔了。。好像跟女朋友讲电话一样。。 每次载我放学都会叫我到“老地方”等。。老妈每次听到都会笑的。。

中学时，你每次偷偷买电话卡给我，又怕我被骂。。每次都要偷偷给我。。有一次还把电话卡藏在钢琴里呢。。 也只有你才想得到这样的点子吧？

高中考试时，你带我去庙拜拜，拿了好多张符哦。。每天考几科就烧几张。。我知道你也是希望我考到好成绩。。

自从我在外读书，你差不多每天都会打给我，问我回到家了没有，吃饱了没有。。

一回到去，又会塞钱给我，怕我没钱用。。 知道我回来，又会特地去订猪肝猪腰，叫婆婆煮给我吃。。

头七，老妈打来说你有回来看我们。。有去我的房。。不过我都不在。。 我还跟老妈讲，你回来都找不到我。。谁知道那天下午就梦到你了。。 你有听到我跟老妈的谈话吧？是你托梦给我的吧？在梦里，你告诉我你在那里过得很好。。还会回来看我们。。 那是那对吗？你来找我对吗？

我还以为。。你能看到我毕业。。

我还想过。。 我出来打工的第一份工钱，要拿来请你们吃一餐。。

我还以为。。 你会看到我结婚。。

我还以为。。 我会有机会好好地孝顺你。。

我还想听到你每晚打给我的那通电话。。

还想跟你一起去印度店吃东西。。

还想看到你在家迎接我回来。。

还想看到你每次见到我露出的笑容。。

公公。。你在那里一定要过得很好噢。。你替神做过那么多善事。。 他一定会好好照顾你的。。有空一定要回来找我们。。 我们都很想你。。萱萱还不懂事。。还以为你在睡觉呢。。你要好好照顾自己哦。。

也许我没讲过，不过这是我打从心底想跟你说的。。

公公， 我爱你。

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:21 AM
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I'm so stressed out.. I'm finally feeling the pressure closing in on me.. Never before I've been so afraid of failing.. I don't know..

I know i don't really go for classes.. I only have myself to blame.. but what good will it do me if I go for class and I still can't understand a single thing? Ironic isn't it?

Sometimes I think I'm dyslexic.. I can't seem to read things word by word.. It just appears to me like some drawing..

I'll start studying till morning from tonight onwards.. Since i know I can't concentrate well in the afternoon.. Might as well sleep in the afternoon and study at night..

I have a feeling I'll be crying a lot these 2 weeks.. Sorry Mun Chong~

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:14 AM
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I think I'm too indecisive...

Fickle minded...

Maybe I didn't get to do much of the choosing back then..

Many things I did because I had no choice..

Now, when choices seem to be abundant..

I'm the one who is getting lost in the midst of choices..

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:46 PM
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Well well well.. Its been 1 year+ since i've last blogged... difinitely a long time.. WAY TOO LONG~~ lolx.. anyway.. accidentally opened dis blog.. read through alot of stuff.. brought back alot of memories.. both good n bad.. Never knew i wrote blogs so frequently in the past.. i shud continue writing i guess.. for the sake of my memories.. (lets just say i dont have good memory~)

Looking back at the posts i once wrote.. i really can say that.. I've changed a lot.. and i really mean A LOT.. The posts i wrote 2 year ago.. most of them were full of hatred.. sadness.. sorrow.. I guess i was still young.. (not to say i'm v old now.. but still..) i was very strong headed.. Many things happened and maybe at that time, i couldn't take things that easily.. i was hit.. hard.. right in the face.. and i couldnt recover.. it really took me a long time.. i really had a hard time.. i was lost.. i had no direction.. right until i entered mmu.. that was when i started to change.. for the better of course.. people say you change as the environment changes.. i really must agree to that..

There are still things i need to improve on.. I've often overlooked alot of things.. my weakness.. my problems.. i never really thought they mattered so much.. until recently.. i realized after i entered uni, my command of English has slowly deteriorated.. up to a certain extend, i was questioning myself can i still say my English is good? It was never a problem for me to stand in
front of people and talk.. but recently.. i noticed.. i'm starting to stammer.. not because i'm scared.. my mind just goes blank.. maybe its the lack of practice? or its because i just dont speak english that often in uni anymore? almost all of my friends are chinese speaking... maybe that the reason.. i shud read more english books from now on.. i shud blog more in english too.. maybe that'll help..

Another thing.. i'm having problem with my leadership skills.. i've always been told that i have good leadership skills..i thought so too.. but after organizing an event.. it doesnt seem so anymore.. I really learnt a lot through this event.. it really woke me up and portrayed all my weaknesses.. i realized there are still a lot of things that i'm still incapable of.. maybe i was too self confident in the past.. but now i'm learning.. to improve myself and also to become a better leader.

We had post mortem today.. for our recital.. well.. organizing this recital.. has really been a challenge to me.. i have to admit.. there were many things i overlooked.. some which were quite critical.. in the end.. we managed to pull it off.. it was juz pure luck... i know.. without the performers this year.. the recital would have never been possible at all.. today many commented on my leading skills.. i really have to admit that i dont trust people.. maybe thats my weakness.. i've been trying hard to overcome this.. i've made improvements but nt enough.. they are right.. i'm not strict enough.. i was once very strict.. during high school.. people said i was too strict.. seriously.. i really dont know where is the balancing point.. i've been trying very hard.. many may not see it.. they may not know it.. but its okay.. i know it myself.. i dont know how people see me as a leader or as a person.. but i'm trying hard.. i just need some time..

anyway.. really tired now.. gotta get some sleep.. signing out.. ciao~

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:59 AM
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FINALLY!!! i have a new blogskin!!! thnx to edwin's kacau-ing... abt my forever-same-old-dull-blogskin... hahaa....

anyways... pretty pleased with this blogskin... pink n blue!! nice sia! da 1st skin i saw ler... love at 1st sight! lolx

well life's been really hectic for me these few weeks...

X midterm nx week...
X song practice every monday, tuesday, n friday...
X song composing comp on 1st April ...
X accounting project due on 13th April
X cyber concert on 18th April

just finish writing the melody for this year's song composing theme song a few days ago... a senior of mine did a wonderful music arrangement for tht song.. really thank him for that.. then the 3 songs that got into the finals... 1 playing guitar for "ai qing fang cheng shi", singing backup for " tao tuo", n singing " wo xiang xin" together with zheng kai... really hope everything goes well... cuz obviously i really dont have time to practice at all! lolx

really busy like mad... n the worse thing is.. i havent been sleeping well lately.. keep having wierd dreams... waking up feeling lethargic as ever... aixx... whats wrong with me? really yearn for a good night's sleep... i dunno.. hope tonight i wont have wierd dreams again.. haha!

anyway... really need to slp d... i have like... 3 hours more to sleep? haha.... gotta wake up early in the morning tomorrow... auntie bringing me out for breakfast.. yepx...

so yea... will update nx time.. bye ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:11 AM
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long long long time nv blog here d... lol... so i'm gonna blog here today instead of my friendster blog... oh well... we finally got together.... 7th march.... yeah... v happy la... long time since my last 1.... finally got da courage to accept n to love again... so anyway.... we r hundreds of kilometres apart... yeah... not exactly far bt well we still cant see each other until this june.... bt da good thing is my mum knows n allows... phew.. lolx.. anyway... dunno wad to say d... will update more nx time la... bye!

i look upon the moon and stars at 7:26 PM
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3 weeks of holidays have passed...

Lets start da entry with a saddening news... i did really badly in my 2nd sem finals... yeah... i mean REALLY BADLY... n guess wad? i got a C+ for my English... C+!!!!! I went crazy... I cried straight away once i saw the results... i cudnt slp the whole night... I just cant accept the fact i got a C+ for my english... i've never gotten anything below A for my english since primary school... nt dat i wannt brag abt it... english has been my strongest subject all along... i really cant believe i did so badly... my parents asked me to appeal for a re-mark for my english paper... well... we'll see how things go... anyway... my gpa dropped frm 3.74 to 3.2... big dive ehh? i couldnt believe it either... i did v well for my midterm.. i hav no idea wad happened... i guess i was to engrossed in club activities... Monday, Wednesday n Thursday nights were all reserved for club activities... added to that, we needed to design a website for our computer applications project, n we needed to make jelly n sell them for our business management project... all of these were too time consuming for me to cope with... i really felt very bad... i felt very bad for being too active in activities... i felt very bad for not studying enough... i felt very bad for not doing well in my finals...

用华文打吧。我上了大学后，下定决心要努力读书，为了要证明给我的父母看，我是能读书的，我是能够自立的。第一学期总算没白费，考出了好成绩。不过现在，我好像又跌落谷底似的。以前中学时的的种种原因让我无法专心读书，以为上了大学能够抛开一切，重新来过，谁知道结果还是一样，我还是忙于课外活动。我觉得真的很对不起自己。明明努力地拼了， 年中考考到好成绩了，却又偏偏落败于年终考。可笑吧？唯有下学期努力拼过了。。。

好了，伤心事说完了，来一点开心的吧！

三个礼拜的假期虽然很短，但我也算过得很充实。跟姐妹出去，上吉隆坡找chris和winston，跟微晶创作坊的朋友唱k，跟“老爸”出去，去找乾弟，跟莉颖去看戏，跟姐妹唱k，跟乾哥们出去，帮二哥庆祝生日，家人帮我提早庆祝生日，还有好多好多。几乎每天都有约会。这三个礼拜我都过得很开心。对了！我买了好多部连戏剧哦！有时间的话可以慢慢看。

还有一件是，前男友最近有开始联络我了。他的“一时失踪，一时出现”把我弄得好混乱。真的不懂他到底在想什么？不管了。我也累了。最近我好像对一个人有好感，不过却不敢对他说些什么。也许是害怕再受伤害吧。以前的那道疤痕原来还是存在的。。。我一直在安慰着自己，也许对他只是暂时的喜欢，过一些日子就会慢慢淡掉的。可悲吧？一向叫人要勇往直前得我，一向坦率得我，在处理感情这种事情却是那么的懦弱。况且我跟他很有可能会分得好远好远，就算真的有感情，也是很难维持的。可以说是天使地利人和都不在我这一边吧。喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他，这是我时常劝朋友时说的，不过要用在自己身上时真的好难。我成熟了吧，变理智了。以前能不顾一切地去喜欢一个人，能把自己想说的都告诉他。现在，不一样了。需要考虑的事情太多了，也时常把事情藏在心里。变成熟了真的是件好事吗？

无论如何，我也只能等吧。希望能找到一个解决的方法。。。

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:48 AM
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something is wrong with me.. suddenly i feel like posting another post again... hmmm....

recently sum1 asked me abt my ex again.. n made me start to think n wonder... how is he?

we've lost contact for around 3 months by now... since he came back to msia.. we've totally lost contact.. i dont know y... maybe i'm juz tired... tired to contact him... maybe i've grown up from my naiveness.. holding on to the promise we've made to each other that we'd still be best friends.. it doesnt seem so now does it?

i've changed...

i've seen alot... too much i can say... sometimes i really get tired... although yea... i do feel lonely at times... i still feel da emptiness in my heart... bt its been a long time.. maybe i have already got used to it.. or am i scared? scared to even face myself... my own thoughts.... its hard to make myself fall in love again.. not because of my ex... i dont know... its like a voice in my head telling myself... even if i like some1, its juz a feeling... it'll fade... thats wad the voice has been telling me...

i'm cheating myself...

i know.. but what can i do? its this voice in me thats making me... i should say unsensitive towards my own feelings anymore... and i dont know wad to do about it..

its so difficult to love again..

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:05 AM
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well well well.... wasnt expecting myself to blog... but anyway... here i am...

so yeah... finals next week... i'm starting to feel the stress ade... these few weeks ive been stayin in ixora... i'm becoming a PR there... lolx...

oh well... all my projects have come to an end... website submitted... prob n stats tutorial handed in... business project ended... yepx... we earned a total of RM206.. all donated to charity... well i really have to thank my group members... for giving coorperation to me... its not easy being a group leader.. bt thanks to all of them... we did it... jellies, biscuits, n marshmallows.. all sold out.. hehx...

guitar class has ended... feedbacks are ok... quite good i can say.. except for some tutors... ~~~ wont elaborate on that..



this sem is coming to an end... life has been very busy... hectic should be the word... always rushing here and there.. sometimes i do miss the times like last semester... when chris, winston, christina, bean n me... always together... eat togeher... study together... go out together... sleepover together at chris's place or at my place... last semester i had much more free time.. more time to bond with the few of them... things wouldnt be the same again would it?

although i do miss laz sem alot... i cant deny that i had alot of fun this sem too... minus the tiredness... lol... after joining micros as a committee... i learned alot.. n made a new bunch of good frenx too...


n i realized too... my "counselling" skills are improving.. lolx... well this counselling job hasnt stopped for me this sem.. haha.... the onli difference is... the people i counsell keep changing.. well i wont say i'm a good counseller but i'm definitely a good listener.. well at least i cn help some ppl... which is gd enuf..

hmm wad else.. dat day me, ee jie n jessica went to jonker street ooo!!! lolx... n u know wad happened? it rained.... wad de piang... if dats not enuf, guess wad? we took off our shoes n we were practically running bare footed all over jonker street IN THE RAIN... haha... n there we were all wet splashing water at each other... haha... n we ate keropok n drank liang teh in the rain... AHAHA!!! anyway... we were vvv happy la... haha... except for eejie when she fell sick da nx day... LOL.... we went on dis taxi on da way back... man i tell u.... da taxi uncle is hillarious man.... keep asking us stupid IQ questions... hhaa.... damn funny man.... oh ya... we bought a few necklace... hehe... in da end we reached home happy, tired n wet.. haha...

k la k la... 1 am d n i havent studied anything yet... i'm so dead... will update more soon.... nic out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:59 PM
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Yozz.... had the performance at jonker street last night... it was a success i can say... many ppl gathered arnd to see... i can say althought we weren't the best team... bt at least we weren't da worst.. ahha... no la... every1 was good... not forgetting the Wings singers... damn were they a bomb with cao ge's superwoman.. they did a fantastic 3 person acapella at the start... dunno whether any1 had the vid of it... bt anyway... me n ah cheng were the 1st to represent micros la... sang guo xiong's yuan lai ai... it was nt bad... heh.. too bad hsien yun didnt record it dwn... then wingee sang kai liang n wei keong's tian kong ye zhi dao.. yeps... was a bit pitchy n wingee forgot a few lines bt she managed to pull it through.. haha... we were like running a marathon... cuz us, which is micros song composing div , nian shao qing song composing group, xuan music cafe, n wings music cafe took turns singing... starting frm 8.30 till around 12! haha... around 9 sumthing it ws our slot again.. this time we sang pop songs.. i sang ah mei's ji de with ah cheng.. not bd... too bad ah cheng's mic was too far... so it was quite soft... then played di yu tian shi for wingee... she did a great job this time around...

after everything has ended, we headed to the nearby restraunt to celebrate with the nian shao qing peeps.. had a great time la... 1st time singing in such a special place.. hehx.. bt it was quite a pity la.. didnt had the chance to go to the other stations to see the other ppl sing.. cuz there were bands at other stations... whereas ours was the unplugged station.. hehx...

k la.. thts all for this post... chao!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:22 PM
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hey hey hey!!! I am officially back in the blogsphere! yepx... after say... erm.. 2 months? yeahh... i'm starting to miss blogging about my daily life....

So yeah... wad happened ehh? Seems lot.. lets hav a re-cap of wad i did... if i still remember anyhting at all! lolx...

lets see... my studies for this sem seems okay so far... da most suprising 1 shud be my probability n statistics paper i guess... i got 59/60 man!! xiadaaaooo.. lol... others ok la... nt too gd but can be considered above average...

hmm... oh yea.. i'm now a committee of cls (chinese language society) micros song composing div.
currently in charge of the guitar classes... i'm teaching as well... chio ler! haha... nthn to brag abt actually... cuz there r 6 other ppl teaching with me.. HAHA! we r juz assistants... helping out da teacher...

last week i went to town.. to learn how to make tea! hhaa... nt da normal teh o... u know.. erm.. chinese tea? da traditional type? yeahh... there was this 1 day course la... so i went.. with a few other cls committee... it was fun... hehe.... learnt alot...

n oh ya... i'm staying over at wingee's place these few days! haha.... holiday ma... national day... so yeahh... came over...

tml i'll be performing at malacca's jonker street!!! woohoo!!! 1st time man! i'll be playing da guit for 4 songs... 2 for wingee n 2 for ah cheng... i'll be singing with ah cheng as well.. heh... i'll be singing ah mei's ji de... its a medley actually... ahcheng will be singing jj's bu dong.. then i'll be singing backup for ah cheng's song.. which is yuan lai ai.. written by one of our seniors..

anyway... v tired d la... its almost 2.30am d.. aha... gonna hav a hair cut tml mornin... ah cheng fetching me.. yay! no need to walk.. haha... nic out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:58 PM
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finally i'm back.. after almost 1 month? yeah... lets juz say i got to lazy to even post anything... well i'm happy to say that my grandpa is okay ade.. yups.. they removed da whole kidney plus the tumor... it wasnt 2-4 cm as expected... it was 6cmx6cmx8cm... yeahh... dat was how BIG it was... bt everything is fine now.. grandpa resting at home..

so how did i spend my 3 weeks of holidays.. hmm.. lets see... 1st week was in n out of the hospital... see my grandpa ma... 2nd week.. hmm... nthn much la.. went out with jye swei n shau chong... went to red box lo.. went out with wingee n da gang... go shopping at tebrau city lo... then went to da junior's st john camping... it was.. erm.... well... ok la... dont wanna comment too much abt it.. bt i had a gr8 time with my juniors la.. so long nv see them ade ma.. then i went to kl.. went out wid da mmu gang.. christina, chris n winston.. n of course.. chris drove.. ahha... went t time square lo... went to da neway there... which was somewat.. sucky? compared to redbox la... yups... bt anyway... had dinner in a korean shop... da food there v nice la.. thnx to chris.. ahaha... n for da 1st time i went out with my frenx until like.. 11? lol.... considered late for me as i always go back like.. wad.. 5? in jb... yeahh... traffic jam ma.. wad to do... 3rd week was okayy... went out wid keesiong... oso long time nv see him ade.... went to cs lo.... met many ppl there la.... all da form 6 peeps in ssi... then went to sch on fri lo... then went to cs to meet ed n yin ling... went to tebrau city to meet jeremy... pei xin joined us too... shopped there for almost a whole day la.. lolx... oh ya... i bought a new converse sling bag n a pencil box.. n some new baju la... my old ones like kiam cai ade if u know wad i mean.. n i'm proud to say dat i didnt on da tv in my room throughout these 3 weeks!!! hahaa..... y? cuz i was hooked to playing o2jam... yeah.. imagine.. frm lvl14 to 1vl27 in juz less than 3 weeks... haha... geng lerr... like 24 hours non stop onli.. haha... n celebrated my mum's budday wid my gorgors lo... made cheesecake n yogurt!! haha... v nice lerrr... haha...

well thts all for my 3 weeks of holidays...

class started ade... new faces everywhere.. freshies all around... non forgetting my ssi peeps n sum other jb peeps la.. finally they r here... haha... june intake ma... so these few days hav been bringing them around for dinner lo... lecturers r okayy... some r extremely cute though.. lolx... accounting lecturer on da other hand.. well i dunno abt tht... not a v gd first impression though.. hav to see for further confirmation.. hahaha....

k la... gtg ade.. i'm actually in da campus library... stupid internet connection in my apartment got prob.. haihx... k la... signin out.... will update nx time! bye!

i look upon the moon and stars at 2:02 PM
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my granpa went for the operation on monday... there was a tumor at his right kidney.. suspected to be 2-4cm in diameter... so yeah... da op lasted for 7 hours... longer than expected.. n d tumor was larger than expected.. it was 6 cm in diameter... large ehh.. yeahh... when he was in the op theater.. my granma was crying.. i was trying my best to hold back my tears as well.. we were v worried la... but luckily.. everything went well.. it was quite scary to see him with all the tubes comin out of him... da doc showed us da tumor oso.. wid the kidney la.. they took eveything out.. its huge la.. but anyway.. will be goin to the hospital v often to keep my granpa company...

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:55 AM
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yes, its holidays for me again... sorry for disappearing for such a long time... lets juz say i dont even hav time to slp.. lol... dat is how bz i was these pass few weeks..

seriously i dun really remember wad happened ade... blank now.. haha.. all i remember is my finals paper.. ahha.. yeahh... i cn say my english n maths r quite okay... bt my comp ap, econs, n accounts... fuh.. lets juz hope i dun fail the paper.. haha... hav been sleepin on average 2 to 3 hours per day onli.. for 2 weeks... everyday study study study onli... even i myself couldnt believe it... if u knw me since form 1, u'll get wad i mean.. i dont even knw myself anymore! haa... frm da forever "tak kisah"-in-studies attitude, to the study till 5am me... knw wad i mean now? haha.. even my mum cant get used to me studying everytime she calls me..

counting back.... i realised i watched quite a number of movies in da cinema this sem.. pink panther, ice age2, failure to launch, the wild, poseidon.. yepx... mostly cartoons la...

dis sem passed pretty fast i can say... without me realising, it's been 14 weeks... i can say i enjoyed every bit of it.. nx sem its gonna be pretty lonely without the guys arnd... all of them in cyber ade... gonna miss them.. sobx.. oh well... ppl come n go rite? n its not tht we r not meeting each other anymore... we'll be meeting them 8 months later anyway.. lolx... n more ssi peeps r comin in... n guess wad? i'm their senior! haha... well life's gonna be tough nx sem... 6 subjects... comp app 2, eng2, acc2, intro to business management, intro to business stats... n most of all.. MORAL.... oh man... tot i cud finally say bye bye to moral after form 5.. although i got an A... bt seriously.. its a v boring sub la... hope it'll be better in english though.. haha... n my timetable? 2 days till 6pm, 1 day till 7... its like... oh mannn... i'm so gonna hate it... hopefully lecturers r kind enuf to change our timetable.. there is such a big gap between lectures... sien la... havta like... walk all da way back hme.. then later come back out again... duno la.. mebbe i'll juz stay in campus.. we'll see....

da lz day of dis sem was pretty nice la.. we were cheering after da accounts paper.. went back to put my stuff n ate lunch wid da gang at da veggietarian shop... went to jusco... developed fotoz wid da kodak machine.. supa love it man... haha... cheap summore... cheaper than neoprints la of cuz.. ahha.. after tht it was sayin gdbye to my frenx which i wont be seeing for 3 weeks... some, 8 months... haha!

well now that i'm finally back home..... theres a sudden feel of emptiness within me... i dunno y... mebbe its becuz i'm too free? i dont knw... n grandpa's operation is nx monday... abit worried although da doc said there's a 90-95% chance of success... bt i'm quite relieved to see him okayy la... still da same..

seriously i hav no idea wad to do these 3 weeks... any suggestions? sleep? haha... i've slept enough today to replenish my energy... guess i'll hav to wait till yx n js r back... not forgetting ly n ms too.. then we ex teammates will go out again n take neoprintz...lol... heard dat our shifu is comin back this week.. gr8... can get together again.. yepx.. its been a long time since all 5 of us go together wid him.. since... laz year july i think.. yeahh... its been almost a year.. time really passes by fast ehh... my poor guit has been neglected for da past few weeks... gonna play my guit tml.. haha... my guit skills are tarnishing...

oh ya.. i'm lovin my 80G external hardisk.. ahha.. dad bought it for me... yepx... now can delete more stuff frm my lappy... haa...

k la..getting tired ade.. will blog more tml... i hope.

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dats our poster! 

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us practicing wo 

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us practicing chen zui 

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me, ah fee n ken fui in da jamming studio 

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waiting for practice.. ahaha... see every1's expression.. lolx 

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me n shao pin 

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edward, me n ah joe..  

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da peeps playin chen zui... wads wid shao pin man.. ahha! 

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last practice for chu ci ai shang ni 

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before hairdo n makeup 

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After hairdo n makeup 

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me n edward aka hamster! 

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me n ah joe aka mouseie! 

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me n ken fui 

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me n chin yaw 

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me n shifu ah fee.. haha 

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me n wei keong koko.. lolx 

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me n joanne 

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me n nother guo xiong 

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me n jia kai 

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me n zi ying 

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me n gjen gkai 

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me n shu jing 

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me n shao pin 

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me n guo xiong 

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me n adrian 

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me n vincent 

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me n elaine 

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me n rong feng 

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da peeps in chen zui!! frm da top left, vincent-drummer, rong feng-backup singer, jiakai-keyboardist/composer, 2nd row, gjen gkai-backup singer, ken fui-lead guitarist, me-bassist, ah fee-lead singer/acoustic guitarist, shao pin-electric guitarist  

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da peeps in chu ci ai shang ni, frm da left, gjen gkai-acouostic guitarist/composer, me-bassist, guo xiong-keyboardist/composer, zhen ying-lead singer/composer, edward-lead singer, ying zhong-keyboardist, n ah joe-drummer... n yet again... diana missing in action... shez played da violin..  

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all da peeps involved in da song WO.. frm da left, shao pin-electric guitarist, joanne-lead singer, pat-composer, me-acoustic guitarist, zhen ying-lead singer, chin yaw-bassist, rong feng-music arrangment, n guo xiong? wad is he doin here sia? ahhaaha... oh yaa.. noot forgetting poor ah joe kena blocked at da back.. aha.. hez da drummer.. n also diana da pianist.. dunno where she went.. lol 

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me with christina... lol 

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THE END!! hehex 

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heyyx! i'm so so so so sorry i havent been blogging for like AGES? yeah... well seriously i cant remember wad happened these 2 weeks.. or izzit 3? lolx.. so i'll just skip to da most important event.. MICROS 3RD CONCERT! yepx.. well i nv thought of having da chance to perform in mmu.. well at least not so fast.. n not on such a big stage with so many audience.. bt well.. i shud say i'm v lucky to come during da feb intake.. yepx.. didnt miss da chance to take part in dis event..

well at 1st when 1 juz joined in da practice.. i felt like.. hmm.. wierd? cuz all of them were my seniors ma.. not juz seniors.. bt like.. final year students? of cuz i was scared.. n they were so so so so so so so gd! felt quite erm.. how shud i put it... erm.. lonely la... n even pressured as well when i was asked to play da bass... bt after a few times practicing with them.. found out tht they r really nice ppl... they taught me alot.. really hav to say a big thank u to them la.. at least now i'm not afraid to try out new things ade..

lets talk abt da day itself... kai liang fetched me to sch quite early la.. 9 sumthin.. went for the hairdo with da other music players.. final rehearsal... then went for da makeup... went hme for a while.. put on my contacts...changed my shoes.. n off i went for da concert..

1st song i played bass for chu ci ai shang ni.... not bad... quite okayy... hehe... 2nd 1 i played acoustic guit for wo... well sad to say it was quite a disaster la.. will not say more abt this la... then da 3rd song i played bass for chen zui... gd performance i can say.. v well indeed.. hehe.. my fav performance of da night out of da 3 songs i played.. oh yaa.. forgot to mention dat my parents came!! haha.. n not forgetting my classmates.. n frenx... heee.. enuf said... take a look at da fotoz kayy? dun be shocked... that is me.... yes it is.. lolx..

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ok.. i havent been blogging for a LONG time ade...

i'll try go short on this la.. haha

friday.. went to mahkota parade with christina, sharon n jin chau... watched pink panther.. went to jonker street after tht.. bought a new pair of nike.. hehe...

sat.. godparents n grandparents came.. went to mp n jonker again.. ahha... stayed over at MITC Ancasa Hotel

sun.. went to jusco.. they left in da afternooon... nthn much

Mon... nthn much.. classes..

tuesday... nthn much oso... classes n cf..

weds.. went to mmu cyber in da evening.. senior fetched us there... 4 cars.. went to their concert... hmm.. overall.. it wasnt really good... not enuff coordination... or shud i say.. no coordination at all? da songs not rehearsed well enuf.. either they went out of beat or even worse.. out of tune.. haihx... really dunno what r they doin larr.. i mean.. if u wanna present this to ur members.. uni ppl... n even those hoo r frm other universities... do a better job la.. at least not so bad la.. quite disappointed to see a performance lidat la.. n da backstage ppl oso not enuf experience i think.. they arranged da speakers in da wrong way... so keep getting da vvvv annoying sound.. i forgot wad izzit called.. feeback izzit.. i forgot.. it was like.. throughout da whole concert... haihx.. n da emcees were even worse.. they cant handle da situations well enough la.. i really do hope we can do a better job for our concert.. hmm

thurs... went to watch The Stage singin comp.. yepx.. my fren got 2nd sia.. ahah.. using my guit summore! bangga seh.. lolx... oh ya... vic frm malaysia idol was here oso.. he improved alot.. then my fren gave me back my guit after da comp ma.. so i was like.. sesat lidat carrying my guit.. n now so many ppl knw i can play guitar ade la.. paiseh.. lolx...

friday... had exam.. i think i did quite ok.. can do all da questions.. duno can score full marks onot? ahha... busness maths larr..

sat.. went back at 9... dad fetched me n shing ni back... i didnt even go home.. went to straight to sch.. st john juniors havin orientation ma... went back to find them.. n meet up wid my teammates n frenx as well.. went to cs wid all my teammates n celebrated ms's budday.. we bought her a pair of pants... n we took neopritnx oso! haha... then yx n i took a bus to kerrys... met up wid my mum there... n keesiong!!! my daddee! ahaaha... long time nv see him ade.. miss him so much.. hez actually 1 of my close frenx frm another sch la.. hehx had dinner wid my grandparents n parents.. then went to jusco.. bought ALOT of clothes lo.. lol

sun... went to holiday plaza.. n bought clothes AGAIN.. megasale ma.. summore i need formal wear oso... had dinner wid da whole family at peking restaurant.. ordered my fav crabs there! really nice lo..

mon... today lo... went to sch in da morn to get my results... got 5As, 3Bs, 3Cs... lolx... got A fer english, est, maths, moral n chinese... yepx... oh yaa... my 1119 english oso got A... A1 summore.. so i'm quite happy la.. although bm n sej got B3 which i tot i cud get A... bt nvm la.. i didnt expect to get A for chinese n moral oso..lol... so same la... haha... anyway... my sch got 50 straight As this year... break record sia.... crazy... anyway.. congrats to those hoo got gd results yea... n to those hoo didnt do well... spm isnt everything okay? the journey doesnt end here.. it STARTS here... so dont be sad abt n look forward to the future!

late ade la.. signing out.. CHAO!

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right.. i'm back again! lolx.. so where was i.. oh yea.. lets juz start frm sunday.. parents n grandparents came! haha... popo cooked sum vvvvv yummy dishes n brought it up for me ler!! so touched.. hehe.. parents bought me ALOT of things lo.. u knw.. biscuits.. mee.. n stuff.. so scared i dun hav enuf to eat lidat.. hmm.. nvm.. had lunch at heritage lo.. damn ex lo da food there... not v nice oso.. bt oh well.. suan le ba. we went to jusco for a while lo.. then they went back at around 5... had dinner at hme lo.. with my hsemates.. they cooked rice.. n fried eggs.. n we ate my grandma's dishes lo! heex... met up wid christina at sch for jap cooking class.. haha.. yeps! we learned how to make okonomiyaki n agedashi tofu.. YUM lo! haha... even my hsemates say nice okayy.. lol

Monday.. nth much i think... lots of classes lo.. as usual...

Tuesday.. went to cf with christina, florence n theresa... Shobita brought us there de la.. it was their BSAD day.. brothers n sisters appreciation day... they sang a few songs.. then the gals asked all da guys to go out 1st.. we rearranged da chairs nlet them come in.. serve thm food... n the others performed for them.. then it was da guys' turn.. i tell u dey did a gr8 job lo.. lol... at 1st they asked us to take a pied of paper each out of a basket... it had a name inside.. so whoever da gal picks, tht guy will be asssigned to her.. yups... then they asked da guys to sit in front of their so called "dates".. lol.. bt mine didnt shw up... hmm... then they asked da guys to make a bookmark for da gals.. wahhh... so nice.. lol.. n finally he showed up after like... 20 mins.. yea.. n apologized to me.. ahah.. he v bz ma.. cute guy lo! lolx... quite handsome n has a v nice voice... then they made us banana milkshake.. me n another 2 gals were given da priority! haha.. cuz our "dates" were either bz or absent.. ahaha.... then they sang songs.. n did sum sort of a sketch.. vvvvvvv nice.. lolx... n lastly they gave us a rose each! like AWW!!!!! hahaa.. n den da guy came n said.. i'm so sorry...i was so bz tonight.. i saved da ncest rose for u.. dis is da best i could make.... I TERUS MELTED LO!!! hahahahaha.... hez cute larr... ahaha... then b4 i left.. he said he'll make sumthing for me n told me i muz go nx week.. haha.. abit za daoed la.. bt nvm.. i'll be there.. HAHAA.... oh yea.. saw sum1 i sorta "know" last time.. bt she tak layan me.. so nvm.. like as if i care? hahaha.. NO!.. lolx

anyway after tht christina n i went back to my hse.. n met up wid a fren la.. he bought her a budday cake n we celebrated for her lo..

Weds.. celebrated christina's budday.. ahaha.. cuz her budday is on da 29th feb.. special hor? aahha... went to da veggitarian shp fer dinner.. then we went for da japanese cultural night performance div. meeting... damn fei lo i tell u.. there were 3 gals sitting at da back.. they were like debating with our leader lo.. they opposed every single thing he said without even sparing a thought or giving him some respect... n when he was talking.. they didnt even bother to listen at all... damn la...
went hme at 9... then our leader smsed n ask us to go limteh at 11.. so we went lo.. hez chris by da way.. went to cahaya dinar.. nice place la... nice drinks there.. chatted till 12.45... then we walked back lo.. almost got lost.. ahaha... got hme at 1...

Thursday.. which is today la.. went for da cls micros concert practice.. quite nice la.. all seniors in my band of cuz.. bt they r v nice.. hehx.. can learn alot frm them... vvvvv geng electric guitarists... yepx..

anyway.. i got a new pendrive skin all thanx to YOONG MEI! hahaa.. thnx arr! haha...

k la.. damn tired ade la... 3 am ade.. nitex ppl!

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well its ade 5 am in da morning.. n i cant slp.. haha... insomnia? nahh.. dun think so la.. blame it on myslef la.. slept too much in da afternoon... n now i'm so wide awake.. cant slp at all.. watch 4 episodes of da hong kong movie on my laptop... well... time passes fast ehh... i'm already here for 3 weeks... i guess i'm still alright.. ahah... actually.. better than i had expected it to be.. made loads of frenx n got to knw many music lovers oso.. hehx.. later hav to clean my room ade loo.. parents n grandparents comin on sunday.. hee... dun wan them to complain abt my room.. lolx..

anyway... i'm still getting on pretty well with my sch work... not much of a problem so far la.. luckily some of my frenx r frm PA classes last time.. can ask them if i cant understand..

me n my ex started tokin again.. on9 that is.. hez in america anyway.. everything is fine now.. can joke like how we used to.. actually even better than how we used to be... at least now there r no more arguments.. we've come such a long way to become frenx.. hope we'll remain this way.. :)

after all these years in sec life.. i realized i matured alot.. the way i think.. act.. speak.. well.. shud say a big thanks to those hoo made my life miserable in my form 5 life.. although it was terrible i agree... but i learnt how to control my temper better.. i always act too rashly.. i hav to learn to think 1st.. well i'm in a new environment now.. everything is going very well for me.. although sometimes i do feel abit empty inside.. like as if something is missing.. at nights like this, i'll start thinking alot.. bt luckily i found frenx here that i can trust.. frenx who are really true to me.. really hope i can make more frenx here.. my shifu said.. u onli need a few besties arnd u.. those tht u can rely on when u hav problems.. well shifu... i've already found the frenx u meant... dun worry.. :)

well i really miss my old frenx too.. like yixian, jyeswei, n my godbroz... not to mention liyinn n meishyuan hoo will be comin to mmu in june.. u knw today i was lookin at me ex classmate's friendster... a gal hoo was in my class in form 5... she had abt 40+ fotoz in her friendster.. n i actually found out tht none of her fotos had me in it... i was quite sad of course.. to think that they actually took so many fotox in sch without askin me to take sum fotox with them... n there it was.. my form 5 class foto.. without me in it.. y? juz because i was helping sum juniors with the st john stuff.. n they juz conviniently forgot about me.. i hav nothin to say of course.. wad to do.. i wasnt really in good terms wid my classmates back then.. onli a few were okayy.. i nv liked their way of friendship.. sorry to say.. i dun like big groups of friends.. there are always the ones that get left out.. n does every1 in da group really bond with each other? da answer is no. they juz hang out together for the sake of hanging out together.. not really because of the bond.. and when someone important in da group isnt there... the whole group of frienx juz falls apart.. that is wad i dont like.. me on da other hand... had always enjoyed a small group of closely bonded frenx... at least when u hav problems.. u'll hav someone to listen to u.. someone to cry to.. whereas when there is 1 big group of frenx.. n there isnt any close bond towards 1 another.. u wont knw who to go to.. like frm my experience... i once had a big gang of frenx back then in form 3... we would hang out together everyday at da dewan.. everythin was fine.. or so i thought.. until 1 of da more important ppl went away... to study in another country.. my whole gang broke up into little pieces.. ppl who used to hang out together suddenly started goin their own ways.. dats da saddest part.. thats when i realize thats not how a close group of frenx should be.. there shouldnt be any main person in da group.. when there are ppl left out, they start to try n get attention n this is where all the conflicts come in... i'd rather hav a few close frenx where every1 is equally important... well thats frm my perspective of course.. whether u agree or not doesnt really matter to me... haha..

juz scrolled up n realized i've crap so much today.. lolx... not like my usual self.. haha.. anyway... will try and go to slp la... signing out peeps!

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PHEW... finally got time to really sit down n blog... yea.. so... this week i was like... SUPER bz n tired as well... yea.. monday went for dinner with christina.. shobita.. n her cf frenx at mmu corner.. then they acc me back to bbu. i took my guit.. n they acc me to sch! haha... then i went for da audition for guitarists at 9pm... a bit nervous la.. since its been a long time since i really played my guit in front of ppl.... dat night there were abt.... 40 ppl la.. when it was my turn.. i went to da front... n most of da peeps were quite suprised i guess... cuz all the other ppl hoo went for the audition were guys... i was da onli female guitarist.. hmmm.....i wonder y... guitar so difficult mer... a bit painful at beginning onli wad.. lolx... i played david tao's regular friends.. everything went quite well i guess... saw some pianists too... they were okay la.. bt not outstanding lo.. like normal onli la... saw a few crazy electric guitarists though... n not forgetting drummerz too.. didnt finish listening to all da auditions la.. so i dunno the how well the other slots performed... went home at arnd 10 lo...

tuesday.. had jls meeting for da jap cultural night thingy.. me n christina are the working commitee... we went into da performance group... had our meeting n stuff... then went yam cha wid christina, chris who is our performance group leader.. n winston... a vv tall guy.. lolx.. ahaha... all same group la.. they acc me back to bbu.. yam cha there.. n we sorta "forced" chris to pay for us la.. ahhaa... leader muz take care of us maaa.. lolx... then christina decided to stay at my place lo since it was midnight ade...

weds.. late for sch... ahaha... me n christina lo.. too slow ade.. we were late by 5 mins... lol... did our english assignment in da library.. then went to pasar malam wid christina, shobita, sher bean n her cuz.. bought fruits.. dinner.. n my fav tomatoes!! hahaa... then went hme wid my hsemates lo... slept vvvv early lo.. too tired... knock out at 11.30... bt didnt slp well oso la... dunno y oso.. hmm..

thurs.. i got through the audition! ahhaa.. saw my name in da list on da website... i was goin to play 1 song for da concert.. yay! ahha.. lolx.. acc christina to da guitar class lo.. then had meeting for da concert thingy.. met up wid my so called "band" haha.... 1 bassist, 1 electric guitarist, 1 accoustic guitarist.. 1 drummer.. 1 keyboardist, 1 lead singer.. n 2 backup singers.. yepx... if not mistaken.. ALL GUYS.. ahaha.. except for me of course.. yepx.. juz checked da names again..confirm... ahhaa.... i knw 3 of them r final year students.. seniors la.. ahah.. bt gd oso la.. can learn frm them.. so we'll hav practice every other thursday night.. n every sat/sun... morning... if nt mustaken.. da concert will be on da 2nd of April.. yeah.. then christina slept over again! haha..

friday.. we woke up 2 hours earlier.. juz to make sure we wont be late.. ahah.. nthn much today.. all of them went hme.. i'll be rotting at hme again.. parents coming on sunday wid my grandparents as well.. dats all i guess... bye peeps!

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yoz.. yest so shuang.. went downstairs to limteh wid YOONG MEI n peixuan... shing ni as usual... stayed at hme... then YOONG MEI ordered a burger for me.. ahha... v special 1.. not like those we normally eat.. then YOONG MEI ate 1 too.. HAHAHA... sum1 sure v happy i mentioned her name sooo many times.. lolx! anyway.. these 2 days... i spent like... altogehter... 10 hours in da sch library? AHHAA.... nice la.. gt aircon... n da best thing is.. they hav LOTS N LOTS of STEPHEN KING NOVELS!!! hahaa..... my fav man.... tml goin there again... gonna do business maths tutorial work.. alot lo.. sienx... anyway... goin back to my nover now.. ahha... bye!

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i'm in da sch lab wid christina now.. lol.. shud be doin our assignment de.... bt dis comp i'm using cannot use microsoft word... sumthing wrong wid da programme i guess... so yea... sum1 sleeping beside me now..... she juz woke up... abit blur blur... v sien ler... nthn to do lidaat.... havta wait till class starts..... -_-... now still lunch time... haihx...... tired.... i wanna slp oso..... hahaha... k la.. nth to write liaoz.... tok tonite.... or mebbe tml la.... bye ppeps!

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juz came back.. damn tired.. today got gathering for the micros peeps.. so went there lo..sat there like bengang for a while.. then da seniors came to tok to me.. then we started jamming lo.. played non stop for 3 hours man... tired siall.. long time nv played da guit for so long ade... so it seems dat mmu oso no gal guitarist de wor.. hmmm... i'm da onli 1 again... lol... nvm la... anyway... v tired ade... goin off.. chao

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wahh.... so tired these few days... haha.. had been goin out for 2 nights in a row ade.... todays gonna be da 3rd day.. well... went out on monday night.. hmm... had audition for the demos... didnt expect so many entries la.. like almost 50? haha.... so we started at 7.30.. listened to da demos 1 by 1 n occasionally giving some comments.... of course... da composers' names wasnt disclosed.. i can say tht some songs r v well written.. n da singers r really... fooh... if u get wad i mean... really quality work... some really put in alot of effort in making the demos... use midi la... n dat sorta stuff.. n do until nice nice 1... but when there r gd stuff.. there r bound to be some not-so-good-ones la... not to say lousy ones la.. i knw every1 put in their effort... there were many "jay" fans i think.. haha.. cuz many of the songs sounded like jay's songs... like as if they are murmuring da whole song... but it was a gd exposure for me la.. didnt hav all these in sec life back then... we had 1 similiar activity back then in sec sch.. bt didnt get a gd response i guess... u knw la... sec ppl... u think every1 so semangat-ed like me ar.... HAHA.... i admit la.. i was OVER-semangat.. lolx... but sadly... my songs didnt get picked la... cuz there wewre many songs tht were similiar to my song... cuz mine is those sentimental type ma... n i believe many are better than me.... so yea... nvm la... haha.... i'll continue writing songs dun worry... that is.... if i hav da inspiration la... haha..

ok... tuesday.. happy valentine's day ppl! haha... had lecture frm 8 to 10... after tht christina n i went back to my room lo... did hmework n listened to some songs.. hehe... went back to sch at 2... had class till 4... then i was vvvv lazy to go back hme again.. so i went wid sher bean n christina to their room in EP lo... we came out again n had our "valentine's dinner" together... AHHAA.... did our hmework there.... (so guai hor... nt like me.. HAHA!) then went back to sch at 8... there was a briefing for new chinese society members la.. n it lasted till 10 sumthing lo.. came hme... n felt like drinkin tea.. so asked peixuan to acc me downstairs... limteh! hahaa..... well dats abt it i guess.. will be goin out again tonight... wahh... tired.. ahah.. k la... bye!

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:03 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

yozz... well.. saturday n sunday was pretty boring i guess.. there is nthn to do in malacca... ahaha.... n the free time after classes... yea... v free.. so i decided to enter a few clubs... to occupy myself.. ahah... hope i dun get to bz in da end.. haha.. so yeah... these 2 days... stayed at home.. gd gal hor... lol.... becuz all my coursemates went hme ade!! haa.... i dun understand y every1 wanna go back ler.. hmm... my dad came on friday.... brought me my guitars!!!! haha... my darling APX... haha... n my mini amplifier.... miss the laney though... ahha... bt nvm la.. can get to play wid it when i get back to jb... laney is my other amp if u dunno wad izzit.. haha.. then dad fetched my hsemate back to jb... he asked me if i wanted to go back... bt i said duwan.. lol.. so i spent almost da whole saturday watching a hong kong drama wid my hsemate.. aha.. v nice la.. we actually watched 6 episodes!! haha... then at night.... 2 of my hsemates had sumthing on.. so they went out... left me n another hsemate.. so we went for dinner at an arabic restaurant! haha... special la.. 1st time.. ahha.. then sunday... whole day rot at hme... then went out for dinner with hsemates at a nyonya restaurant.. nt bad oso.. hehx.. i think thts all la... today got audition at 7.15pm sia! abit scared.. ahah.. will update abt it later! CHAO!

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:07 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

wah paiseh... so long nv update bout my week in MMU... so yea... 1st week studying.. since... erm.. 2 months ago? ahha.. abit gong liao la.... bt still okayy... all together i'm taking 5 subjects... its compulsory anyway... computer applications, principles of economics, english, business maths, n accounting.. yeah... my timetable is abut luan lo... oh ya.. forgot to mention i got into class PM40... dunno wad class is tht oso.. cuz there r 4 classes... PM 40 - 43... 43 is currently empty.. i do not know y.. bt who cares.. karen is in my class... so ya.. made some frenx here... like christina n sher bean... nice ppl i can say... dun wanna mention the not so nice ones though.. lol... luckily every1 in my class r nice ppl la... n u knw... i got lost on my 1st day... AAA... so blur lo me... i'm supposed to get back hme in 10 mins time.. u knw how long it took me to get hme? 25 mins... RIGHT.... ahha.... i got lost... i'm supposed to turn right.. i go turn left... hhahhaa... luckily i found my way back.. haha.. 1st week is nice la... although we were v confused abt da classes... we r given class names like... CLCR2003, FSER5022, ACR1007.. how's dat.. ahaha.. da CLC, FSE n AC r building names... then da R/L r actually right or left.. so dat means u turn right or left in da building.. den da 1st number is da floor number n da last numbers r da classroom numbers... lol... luan hor... bt can get used to it now ade la.. n 1 more thing lo... da food here is so so so so so cheap lo.. da chicken chop n fish n chips r like... 4.50 onli? n believe me its da name porpotion as jb's... n all da fried mee, meehoon... onli 2.50... yeahh... haha... i'm so gonna put on weight here.. yikes.... muz control... ahha.. summore got pasar malam here every monday n weds... k la... will stop here la... continue nx week.. haha... bye ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:09 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

so i am now officially in melacca!! haha... n dis post is specially for SU-LYN de orh!!! cuz i i promised her to update often la! haha... so here i am in my room blogging! haha...

ORIENTATION

1ST DAY
yepx... woke up early in da morning.... ate breakfast.... n left kl wid my parents... headed for mmu melacca... reached melacca at 9 n went for the registration lor... we had a placement test... which is an english test to determine which class we get into la... so we did da test... using da comp... in da comp lab... all together 70 questions... sorta like est liddat la.... all objective questions lo.... got 5 comprehensions i think.... abt that la.. so i finished it ade... checked ade... n left da lab after 1 hour lo... then we were divided into groups.... all together 15 groups... n were introduced to our mobile leaders who r our seniors la... i was in group 2... together with karen...whereas xuan hao was is group 12.... well our mobile leader was Puvan... an indian la... so we started orientation lo... the OCs (orientation comittee) hoo were also our seniors were v nice lo... they r frm SRC... which stands for student representitive council.... 1st day was quite boring la actually... cuz we had all these briefing frm various departments in mmu... then it was ice breaking session.... i almost fell aslp lo... our mobile leader asked us to into ourselves... n welll.... every1 was like... v quiet larr... then da guys fell aslp... hw nice rite? i was thinkin to myself.. shit... i'm goin to be with this group for 3 days... how am i goin to survive??? then we elected our team leader... actually was by random la.... so da team leader was picked.... Amy... hooz da oldest among us all la.. shez doin her degree course ma... 21 years old.. nt that old la actually... n we were given an assignment... to find all 20 SRC member's signature... n comments as well.... i was like... doink..... with all the members liddat arr.... right..... so our leaderr kept da paper lo... n we went back... dat was da 1st day... yepx...

2ND DAY
alright... lets tok abt da 2nd day... well we had to gather at the main field at 7.30... early hor... then had a breakfast.. n it was briefings n briefings again... then we had games like... old stjohn games la... da bom game remember? n a new game introduced by out OCs... war game... nice la.. had lots of fun there... then we were taught to sing our uni song... Permata Dunia.... i tell u its DAMN DAMN DAMN nice... really!! da singr's voice like a mix between jaclyn victor n siti nurhaliza.... then finally it was time for our lunch break n u knw wad? da OC's ask us to get their signatures... how nice... n we spent like... 1 hour of our 2 hour lunch break to get their signatures? ahaa... n da best thing was... most of them changed their name tags.... made us so confused lo! bt we got most of them la... they go ask us crazy questions like wad is da longest word with a,e,i,o,u inside? da answer is education... wad is da longest word without a,e,i,o,u inside? da answer is rhythm... abit lame la... bt some were quite nice though... n throughout the whole thing... my oc disappeared..... right.... he couldnt be found... he go ask sum other oc to jaga us.... nvm.... after lunch it was back to briefings n briefings again... n lastly we had a sch tour... da OCs brought us around da sch introducing us to the diff blocks.... n we had our dinner break... they asked us to be back at da main hall at 8pm... great.. haha... i was like so zadaoed.. bt wad to do? so had dinner with my parents lo... n got back to sch.. the muslims had their prayer sesion together... so we non muslims had our own activities... n it was... DEBATE... lol... we were seperated into 8 diff groups.. n it was a short comp la... so didnt follow da normal way of a debate comp.... da 1st n 2nd speaker is given 1 mins each whereas da 3rd speaker is given 2 mins to conclude... sasi was my oc for debate... he la.... made me as da 3rd speaker... cuz i was da onli 1 who toked to him during da sch tour... haha.. then he elected another 2 as 1st n 2nd speaker lo... da title we got was "Good grades secure a better future".. we were da opposing team... so... to me.. i think we had da advantage la... we were given 10mins to prepare n we were up... the supporting team actually had a cvnt gal there sial... saw the 80th anniversary shirt she was wearing... she was da 2nd speaker.. it was nice la da debate... i shoot them teruk teruk.. HAHA.... bt i was like sooooooo nervous lo! speaking in front of at least 200-280 ppl sial... long time nv tok in front of so many ppl ade.... then the emcees asked da audience to shout which team they think should win..n most of them shouted ourr team!!! team 1~~ hahaa...we won!!!! haha.. so happy lo... then it was da semi finals.. we got da topic "Students should involve themselves in political activities"... abit da zadaoed la... cuz we were da supporting team... its like... how many students u see today r invloved in political activities?? ahaa.. then our dear Sasi said wanna change da speakers.... i was like so happy... but NO.. he wasnt gonna let me off juz like that... he changed da 1st n 2nd speaker... bt asked me to remain as the 3rd speaker!! AAAA... ahaa... he said i can debate wor... bangga sial!! haha... so we debated lo.. it was a good 1 la.. we tried our best... actually da audience thought so too de.... they shouted our team number u knw... but da emcee thought there were too little ppl there... so asked ONE of the dunno who it is... sum member of da src or dunno who to judge us... it was so unfair lo!! n he go let da opposing group win... as if he listened at all... he was bz tokin at da back lo.. SIALL... aaha.. bt nvm la... at least we got to go back at 10am sharp.... those finallists went back at dunno wad time.. 11? i duno... lol... dat night i couldnt really slp... dunno y..too high ade.. HAHA...

3RD DAY
Got up early in da morning.... assembled at da main field again... ate da vvvv yucky breakfast again.. haa.. n then ot was back to briefings again... bt da 3rd day ended early though... had da closing ceremony at 1 pm... we had it with mmu cyberjaya campus oso u knw.... live 1 ler... so in our screen... we can see them n in their screen they can see us! so nice lo... the president of mmu was in da malacca campus! so da cyber campus ppl had t look at da screen da whole time during his speech... after the closing ceremony, we went to da comp lab to verify our registration lo.. well dats abt it for my 3 days orientation! haha..

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:30 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

yozz... in kl now lor... laz day of my holidays after spm... ahha... abit sad larr.... sobx... bt nervous at da same time oso.... tml i'll be goin to melacca mmu early in da morning... scared scared lerr... new surroundings... new sch... new faces... new friends.... bt of cuz i wont forget my old buddies oso la... hehx...

well these 3 days in kl was alot of fun! hehe... went shopping at ioi mall n 1 utama oso! nice lo... i fell in love wid 1 utama ade... its so so so big lo! so many shops there... mum said i hav too many dark colour t shirts.. all either black or blue.. ahah... so she ask me to go buy sum bright coloured ones... so yea.. bought 4 new shirts!! ahah... 1 is voir de... pink stipes 1... another 1 is giordano i think... green stripes 1... another 2 r plain 1.... 1 green 1 blue.. heh... bright hor... i dun think i ever wore colour like these b4... haha... then bought da hush puppies skirt i wanted!! happy lor! dat time saw it in metro in jb... bt so ngam da 1 i want didnt hav buttons sewn on! so kek sim lorh.... ahaha.. bt luckily kl got! supposed to be 89.90 1... bt got sale.. so got it for 62 onli! 30 percent off sia! so happy lor! then we went hunting for a pair of formal shoes... mummy said my shoes all nt formal enuf... so better buy a pair in case gt any formal things... n finally after walkin for like... 1 hour plus in 1 utama... walking into every single shoe shp... i found my shoes!! last pair summore! haha... lucky man...

then today went to sunway pyramid... n i FINALLY bought da alarm clock i want! haha.... its like i've been searching for a nice 1 for weeks ade lo! aunt bought it for me!! pink colour 1.. damn cute lo!! lurve it! haha...... anyway.. got all da things i need ade la i think.. so shud be no problem in melacca la! haha... summore got shp juz downstairs onli.. can go buy! hee hee....

anywayz.... will update more tml la! so yarr.. wish me all da best! haha... bye ppl! melacca here i come!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:13 PM
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wah!!! i tell u lo!! today i'm like da happiest gal on earth!!! hahaa.....

k la... at 1st yest was v sien diao-ed la.... cuz like.. suddenly feel like cny dis year so bored.. nthn to do.. no where to go... n stuff.... then yixian, js n ian cudnt come over..... 2 go ipoh... 1 n free... damn disappointed la...

today was diff lo! haha... morning woke up... had breakfast... then started to pack lo... my clothes... jeans... skirts... all the stuff i'm gonna bring up to melacca... with mum's help la.. heh... then pack pack pack till noon.... n guess hoo came? hanwei, keesiong n rachael!!! hahaa.... so happy lo... luckily they came lo.. otherwise i'll be so so so so sien... bt unfortunately... hanwei lost his wallet in da taxi when he came... haihx unlucky la him... then my dad fetched him to kerrys summore.. hoping to find the taxi driver hoo fetched them to my hse... bt cudnt find.. so went n make police report lorhx.... then me, ks n ray stayed at hme... chatted... ahha... v nice la... today juz got to knw rachael... hehx.... nice gal... luckily we got alot pretty well! heex... then hanwei came back at 3 sumthin... quite late ade la... then the 2 guys la! bongkah all my things! sial la they 2... open this open tht... ahha... luckily no secrets... HAHA...... phew... then we bongkah keesiong's pendrive!! hahaa...... damn funny la... then watched sum videos... st john stuff la.. haha... then we played scrabble! haha... i won!!! hahahaa..... thnx to rachael la.. hee... then they went back at erm abt.. 6 lo..... really happy la me.. hheehe....

then i bathed.. went over to grandma's hse for dinner.... every1 was there lo! godma n all my cuzzies! so happy lo! took lots of fotoz! hhaa... like farewell for me liddat.. ahha.. no la... dinner la.. grandma cooked LOTS of yummy dishes... bt i dun dare to eat alot oso la.. ahah.. u knw u knw... i found out i lost 6 kg ler!!! like OMG OMG OMG!!! hahaa.... sick ma... i was sick for like... 2 weeks? no appetite lo... dats y... so happy lo! haha.... i wanna lose summore man... lol.... then after eating dinner.. we lau1 yu2 sheng1 la.... grandma added fresh salmon!! YUM!!! hahaa... like ALOT LO! haaa.. really nice la... went home after dinner lo...

n guess wad?? ZR N ZY CAME!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok i knw i'm crazy la.... hahaa... too happy ma... they came to see me off wor.. laz day in jb marr.... so touched!!! AWWW!!!!! really lo! nv expected them to come la actually.... hehe..... they stayed for 2 hours liddat la.... damn funny la... took fotoz wid them... haha.... NICE LO! haha..... then zr as usual la... gek me lo... wid his guit skills.... humph nvm.... haha... then my mum made her ever so nice tea! haha.... happy la me.. HAHAA..... lol... me reeallly crazy ade.. ahha....

actually didnt expect my laz day in jb to be so nice lo!!! like REALLY MEMORABLE LO!!! haha... not dat i'm not comin back ade or wad la... bt juz...... nice la... happy la... frenx came n stuff.... at least i knw i still hav vvvv nice frenx arnd me hoo cared abt me!! hee!

now ade almost 2am ade.... dunno wad to pack ade oso.. so scared i'll forget to bring sumthing ler..... tml goin to kl for 2 days... then goin to melacca ade.... class starting on da 3rd of feb.... nervous lo! like.... i'm worried i'll get lost in there! haha... funny hor me.. go worry abt stuff liddat..... bt really lo! i still remember standard 1... n form 1.. i got lost in both foon yew 1 n ssi!!!! blur hor me! hahaa.... bt luckily mum n dad will be with me for da 1st 3 days la.... cuz orientation ma... so all my hsemates wont be arnd.... they'll be back on da 6th.. heh.... all my seniors la... bt v nice ppl la.... hee.... wont bully me la.. I HOPE... HAHA... i knw they wont la... haha...

k la k la... i really shud go slp ade la.... anyway i'm really happy today la... so.. to hanwei, keesiong, rachael, zr, n zy... A HUGE THANKS TO ALL OF U!!!! LURVE U GUYS!!!! hee! thnx fer remembering me oo!!1 although i dunno how many of u will actually read this la... bt nvm... juz wanna express my feelings la... hehx... NITEX PPL!!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:27 AM
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1st of all... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! yepx.. da dog year is here!! dat means my mum is 48 ade... oops.... i didnt say dat... hHAHA....... anywayx... yest had reunion dinner at grandma's hse.. steamboat! YUM!!! too bad i didnt really hav da appetite to eat... sick ma... oh well... zr n zy came over at arnd 9... pass me my notes which i left in their hse a 2 weeks ago... hee... my cuzzie was so overjoyed to see thm lo... dunno y oso.. keep laffing n laffing onli... damn cute la... 5 years old onli.. haha! k la... short entry today... gotta go over to grandma's hse ade... ANGPOWS...MUAHAHAHAH!!!! winks* bye!!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:47 AM
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yoz!!!!! finally got my amp back yesterday!!!! HAHAHAA!!!!! its nice lo i tell u.. ITS NICE LO!!! hhaaa.. my mum was askin wads so good... so i plugged in my apx n played la... she smiled... HAHA!!! then my dad started singin to my playin... hhaahahhaa.....

then this morning went n did my P licence!!!! muahaha!!!1 done ade... in like 15 mins? fast hor... finally i can drive..... onli prob is... no car for me to drive!!! haha... hopefully my grandpa is willing to let me drive his car lo.... heeez....

k la.. v late ade... juz played webcam wid daddee n his frenz.. ahha.. siao siao 1 la... lolx... 2 am ade.... yawnx!!! better go slp le.... hmm.. nitex!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:11 AM
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alrite... finally i got my laptop back! with a brand new screen! hahaa.... dun ask me how it happened la... i dunno,.... bt anyway... its back working like brand new... so hoo cares? haha!

well... sucky week la... hav been really really sick lo... my cough isnt getting any better... dat day went to da doc... he gave me sum antibiotic which i was allergic to... i tell u it was horrible lo... swelled up eyes... rashes all over... itchiness... vomitted... my mum almost fainted when she saw me.... kept askin me i can breathe o nt... ahha.... so my dad fetched me back to da clinic for a jab lo....

anyway.... got gd news oso la... well 1stly.... dad bought me a new amp! haha.... Laney 30watts acoustic amp... hee... gonna pick it up frm jusco yamaha tml... hopefully da stock arrives la.. got it for quite a gd price oso la... initial price was 900.. got it for 755... thnx to my mum's nv ending..... u knw la... haha....

2nd... i passed my driving test!!! YAY!!! WOOHOO!!!hhaa... tot i'd fail lo.. so many ppl went for da test today.. like.. 100+ ppl? i am not exaggerating... bt luckily i nailed it la... heez.. gonna get my P licence done on friday...

k la... i'm so so dizzy now... gona slp la... on medication... u knw... cough syrup... nites ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:52 PM
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1stly... i feel like shit.... 2nd... i really feel like shit.... 3rd.... i still feel like shit... AAAAA!!!!... ok ok... i'm sick... cough n fever... damn....

n da best thing is... my laptop sorta... gone haywire? yeahh... all da white coloured parts in my screen turned blue..... luckily still under warranty lo... otherwise it wud hav costed 2000+ to change the screen... yikes!

anyway... dat day took out sum piano books n played my piano... n realized i still can sight read pretty fast! haha.... like so so so so so long nv touched da piano ade... lol...

then sumthin v funny happened today... i asked my mum to wash my sling bag ma... then she found 2 neoprints i took wid zy...n she didnt scold ler! LOL.... she was like... ehh.. i found 2 pics of u 2 in ur bag... then i said..orh.. LOL LOL LOL...u wun understand de la.. AHAHA... ok nvm...

anyway...think i better go take sum rest la... later mebbe goin out again... bye ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:33 PM
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wah.. dis week abit da boring lo... mum back ade ma... cant go anywhere as i like... muz report.. ahha... no la... yixian they all went kl ade oso sien diao liddat la... anyway... stayed home frm monday till weds lo... so gd gal hor... heez... then today went to zhen yang's hse lo... ehh... his bass amp is chunted lo... haha.... sial la... da 1 i want to buy still no stock yet.. damnn.. ahha.. nvmm.. i'll wait i'll wait... so had fun there la... fetched him hme frm sch lo.. then we ;played da guit for a while... then went to him room.. he finally burned da cd i wan for me!!! yay!! haha... den we watched da australian idol he downloaded.. damn funny la... haha.. then emannuel came over... watched wid us.. then we went downstairs leaving him in zy's room.. then we played guitar again lo,... he shw his bass lo.. ahah.. gd la... nice... anyway.. went back at... 6.30 la... mum fetched me back.. n she seems to like him much more ade.. ahaha... not like last time.. like hate him to da core? lolx... now ok ade la...

oh ya.. i got my apartment room keys frm peixuan ade... my hsemate larr.. she bought it back for me frm melacca.. how nice... hee... n she gave me all her notes!! love her lo! bt u knw.. i left the notes in zy's hse... zadao-ed... haha.. but mum said he can come over during cny.. ahha! lolx.. then i can get my notes n bks back... heeeez

tml goin to mpti wid my mum lo.. wanna go find En. Isa... hez so helpful lo... hez gonna lend me da scores for choir! yayness! heez.. gd thing my mum n him r colleages lo.. at least my choir juniors wont be so cham... hehx..

k la... dats abt it fer this week.. will update more when i hav da time! tataz!

i look upon the moon and stars at 7:29 PM
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yepx... me back again to blog abt my week... hehx... so start frm laz sat lo... didnt go anywhere lo... damn xien 1... sunday ... i forgot wad i did again.. nvm.. hahaa....

monday.. went out with yixian! haha... went to cs lorh... she la... call me early in da morning ask me to go out with her.. damn funny 1 la... so i went lo... bought alot of stationary... i mean alot lo..... like... 30+ bucks of pens? hahahaa.... saw wong yean workin there... had lunch with him at da food court lo....then we took a bus to kerrys at 4 lo... then met up with my mum lo.... then me n yx bought a waist pouch each! haha... hers is radioactive de... mine is bodyglove! lol....then i bought a black skirt n a white blouse... mmu lo... wan us to buy... no choice... then at night went to jusco wid mum n cuiping... she needed to buy a white dress to attend her fren's wedding dinner da nx day! aaha.... no1 told her all da "jie mei tuan" were wearing white... so very la minute lo... went to choose for her... lastly got 1 lo... heh.... had dinner at the manhattan fish market again! lol....

tuesday.. had my driving lessons again... so suey lo... dat day raining... bt nt too heavy la... drizzle onli.... so still okayy... i tell u lo.. i had no idea i went so fast on da highway... i went up to 80kmph.... oops... until da instructor said.. ehh... slow abit la... hahaa..... then onli i realized... HAHA.... oops... quite smooth la... went on da B route... bt hor... i forgot everything ade.... die la... haha... then i reached hme at 10.30.... then went to sg!!! haha... godma brought me there la... i mean.. uncle fetched us there... lol.. wid my godma, grandma, aunt, n cuzzie.... went there at 11.30 liddat lo... so i reached there ade... i called davin... my sg fren hoo was supposed to meet me there... well... i realized my fone was out of credit.. damn... so i borrowed my uncle's fone... i was telling him i'm at peoples park's food court... then the line cut off... no more credit... i was thinkin he shud knw where la since hez a singaporean rite? i was wrong... we all finished eating bt still no sight of him... so we decided to find a fone booth... i tell u... i almost went crazy finding da fone booth lo!!! evry1 point here n there like its everywhere liddat... bt we cudnt find any at all!!!! then finally after like 25 mins... we found it... located in da middle of da crowd i dunno y oso... nvm... then juz as i was abt to put da coins in... i realized tht it was a card payfone............................... i almost screamed lo!! finally.. we had no choice... n i had to borrow sum1's hp.... da lady was staring at me n askin... how old r u? where r u frm? u wanna use my hp to call overseas?!?!! i said no lo... juz wanna call sum1 in sg... so she VERY cautiously dialled the number n VERY cautiously handed me her hp... still staring at me... worried i mite juz run away with her hp... lol... so i finally found him... n asked him to wait in front of OG.... n FINALLY i saw him... hahaa... he had walked arnd for 45 mins ade... haha.. my fault laa... i knw i knw... ahha.. so acc him eat lunch at mcd lo... we sat there n chatted for like 2 hours? haha.. abt tht la.. cuz chinatown nthn to see lo... for teenagers like us la... then walked arnd abit lo... met up with my godma they all at 5 lo... abit da sien diao la... cuz he wanted to bring me to see sum guits de... abit disappointed la.. not enuf time ma... sad... nvm la... nx time onli go lo... hmm.. haha... damn tired la tht day.. hee...

weds.... went to neway wid edwin, chouhur, weisern, yinling, wuhterng, joanna, jas ng, kokfei, vivian, n js... every1 was late.. lol... i was da earliest to reach there.. u knw la.. my grandpa.. lol... left keesiong's magazines at everstrong.. n met up wid them at 11.30 lo...had fun there la.. laffed until i almost burst... ed they all la... keep acting like clowns makin us laff non stop... haha... then me n js left early lo.. met up wid yixian at 1.30.. played da drumz machine at da arcade... n bishi bashi too! haha... yixian getting better at it ade.. damn.. lol... bt still... no1 can beat me in da drums!!! yay! haha.. spent like ALOT there lo... then finally keesiong came... n bought my magazines too! haha... so i put them at everstrong too! lol.. tumpang ma... then we went our separate ways lo... me n yixian went off together...whereas js n ks went for a movie... me n yx had lunch at vivo... nice la... heh... then took neoprints!!! haha.. v funny la... got voucher ma.. so cheaper lo... bt old machine la.. hehx... then... we went to da arcade.. n played summore!!! haha.... siao la we all... then went to kerrys by bus n CLEANLY forgotten abt da magazines at everstrong.. haha.. called da shop after i reached hme n asked da lady to safekeep for me 1st lo.. haha... ks didnt get back his magazines too cuz when he went there... da shop was closed.. out for dinner... LOL... haha... so in da end.. all the magazines still there lo.,.. haha..then at night went shopping wid grandma at carrefour! ahah... finally saw boon hor... hez workin as a promoter there ma... hha... hez selling cap jasmine beras there ma... so i walked ther n saw a guy there... nt sure its him o nt.. so i smsed him.. ask him got work o not.. he called me n said hez wokin nw.. so i quite confirmed its him ade lo... i went over to look for him lo... we chatted quite long lo... like 40 mins... ahha... then i went off to look for my grandma ade lo...

thursday... i was a gd gal... didnt go out wid my frenx! haha... instead went to open another account... this time is maybank 1.... then went to landmark mall.. bough lots of things lo... 2 webcams.. mics... memory card.. laptop lock... wad else.. i cant remember.. ahha.. then dropped by at zy's hse n passed him all my reference books... he can use ma... then went hme... n went to carrefour AGAIN... wid grandma... cuz she left a few bags of goods there yest!haha.. damn funny la... luckily they were still there... then godpa brought us for dinner at a seafood restraunt at tmn rinting... i tell u i almost fainted when i saw the bill... 700+.... omg omg omg.... i mean.. onli me, my godme, godme, grandma, n 2 cuzzies ler.... da alaska crab he ordered was.... 2 kg plus... n costed nearly 600 bucks lo! oh man... bt it was tasty la.. DUH... hhaa.... at fresh oysters too! damn big lo... n yummy too! haha.... then stayed over at godma's hse... well... dats abt it for thursday lo... haha...

friday... went to sch to pass things to my music club juniors n help yixian pass things to her interact juniors oso.. then i went to see my juniors' choir practice... no comments la.. they shud knw.. haha... then went to cs at abt 1.20... met up wid liyinn... wanted to watch the memoirs of a geisha which i previously booked a few days ago bt onli found out da shw starts at 1.45 AM... not PM... zadaoed... so no choice lo... watched da onli shw availabe at dat time... Face to face... nice name right? bt oh man did we regret.... da shw is sooooooooooooooooooo stupid lo... da storyline is like phantom of the opera.... cantonese version.... onli dat its 10000000000000000 times more stupid.... nv watch dat shw man... no1 has ever heard of it anyway... lol.. then we had lunch at vivo.,. ahha.. n took neoprints!!!! haha.. i'm so addicted to neoprints lo! haha... damn nice lo da ones i took wid liyinn.. hee... we took pakage 1... RM 56.... abit ex la.. bt worth it la... then we took a bus to kerrys lo where my dad picked us there... n sent liyinn hme... then me, mum n dad hd crabs AGAIN.. at peking la.. haha... da meal costed 70+... like 10 times cheaper den da previous dinner? ahha.... bt nice la... lol... went to jusco after tht.... went to yamaha! i hav a feeling my dads gonna buy me an new amp!!! YAY!!!!... aha.... acoustic amp summore ler no kidding! WOOHOO!!!! haha,,... i tot he'd say its too ex... bt he was like.... hmm.. its 900+... u see ok o not... i got a shock lo! ahha.,.., didnt expect a response frm him liddat... lol... bt no stock la.. muz wait lo.. its a ibanez 1... bt v heavy lo despite its already da smallest 1... 8.8kg... lolx.... now hav to wait lo.... sienx.. ahha..

saturday... didnt go out la.. was at hme lo... sien sien...

sunday... muahahahaha... shopping day man! went to holiday plazy early in da morning... n bough ALOT ALOT ALOT... ahah!!! yay!!!! happy man.. n i bought new contact lenses!!! n a pair of sunglasses!!!!! nice lo... suites me.. hee.... then i traded in my semi hard lense... i cant wear them la.. too painful fr my eyes... luckily can trade in.... bt rugi 20 oercent of da ori price la... bt hoo cares la... got 400+ bucks ler! aha.. so my mum bought a pair of sunglasses too! n all together we onli paid back like.. 10 bucks? ahah... nice la... then went to perling at 4... did a hair treatment... my mum cut her hair lo... now my hair vvv soft ade!! YAY... then ate steamboat for dinner!!! haha... damn hapy la today.. lolx...

anyway... its getting late la.. tired ade.. wanna slp liao.. so blog nx time yea! ciaox!

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hey hey hey~! wah... these few weeks like so bz onli. everytime blog is like... abt da whole week 1... not like my usual daily blogging habit ade...

so lets see.. i kinda forgot wad i did on monday... haha... then had tuesday had driving lesson! haha.... damn chun man... first time on road... drove like... 30, 40 at 1st... then increased da speed as i went onto da pasir gudang highway... 60 liddat la... then reached perling lo... drove on da A route twice... nt bad la.. nt too hard to remember la.. i almost kena frm da instructor lo.. ahah... cuz he ask me to change lane la.. i juz drove to da nx lane without signaling n looking at da mirrors! hahaa.... luckily there were no cars lo! haha... then came back dat time... went up to 70kmph.... ahhahaa.... da instructor oso lazy to ask me slow dwn ade... so ya.. ahhaa.. had fun la! haha... so finally i reached my hse... in 1 piece.. HAHA....

then... weds.. went to jusco wid godma early in da morn.. luckily got parking... opening ma... then shopped wid her for an hour or so.. then met up wid js at abt 11.... then we shopped till 6! haha... gou li ler... damn nice la da place... lots of shops... bt da ground floor or so called international floor goods are... erm.. very ex.. haha... all those esprit... nike.. guess.. m&g stuff... fooh... saw a pair or slippers at quicksilver... damn nice 1 lo.. da base is like da golf course green.. then at da heel there got a half golf ball... then on da top got a tee... damn cute la.. wanted to buy for my dad de.. then looked at da price.... RM109.90... i put it back... LOL! hahaha.. damn ex la.. for a pair of slippers... if 29.90 i'll buy... haha...

godma went on a shooping spree i guess.. ahha... bought a few hundred bucks of clothes... i bought a few oso la.. ahha... she bought me a elle sling bag.. yay.. hee... then i bought 2 giodarno t shirts... n 2 padini shirts.. a bottle of perfume.... a toothpick container! haha.. for my godpa... he luves toothpicks.. lol... n a doggie calender for my mum..

then met my grandma n my cuzzie lo... godma fetched them there in da afternoon lo... n so me n js shopped till 6pm.. lol...

thursday... was SUPPOSED to meet up wid boon hor bt laz minute hujan lebat... lebat until he cudnt go out... damn sien diao la... so went to yi xian's hse instead... went to lm for lunch... mc d lo... then met shau chong... ate together lo.. chatted for a while... then he fetched us to yx's hse! haha... then he went off lo... hmm... played comp games at her hse lo.. nthn much.. then went to kerrys wid her at 4.30... played da bishi bashi again... n as usual... i won... LOL! hhahah.... then i went back at 6 lo... fetching her hme too...

friday... liyinn came over early in da morning n we went to sch to meet js lo... took out certs n stuff.. saw sum of my teachers... pn ling couldnt recognize me!!! sobx... she asked me i juz came back frm russia izzit.... -.-!!!.... zadao lo..... nvm... saw a few others la... pn adila.. pn wendy... pn rathi... ms mary.. pn ong.. she asked for my fone number summore.. zadao.. haha... say wanna go find me if she pass by melacca... hehe... n not forgetting marijan n rosli... lol.... saw my music club juniors lo... miss them manx.. not bad la they all.. heard most of them score quite well in their pmr... then we went to cs... met up with yixian there... n we took a bus to jusco lo... reached there at arnd 12... had lunch at yixian's fav shop.. da manhattan fish shop.... ok la da food... yi xian loved it though... then we went shopping lo.. i bought sum la... the others didnt.. ahha.. then at last we went to padini n bought a shirt each... me, yixian n js hav da same 1! haha... brown colour 1... liyinn bought da orange1 though... she didnt like the brown 1... then we went hme at abt 6.30 lo... yixian n liyinn followed... let them see da pics i took in thailand.. hehx.. then they went back at arnd 8 lo.....

tml goin to jusco again i think.. haha.. mum havent go there yet... dunno wad else to bring to melacca ler... hmm.... anyway... will stop here la... bye!

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first of all... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! yepx... a new year... a new start... hope everything will go smoothly for me.. esp n my studies.. since i'm goin to melacca soon.. n hopefully let me find a bf hoo has a car so he can drive me to sch!! hahaa.... i'm dreaming i know.. lol... cuz my apartment is a bit da far frm my uni la... bt nvm la... haha...

dat day i was tokin to yixian on da fone at 11 sumthin... then we toked for abt an hour... then it was countdown time ma.. then she told me... ehh! we toked for 2 years!! frm 2005 to 2006... -.-... hahaha... a bit da zadao-ed la.. bt quite true oso... ahha....then we continued tokin till 1am.. lol

well wang loong was supposed to come to my hse today.. seems dat hez bz.. i still dunno how to sing da song he wrote.. damn... speakin of da lyrics... where izzit... shit... dun tell me mum throwed it away when she was in my room... oh shit... dis is nt gd.... better go find later..

yesterday went to cs wid shau chong... damn fun la.. he asked me out to choose his new shoes... many of my frenx workin there oso... ed n jeremy at giordano... wingee n xuanhao at digi... yin ling, evelyn, say wei n jas ng at padini... chou hur at body glove.. ing ying n boon kith workin at secret recipe... hoo else arr.... ohh ya... i heard there r 2 idiots working there oso... which i woudnt call them as frenz.. wateva... so ya.. had fun there... chose his shoes.. damn nice..... nike 1... not v ex oso... 199.90... ok for nike shoes la... then i bought 2 sling bags.. cheap la.. like half price? duno its ori or not.... looks ori tome la.. ahha.. nvm la.. its nice anyway... 1 blue 1.. quite small 1... abt da size of my previous body glove sling bag... its in da washing machine now... haha... another 1 is squarish 1.. brown colour de... hee... yess... 2 new bags to bring to melacca! then bought 2 pairs of converse ankle socks... 1 grey 1 white... then 6 combs.. HAHA... yea.. 6... cuz i always misplace my combs n in da end i cant find it.. so mite as well buy a few more.. its onli 70cents for 1... hahaa..... then i bought 3 sim packs frm wingee.. HAHA.... 1 for yi xian.. 1 for myself... my birth date ler! i'll be using it frm 15th jan onwards.. da other 1... dunno wad to do wid it yet.. haha... keep 1st lo.. lol...

oh ya.. i found da lyrics wang loong wrote.. luckily my mum saw it n kept it for me... hee.. later goin out to buy sum shorts n t shirt n tacksuit oso... to bring to melacca.. my dad seems to be over anxious.. he ade finish buying all da maggi mee n stuff.. i was like... DAD!!! wad da.... haha...

tml gt driving lesson.. heh... fun fun fun! weds dunno wanna go out i not... still deciding.. hmm.. if my whole week seems packed... mum leaving for ipoh tml... dunno she will scold o not if she knows i'm goin out almost everyday.. lol...

oh ya.. i got my guit back frm my junior today.. bt i think he forgot dat my mp3 is still wid him... muz ask him to return to me this friday.. hmm...

thts all i think... k la.. gtg ade.. bye

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its fast isnt it... time really flies... da laz day of spm marks da end of my studying days in SSI... still remember... da 1st day of sch in SSI... i got to know my classmates.. chai yee... bao li.. li ting.. wingee... mei xian.. siew choo.. jas ng.. nur haslinda.. nur fatin.. muslimah.. not forgetting jannah.. n da guys.. edwin.. jeremy... wong yean.. johshur.. sim.. n our beloved ketua tingkatan thomas... man i miss those days we had in 1KMT6... really... all of us.. innocent lookin little kids... still remember during hari pendaftaran koko... i was da last person to get into st john.. n dat kinda changed my life... in a way la.. entered da tertutup kawad comp.. wid yixian as my timer n me as da leader... n jas yeo, xiwen n sum shumin as teammates... competed against mei shyuan's team, jye swei as the timer, n liyinn, shumin n ing ying.. hoo wud hav known dat 1 day we wud emerge together as 1 team n become best buddies? no... no1... haha... time sure passes fast... many ppl hav changed... sum left... to sg... even sabah.. i remember how i hated my form teacher.. hha... she didnt like me too much oso i guess... lol... then the moral talk drama... kindaichi... really sumthin to remember... becuz of this drama i got to know even more ppl... n had fun.. learn how to ponteng.. hha... moral talk then was v fun compared to nw... less ppl.. more fun.. n then the music club was formed by our seniors.. i still remember the day they performed to attract members... they sang when u say nothing at all.. li jie n yong thai... n playin guitars.. i was attracted immediately... n i entered.. pulled myself outta da photography club... stoop club anyway... lol

then form 2... got into a completely diff class.. 2KMT4... got to know new ppl lk ada, joanna, hanling n more.... dat year was quite a year... moral talk was a big project.. combined wid 2KMT5... acted taman meteor.. frm da script to practice... lots of conflicts happened... haha... but in da end we pulled it off... quite nice la.. i still keep the scripts of both these drama u know... heh... saw my senior play da guit n i fell in love wid da guit immediately... dad brought me my 1st guit n dat was how it started... i started learning frm my senior n performed for the 1st time during hari koko for the music cafe... was quite a success i guess.. heh...

form 3.... got placed in the last class in form 3... 3 Arif... described by the teachers as the hopeless class... bt they were wrong... talents were there man... music talents... art talents.. my whole music club gang was in my class... we had lots of fun that year... we wud go to the dewan everyday during recess n juz hang out... chat... yeps... really missed those days.. all the music club ppl.. all in 1 class.. teachers used to hate music club.. cuz most of them were in my class.. hopeless class.. hopeless ppl... but in the end? we proved them wrong... our pmr turned out okay.. all of us got at least 5 As.. sum 6... the teachers were shocked i guess.. nv expected it to turn out like this.. oh ya.. dat was da year i went into da discipline room da most... hhaa... my 1st page of da red card was full lo! bad gal rite? lol... cuz of st john la.. always had to ponteng to train.. teachers wudnt let us outta class.. wad to do? pon la.. pon till teruk teruk.. haha.. yixian, jyeswei, liyinn, meishyuan, n i got chosen n we competed in da st john comp lo.. got 3rd dat year.. kinda cried like crazy la.. damn sad la... cuz da difference in marks was so little... we cud hav won... cud hav... but oh well... luckily didnt oso la.. otherwise our results wud hav gone down the drain...

form 4... sat together wid js.. had lots of fun... lepaked together... had a bf... more pontenging.. onli diff was dat year i nv got caught at all! lol... became close frenz wid js lo... thn wad else.. entered st john comp lo... although we lost interest ade.. did it for a senior la.. quite unhappy la dat time.. kept having conflicts wid teamates... bt we survived it eventually,.. hehz... went for da st john camp in dec... in seri alam.. became ajks... had lots of fun there... oh ya.. my results completely dropped like dunno wad la... its like i didnt study at all for my exams.. my year end result was more than juz horrible lo... sorta sufferred depression la... like suddenly lost all interest in my studies.. everyday go cs lepak.. waste time.. waste life.. it was da lowest point of my life la... luckily i had frenz with me dat time... hmm...

form 5.. took part in da song writing comp... sang our senior's song wid ed, wingee, pris, n yong thai... gt 1st man... haha... damn happy la dat time... then choir,... got 1st summore.. i cried until damn teruk lo,... tears of joy.,.. ahhaa... then after tht nthn much la... didnt ponteng much until abt september la... lol... lazy to go to sch ade la.. then spm lo...

n now... spm over... man dat was fast... a few days ago my neighbours came over n asked us... whether to send their daughter to cvnt or ssi... at 1st i said dun send to ssi... bt thn after thinkin.. i told them abt da differences btween both schs... its entirely diff la.. da culture.. everything... then they asked me if i was given the chance to choose again. which sch wud i choose? i answered ssi without a doubt.. although the teachers a sucky... i still choose ssi.. i hav learned alot in this sch... got to know vvv gd frenx.. even given 100 times to choose.. i'd still choose ssi... yep.. mum on the other hand talked abt cvnt n cvnt n cvnt... of cuz la.. she was frm ipoh cvnt ma.. n i told them more abt ssi la... n finally i think they decided to send their daughter to ssi... well actually it doesnt really matter which sch u go to... u muz rely on urself... its all the same la..

anyway... today went to melacca again.. dis time with my parents n grandparents.. brought thm to see mmu n my room.... yeahh... thts abt it.. k la... its 4.30 ade.. i slept like 5am laz nite.. ahaa... better slp now... tml goin to jas yeo's budday party.. havent buy present.. lol... chao!

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at mah bun krong shopping center 

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on a boat across chao phraya river 

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pretty... 

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look at her features man 

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looks like a jap hor? 

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she made my dad go WOWWW 

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emperess dowager? lol 

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beautiful... juz beautiful... 

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phew wit! 

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awwwwwwwwww....  

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its a wonder wad plastic surgery can do... 

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did i mention to u tht they r guys? 

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shez soo pretty 

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dis jellyfish is ssoooooooo cute lo! 

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i'm underwater!!!! 

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nice pic? of cuz.. it was taken by me... lol 

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jellyfish!! vvvv beautiful lo! 

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yes yes... dats a grasshopper we r holding.. n i can tell u... man they taste good! 

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dad wid da Ultraman post!!!  

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dinner at da vvv ex bt now so nice seafood restaurant.. lol 

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look at da size of dat prawn man....  

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i like da slogan man.."If it swims we have it" haha 

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da statue of Yoga behind us.. nv knew yoga was a person's name 

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me, mum, n aunt 

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da royal palace 

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me, mum, n dad... hoo do i look like? hehe.... anyway... dats da replica of angkor wat behind us... 

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n dad became 1 of them,,, haah 

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ooo... scary 

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how a about mr mc donalds.. Thai Style! haha 

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oooo... scary...  

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frm top left, sarah jane, kim, junloong, me, keesiong, ryan.. 

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add maths tuition gang! 

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wads wid da 3 diff expressions... ahhaa. shau chong looks extremely comical in dis 1,,, n wads da snowflake n alin spaceship doin here? all thnx to our dear yi xian.. lol 

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u can say dat again... zhuai-nya!  

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guess wad? da medical check up didnt include a blood test!! yay!!! so lucky lo.. or i'll hate mmu for dat man... lol.... well.. yest went to poliklinik gan to do da medical check up... n guess wad? it was f.o.c.! aha.. how nice of dr. gan... hee... took an x-ray at wisma maria... tot i had to lie down n stuff.. actually i took da x-ray standing! lol... n i got the x-ray in erm.. 10 minutes? haha... i tot it wud take at least 2 hours... hmmm...

dad bought me a steam iron n hair dryer to bring to melacca.. how thoughtful of him.. heh.. thnx dad!

oh ya.. i did sumthin stupid today... i went to my grandma's hse.... n i took the cordless fone upstairs to use.... n i forgot to put it back.... then after i went hme... granpa called n asked if i saw the cordless fone... n guess where found it... in my bag.... hahaaha... damn funny lo... i accidentally put da fone into my bag n brought it hme lo! haha...

tml goin to melacca early in da morning wid my parents n grandparents.... need to hand up all my documents n da money n stuff.... then my dad wanna shw my grandparents my room in melacca.. hhaa... they all like.. so anxious... of cuz la.. its been quite sum time since any1 left home ma... furthermore i'm da eldet grandchild... hee

k la.. its like.. damn "early" nw.. gotta go... nitez!

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:47 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

WEY PEEPZ!!!! yeahhh!! i'm finally back in jb! WOOHOO!!!! miss jb man... yepx... well.... i went to bangkok la actually... then stayed in kl for a few days b4 comin back... lets see.... hmm.. wad did i do this 2 weeks...

well... i dyed my hair! ahha... brown base n highlight burgundy (red)... nice la.. i like.. bt if onli da base was a teeny weeny bit lighter.. haha... bt nvm... at least this time no need to dye back ade! yay! haha.... n dis time damn obvious la.. can see... bt after i dyed my hair.. my hair damn dry lo... hmm.. nvm la...

hmm... went out wid yi xian n shau chong... took sum neoz... damn funny la.... dunno how to pose.. then end up damn comical.. haha...

then went out wid my add maths tuition gang oso... quite suprised jun loong came lo,.. nv expected him to come.. haah.. so da 6 of us... me, kim, sarah jane, jun loong, kee siong, n ryan... lepaked... went to coffee bean.. n lastly we succeded in persuading da guys to take neoprintz wid us!! hahaa... damn funny la... all like bengang liddat..

then wad else did i do... erm... ya... learn driving for da 1st time! hahaa... my leg almost cramp lo... n da steering wheel damn hard to turn man.. bt it turned out pretty well la... didnt knock any poles! haha... n my side parking n 3 point turn quite chio oso.. haha.. da onli prob is da uphill n downhill... a bit hard to stop right on da yellow line la... everytime too nervous... forget to step on da clutch.. mati enjin... haha... den da car will slide back down da slope.. n i hav to do it all over again... lol.. v fun lo... n da instructor damn nice... tok soft soft 1... cant wait till my nx lesson man... nx tuesday.. ahha.. oh ya.. got my L license ade.. ahha..

then i went to kl lo... stayed for a night n flew to bangkok da next day wid mum, dad, n aunt... bangkok was alot of fun! nv in my life i shopped until so high... hahaa.... bought many t shirts n 2 pairs of shoes.. we stayed in D'ma hotel for da first 3 nights.... went shopping at ma bun krong.. a shopping mall la... the things there... fooh.. 1 whole floor of handphones... 1 whole floor of t shirts... damn nice... then went to a few more places to shop...

we saw a stall selling insects.. i mean.. to eat.. haha.. so my dad was saying:" hey.. y dun we buy some back n show ur grandparents?" then my mum said:" noo.... i wan to eat!" ahhaa... n so we bought a few bugs to bring back n bought 1 dollars worth of grasshoppers... small ones la.. mostly 1 inch onli... some slightly bigger... then mum went 1st.. aha... daring man.. then me n aunt ate... damn delicious lo!! haha... crispy.. like erm... dried shrimp.. haha... then we went back n bought another 1 dollars worth! haha... then 2 days later we bought another packet! hahaa.... damn funny la.. there was this water beetle which was sold for 10 bahts (RM1)... damn big lo.. we bought 1 back... but none of us dared to eat... then mum n i tried the bamboo worm too... taste quite like da grasshoppers la.... not so crunchy onli... lol.... okok! dun puke! haha...

we went for a city tour too... our tour guide was mr Vim... damn cute guy la he.. kept on makin us laff non stop..then we went to watch the Cabaret Show... da agua show la... damn those guys r beautiful.... really really chio lo! chio-er than i had expected.... haha... will post the photoz.. dun worry.. lol!

dad's worker mr. guan took us out for dinner.. at The Shelter.., nice place... got live band performing 1.. 7-8pm country songs, 8 to 9pm love songs, 10 to 11pm rock songs.. haha.,.,. all diff bands man.. damn damn nice... there was this band.... 8 ppl... fuhh.... geng lo... da food there oso quite nice...

2nd night we had dinner at a vvvvv huge seafood restraunt... quite special la.. u shop for da food u want pushing a trolley... then after paying for da food... u choose how u want it to be cooked... then u pay for da cooking... odd rite? quite fun la... but da food wasnt quite nice... n it was DAMN EX lo... 4 of us ate... a fish, a cuttlefish, 2 crabs, 2 veggies, 2 fruits... n it costed us almost RM400 lo! damn ex lo.... bt my dad insisted to bring us there to look at the place cuz its a tuorists attraction.. so.. nvm.. haha... had fun anyway.. oh ya.. the taxi driver hoo took us there oso damn funny.. he ask us we r muslin or buddhist since we r frm malaysia... so my dad jokingly told him... half half... then he was like.. ohhh.. i know i know... ultraman!!! we were like huh?? then after a few secs we onli realized wad he was tokin abt... he tot we were christian.. but dunno how to say it.. HAHAHAHA..... we laffed all da way to da restaurant lo!

3rd day.. i think.. aha... went to Asia's largest underwater world... its very nice la.. bt not as big as i had expected.. i tot we could spend a whole day there... n u know wad? we came out 1 hour+ later... haha.. da place is not dat big la actually.. hmm.. nvm.. haha

da 4th night we had dinner wid dad's fren in thailand... mr. poon pi phat... funny name sial! ahhaa... dat night da food was gr8 lo... seafood again... bt dat meal was delicious.. da restraunt is by the river.. n mr poon was v kind to let us use his driver for 1 whole day! i tell u lo... his car... FOOH.... its suppose to be a 12 seated car... then he changed the interior of da car... made it into 8 seater... n put in dvd player... flat screen... nice lo!!! press a button n da flat screen slides out right in front of u like wad u always see in movies! cool man! he fetched us to visit the grand palace... the palace is juz breath taking... really... really very beautiful... but quite suprising most of them hav china porcelin on them.. seems that the thai kings loved procelin... then... it was shopping again.. ahah..

laz day... dad brought us to another seafood restaurant... dat 1 was da best weve eaten dat few days... we ordered a crab, veggie, fried oyster, n duck tongues.... yes... duck tongues... aha... quite nice la... a bit crunchy on da inside.. gt sum soft bones.. lol.. n dat meal onli costed 70+ buckx.... n then it was off to the airport n back to malaysia lo... haha.. gonna miss dat place man.. dad said he wants to go to chaing mai n chiang rai nx year! haha.. lookin forward to it!

stayed in kl for christmas.. went to midvalley n looked at the yamaha silent guitar... if i'm nt mistaken.. dat guit has been there ever since da 1st time i saw it... RM 2100.... yeps... i tested it.. nice lo da sound.... bt juz too ex... my dad told asked da owner got any discount... he said.. got... RM2073... not much of a discount huh... lol... so my dad said.. RM1500 n i'll take it frm u straight away... u knw wad da owner replied? take it or leave it... walao.. damn rude lo.... humph... suan le ba... not fated to own dat guit.. lol

we went to sungei wang too.. bought a skirt n 2 pairs of jeans for chinese new year! yay... haha... ian was supposed to come look for me de.. then laz minute lepas aeroplane... humph.. will get back at him for dat.. haha...

finally.. today... haha.. left kl in da morning... stopped by mmu to ask abt da payment n stuff... then met up wid my mum's ec colleage's daughter hoo is studying there oso... asked abt the apartment... it seems dat 1 of her house mate is moving out.. so we went n look at da place... nt bad lo.. bt a bit far frm da uni la.. like 10-15 minutes walking distance... bt other thn tht... its a nice place la... so we decided to rent the room lo... cant believe i'm actually goin to melacca so soon! haha... onli 1 month away! lol...

anyway.. its ade 4 am! haha.. oops.. gotta do medical checkup tml...yikes.. i hate needles.... k la... gotta slp ade... nite nite ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:34 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

HEYXX!!!!! wah.... its realy been a long long time since i last blogged man.... Well... SPM IS OVER!!!!! hahahaaz...... congratulate me? sure!! hahaz.... i started celebrating ade even b4 da exam was over.... let me update all da things i did... lolx

3oth Nov
Had bio paper... kinda sucked... ahha... bt its over anywayx.... so yarr... after exam... we were shouting... screaming ade... cuz we onli had est left ma.. ahhaaxx.. so i went home.. took a bath.. n went out again wid my mum n cui ping... met up wid yi xian at leisure mall... n we watched harry potter.... AGAIN! hahahahaa...... it was my 2nd time watching n y xian's 3rd! mum was quite reluctant to watch at 1st bt nevertheless.... the did say it was a gd shw in da end....

1st Dec
Went to kerrys... met up wid shau chong at red box... he then revealed da mystery person hoo was goin to join us... sze qiuan... i was like.. OMG.. nvm... so we went in early... sang a few songs... n she came.... i tot listening to her tok is bad enuf... her singing was even worse... shez literally tone death.... yes... tone death... n she doesnt know it... can u imagine da agony me n sc was goin through throughout the whole 2 hours? haha.... luckily we survived it anyway.. lolx!

then at 4.... my granpa fetched me back... n zr came to my hse!! hahaha.. really in a hurry man.. quickly took a bath... cleaned my room.. n then i heard my doorbell ring... haha.. damn fast lo... so we chatted.... wid my ah gong beside us.... looking worried.. HAHAHA! he tot hez sum bad guy or wad la... ayooo... damn funny la... i was trying my best nt o laf lo.... then finally he left n mum came back..... then THEY chatted... leaving me.. alone... AWW.... HAHAHA... no la... lol..... then as usual lo.. he whacked my piano... it was out of tune.. haha.. bt anyway.. nice la... then my mum came down.. chatted.... till abt like.... 8... then he went back lo... yeah..

2nd Dec
Las day of SPM!!! ahhaa... yeah... had est paper... then after the paper... da guys went crazy man.. ringing da sch bell... setting off crackers.... smashing flower pots... HAHA... luckily kalthom nt in the sch.. otherwise i dun think she'll let thm off... or mebbe she will? haha.... anyway... went to cs wid liyinn, jyeswei n mei shyuan.. yi xian said she had sumthin urgent.. couldnt join us... so yar.. we went there... bought tickets.... knw wad... HARRY POTTER... AGAIN!!!! hahaa.... ya.. liyinn's 2nd time... my 3rd... n jye swei's... erm.. dunno how many times... she bought the dvd n watch it at home thousands of times ade... ahha... then they say they wanted to go play bowling at komtar... me n js didnt want to... so we split up lo.. me n js walked around da 5th floor... n saw the ec guys ar vivo... went over n said hi lo... hmm.. nthn much after tht... kinda waiting the time to pass... went to rooibo... saw sebastian n his church frenz i think.... then juivy, sulyn, n yvonne came lookin for me!!! haha,... how sweet of them... chatted for a while n they went off lo...to ks i think.. play gb... -.-! hahax.. then we met up wid joanna n gang... n we went to take neoprints!!! gua kit damn funny sia... like zhen zi liddat... ahhaa.... then me n js went off lo... went to vivo n had lunch.. i was ade starving by then... she didnt want to eat though... so she went into da cinema 1st lo.. i finish eating in less than 10 mins... n went too lo... luckily the show started late... like.. 3.10.. ahaahha! so i went in,.... juz nice... watchd again lo.. then as da show was abt to end.. at the part where voldermort n harry was fighting... suddenly BOOF! everything went pitch black n then the lights were turned on... n it showed... SORRY, THERE HAS BEEN A TECHNICAL PROBLEM... bla bla bla... hahaa... sum cnvt gal was screaming ade.... i mean.. they HAD been screaming THOUGHOUT the show whenever cedric appeared...it was annoying la.. bt wad to do.. i know her... yah.. let her be then... she screamed even louder afterr tht.. screaming for a refund.... haix.. bt luckily after a few mins.. the shw continued... after it finished... i went back lo.. went to leisure mall to meet up wid my mum... saw guo qi, guan hao n boon eng there.. tebrau frenz la.. then mum n cui ping fetched me to kerrys... shopped there for a while lo.. then went for dinner n went home... hahaz...

3rd Dec
Went for my primary 6 class reunion!! yay! haha... me, shau chong, n guo qi went together lo... went to jin yao's hse at ros merah... we reached there kinda early i think.. ahah... saw LOADS of foon yew high ppl there... n we guessed hoo they were 1 by 1.. haha.. it was v funny la.. bt hey... we managed to call out all of their names okay.. haha.. in da end.. 22 ppl came.... nt bad la.. had bbq.. at 1st kinda isolated la... smk ppl 1 group... foon yew high ppl 1 group... haa... then a few joined us wid da bbq n chatted lo... like jack son... yih han... yeah... then li kee came... my fren hoo gave birth 2 months ago.... shocked? u bet i was.... bt the fy high ppl didnt seem to mind at all... so nvm lo... we took fotoz.. wid my hp.. zzzz.. zadao rite.. ahha... no camera.. lol.. then exchanged hp numbers... n went back at abt 1o sumthin... fetched shau chong, guo qi n jack son back home lo... nice reunion... hee

4th, 5th, 6th Dec
SHOPPING... everyday... hahaa... wid my god ma... stayed at her hse in tmn rinting ma... mum n dad wasnt arnd.

7th Dec
Went to zy's hse.. haha... see my poor didi marr.... zk n emannuel was there oso... zr went out at 10... so we played guitar... he tried teaching me bass which didnt end up too well.. HAHA.... sad... nvm... then his bro played da drumz.... hez gd man.. haha.. so we played n played fer dunno hw long la... then he shwed me the fotoz in his comp lo... alot lo... hahaz.... had lunch at his hse... his mum's cookin is gr8! haha... then i went hme at abt... 3 sumthing lo... n then it was shopping again!!!! hahahahahahahahaz!

8th Dec
Got a call frm my junior early in da mornin..asking me shld he bring my guit n return it to me during da music club retreat at tanjung puteri... i was like... huh? isnt it tml? then he told me it was today... shit..., i didnt knw they changed da date or wat so ever... so i told him i wasnt goin lo... mite drop by lo... sobx...

went to kerry n met up wid js n wang loong... went to red box... wang loong seemed quite.. dunno y... js n i on da other hand... sang our lungs out... haha... had fun la... then zr called me n asked whether i wanna go to tanjung puteri o not.. i said ok lo.. n he came n fetch me.. we fetched js back hme 1st... haha.... we got lost trying to go to da main road.. HAHA..... then we finally reached tanjung puteri golf resort... their villa number was 234!!! HAHAHAHH!!! damn funny.... dun ask me y.. HAHA... its juz damn funny... then i went in... saw my juniors... they were like xia dao! ahhaa.... they were damn suprised to see me la.. they gave me a t shirt! n a bottle of sand...
damn nice la... hahaa.... then we fetched them to da bowling alley.. then we went off lo... zr fetched me back home lo.... yah.. dats abt it.. hee

9th Dec
Gonna dye my hair today!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! ahahaa... k la.. will update later... gtg now! CHAO!

i look upon the moon and stars at 8:52 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

elooo!!! haha.. wad on earth am I doin on9 at this hour man? its 3.30am now.. lolx.... aya... this few days hav been down with food poisoning la... sad case... vomit n diarrhoea non stop man... haix... bt now feelin much better ade la... cant slp sia...

well... lets tok abt my budday ba.. other than da watch n da new hp my dad brought for me.. my mum bought me a new guit case!!! hard case sia! WOOHOO!!! had eyeing dat case since i bought my APX-3.. dat time my dad was quite reluctant to buy it cuz it was quite ex ma... bt nvm... mum bought it for meee!!! lolx... hmm.. wad else... my tuition teacher got me a 50 bucks reload card for my budday! haa... so cute hor she... haha... then... aunt got me a small pouch for my hp... wingee got me a cute cute baby angel to hang on my fone! SUPA love it! its soooo cute! haha... okok.. wad else.. OH YA! my dear form 1 juniors Mel n Sarah got me a cute piggie!!!! to think that they actually remembered my birthday! hee.... quite suprised n touched la... hee... then wad else... recieved tonnes of messages n testimonials wishing me happy birthday... quite suprised that so many ppl actually remembered my budday sia... cuz da laz 2 years i was overseas during my budday... so its like.. no1 got to wish me happy birthday... quite sad la... bt this year... hahaaa... lolx... damn happy la... summore got to spend my birthday in sch for da 1st time in my life... although its becuz of spm la... ahhaa... bt nevertheless.... still had a gr8 time... i wonder where will i be nx year when i celebrate my budday? hehz... anyway... really really liked my budday la... lots of ppl still owe me my budday prezzie arr! dun forget arr u ppl! aha... k la... gtg ade.... tml muz study alot ade... bye bye!!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:38 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

HEYX!!!! I'm BACK!!!! haha.... my blog seemed very quiet lately... n so here I am... n guess wad? ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! hahaa....

Happy Birthday to ME!
Happy Birthday to ME!
Happy Birthday to E.T.~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~!!!!!

hhahha.... sorry la... i'm a bit high la... i got a new hp for my budday sia... dad bought it for me! ahhaa... nokia 6260... at 1st i wanted da new sony ericson 1.... da orange color 1... bt my dad said it was too ex... RM1500 plus i think.. summore cannot put memory card.... n da internal memory quite limited... so we went on searching fer da right 1... n lastly... after a whole day's searching... frm holiday plaza to giant... we came upon nokia 6260... it was... RM1099 i think... then my dad managed to get it at 1080... n i traded my motorola E398 lo... ahha.... u know... i used da fone for barely half a year onli... 1st time i change fone so faz... i traded in da fone wid quite a high price ler... nv expected it to be so gd... i bought it at RM690.... n i traded it at RM400.... nice rite? lol... n so i got my fone!!!! HAHA... happy sehhh.... dad bought me a new watch too!!! its called Crazy Hours... cuz da time is all over da watch... haha... 8 is at the usual 6 position... 12 is at 3... n so on... so da short hand will be jumping all over da clock face every hour.. LOL... damn cute la... godma gave me a bag... grandma... as usual.. 100 bucks in an angpow... ahaha... uncle oso... 50 bucks in an angpow.. wel wel wel... dunno wad will i be expecting tml... ahah... quite happy though.. dat my frenz remembered my budday... sum quite unexpected.... hahaa.... bt anyway... quite happy la... although tml is my moral paper... bt at least i get to spend it in sch... FOR ONCE... ahaha.... yeahh... kay la... will stop here i guess.... nite nite... takkaire! n....

I LURVE MY FONE!!!!! lol!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:40 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

ok su-lyn... u shud be happy to see this... RITE? haha... so i did da survey... n here goes.. ahha...

List of 7s
Seven things that scares me:
1. BALOONS.. i'm like.. freaking scared of ballons n i dunno y... esp those round ones.. juz filled with air 1... looks like they're gonna burst any second!
2. Heights... yeps... i have acrophobia... since.. erm.. standard 5? since i went for a ride at sunway lagoon.. da Top Gun... yeah.. if u know wad it is.. hahaz..
3. No music in my life... I live for music mann.. haha..
4. Creepy crawlies.... i hate insects.. eww... i wonder how they actually see with so many eyes.. EW
5. Losing my frenz.. yep.. they play an important role in my life..
6. My fone bill.. ahha.. yea.. it does scare sometimes... if u get wad i mean... aahha!
7. Losing the 1 I love da most.. i mean.. hoo isnt scared ritez?

Seven things i like the most:
1. My Baobei APX-3 ( guitar )... cant live without it...
2. My laptop.. hahaz...
3. MSN messenger... like duh.. i spent moz of da time chatting on9... hahaz...
4. MY HANDPHONE! how cuz I forget that... I juz lurve tokin on da fone...
5. Photoz I took with my teammates... Unforgettable memories... yea..
6. The songs n poems i wrote... heez..
7. My bloggie!

Seven important things in my room:
1. Aircond.. da most important 1... cuz my room is v stuffy u see...
2. My laptop..
3. My tv..
4. My bed..
5. My guit! that has accompanied me throughout all those sleepless nights.. hee
6. All my novels...
7. My handphone cable.. haha.. dat lets me transfer all my fotoz into my lappy..

Seven random facts about me:
1. I like to laff... ALOT.. hee
2. I like to sing.. ALOT.. lala
3. I like to cry.. Quite alot too... ahha..
4. Dun let me hate u... u'll regret it.. I dun hav a good temper
5. I tend to get over-anxious over things.. muahaha
6. I'm lame...
7. Dis 1 same as su-lyn... I hav a VERY bad sense of direction... really v bad..

Seven things I plan to do before i die:
1. Tell every1 how I feel abt them.. Thank them for being there for me...
2. Make sure I become a succesful businesswoman.. ahhaa... lolx..
3. Read all my blog entries 1 more time...
4. Find that special someone to spend my life with.. heez..
5. Hav a pet dog... i've always wanted a doggie..
6. Break my 8-hours-on-da-fone-record.. haha!
7. Edit all the songs I wrote... make them sound more professional.. heez..

Seven things I can do:
1. Play the guitar.. hahaz..
2. Play da piano... not many ppl know abt this... I suck at it anyway...
3. Talk on da fone for 8 hours.. lolx! dats my limit so far..
4. Be a real good listener...
5. Go crazy suddenly..
6. Stay up late... VERY LATE..
7. Think too much... dats wad I ALWAYS do.. haha...

Seven things I can't do:
1. Walk across a drain.. I hav the fear of falling into it... ahah...
2. March with my hands straight.. my hands memang senget de...
3. Can't stand ppl that lie to me..
4. Can't stand ppl that smoke..
5. Can't stand kids crying n running arnd..
6. Can't whistle.. I tried... i really cant.. sobx..
7. Can't study withou my mind wandering off... lolx..

Seven things I say the most:
1. Walao..
2. Zadao..
3. Wad da..
4. I was like..
5. Fine lo..
6. Humph..
7. Harr..

Seven nickname from others:
1. ET!
2. Ee Ting
3. Yeng Tieng
4. Cloudy day..( in chinese.. ying1 tian1 )
5. Niting
6. Xiao tian tian
7. Tian jie

Seven celebrity crushes: actualli dun hav la... juz dat i like their songz!
1. David Tao
2. JJ
3. Sylvester Sim
4. Emi Fujita
5. no more le..

Seven people who will have to do this:
1. Yi Xian ( when she can finally on9 again.. haha )
2. Jye Swei
3. Zhen Yang
4. Davin
5. Kim
6. Shau Chong
7. Wang Loong

Finally... finish doin da survey.. k la.. gotta go study liao.. chow!

i look upon the moon and stars at 6:03 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

lets juz say... i felt like blogging suddenly.. haha... i dunno y oso... but yea... here i am.. sitting in front of my laptop... typing... well... spm is starting ade... nx thursday.. chinese paper... hmm... anyway.. i applied for MMU ade... quite confirm i'm goin there ade la... gonna take foundation in management... dunno will see any frenz there o not... hope gor will go there lo.. at least got company ma...

anyway... today swallowed 6 hours of sej... haha.. tml gonna do da same too.. hopefully i can tahan even longer...

my parents bought a new massager... OTO de.... costed abt.. RM680... yeps... small 1 la.. nt da chair... dat 1 cost 5000 man! haha

did sum stickers oso! wid my name on it de! haha... in giant lo... theres this new stall... n da whole place is renovated ade... nt bad la... then juz nw dad n i went to da arcade... then my father go play da bsketball machine... nt bad lo... got 1 small boi summore started at him with those amazed look... n said WOW! ahahhaah.....

k la.. gtg now.. damn EARLY ade... chao~

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:06 AM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

today was our last day of sch... yepx.. wasnt how i had expected it to be.. i tot every1 wud be crying... blah blah blah.. sentimental stuff... bt then... hmm... quite sien lo... reached sch quite early... saw wang loong at the sch canteen.. n he told me sumthin damn funny.. i nv called him b4... then dat day i suddenly felt v bored... n i was like scrolling through my hp fone book... n i saw his name... so i juz pressed da dial button... n so da call went through... rang a few times... n it went.. nombor yang anda dail tiada dalam perkhidmatan or sum sort of operator message la.. he told me actually he was in church... then i was like.. ok... ahaa.. then that wasnt it lo... he was singin... ON STAGE... n his fone WASN'T in silent mode... oops... haha.. sial la.. 1st time call him ade liddat.... WANG LOONG! I'M SO SORRY! hee hee.... he kena scolded by his pastor summore... feel bad sia.... hee... anyway.. he forgot to bring da lyrics he wrote for my song AGAIN... nvm.. n there was ravi... forcing ppl to write his TEENY-WEENY-SUPER-MINI autograph book... seriously.. its so tiny... u can actualy grab da small bk n enclose it in ur palm... i guess u get wad i mean now... haha...

went to da hall shortly after that... listened to da taklimat... blah blah blag.. B-O-R-I-N-G..... yea.... but wad to do... then the sch made all da FEMALE teachers line up in front n ask us to shake hands with them.. mind u onli gals r allowed to shake hands with them... its lame isnt it? not tt i'm being racist or wad... bt dun u think its too... over? y can we shake hands with male teachers? this is soooo RETARDED..... really... n those male teachers jz stand behind the line like idiot dumbos.... poor teachers... like as if we shake hands wid them will kena sue to Syariah Court liddat.... stupid.... but anyway.. da 1st teacher i shook hands wif was... none other than our MOST beloved Puan Kalthom.... our dicipline teacher.. ohh.. did i mention i'm not really in gd terms wid her? n did i mention she went to look for me almost everyday to make sure i was in class during form 4? ahha.... bt anyway... let bygones be bygones ba... shez a nice teacher anyway... oh ya.. i wasnt wearing my tie anyway... n of course.. kena la.. ahhaha... right after i shook hands with her... she took me by da collar n say... dis gal nv pakai tie... n let me go.. HAHA... i was quite suprised though.. dat joanna n ee jie actually went n hug her.. haha... after that we proceeded to da front of the hall where all the FEMALE teachers stood.... n shook hands with them 1 by one... most of which i dunno... n sum which i coudnt even recognize or remember seeing them in sch at all... ahaha... i hugged quite a few oso la.. ahah.. first was Pn Zaleha of nt mistaken... followed by Pn Zabedah.. n then Pn Goh... then lastly Miss Mary... haha.. not sure if i left out anyone.. ahha.. joanna was ade in tears after da hand-shaking session...

well.. we went back to our classes after that... pasted the exam slip on our tables... then me, jo n ee jie went off to find masrah... they wanna do their last-minute forcast... nvm... then xuan hao took my disket... n we had to walk ALL OVER sch to look for him... damn hot summore.. haihz... oh ya.. forgot to mention juz now... more then half da form 5 guys n all da form 6 guys had free hair cut today! ahha.. by who else? of cuz our dear Pn Kalthom... ok.. back to da topic... i was practically running all over sch lookin for xuan hao... n finally found him lookin for me oso.. ahah... nvm.... then helped them to print out da results... then me n sebastian printed out da certs for our house ajks... n i got my forecast results signed by Pn Masniah too... thnx! hee..

finally we got everything done... at 11 sumthin... darn lo.. wanted to take lots of fotoz de.. but when i got back to class... almost every1 had left... darn darn darn... so lastly onli got to take fotoz wid yixian, wangloong, david, kae wen n ing ying... yepx.. a bit disappointed la.. bt nvm.. got chance de.. nvm....

well guess wad? its 12.33 ade.. so dat means its 1st nov... its been exactly 1 year since me n my ex 1st broke up... time flies.. haha... really.. so fast ade 1 year... n u know wad? dat means i hav 9 days more to study b4 SPM! AAAA! hahaa.... k la... am i supposed to be sad or? hmmm... well i'm ok ade now... living a gd life... yepx... so hoo bothers abt having a bf? although it tends to get a bit lonely sumtimes.. bt at least got more freedom... can go out wid whoever i wan to... its like.. give n take la.. u hav to sacrifice sumthing for love de la.. u dun get everything u want... so.. since i'm single now.. i mite as well enjoy my freedom until i find dat special sum1 to control it again i guess... HAHA... k la... gotta study a bit of physics b4 i slp... bye!

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cheese! 

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snow! 

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huh? 

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me n zy 

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hmm 

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AK1 

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another pic of da quarrantine room 

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in da quarrantine room 

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da 2 comp teams for nx year 

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so many ppl sia 

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in da dewan.. all 12 teams 

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our hopes on them man.. 

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1 n 2 n 3 n 4 n 5 blow! cpr sial... haha.. 

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ambulance call... ooooo... 994 is the the A n E dept?? bla bla bla... miss those days when i was da no 4.. ahaa 

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is da victim unconcious or is he not? haha 

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treating da wound.. 

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our poor splint... kemek 1.. haha...  

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checking for vital signs.. wads wid surien's expression? haha 

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no1 giving orders to no3 

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ooo.... 2 blackies! ahhha 

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turning da victim 

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lowering da victim.. is he laffing? yes he is.. haha 

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spinal lift.. 

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log roll.. yepx.. 

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our kk.. vinod! haha... so serious sia.. 

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heyx... so yarr... i mite not be able to on9 frm nx week onwards... dads gonna bann me... sobx.. so sad.. bt nvm.. gd oso la...can concentrate more... I HoPE.... haha... so i'm gonna update abt my week... well this week was quite fun... trained my st john juniors almost everyday.. yepx... really v fun la... then weds went out wid my godbro... took neoz... haha... damn ex lo... 56 bucks ler.. no kidding.. haa.. bt nvm la... then thursday js go n record lim's voice! haha.. laz chem tuition class ade ma... no more tuition anymore... sobx.... haha.... then wad else... hmm.. oh ya... yesterday was our st john ssi close.... kawad comp la... will post all da pics later la.... form 3... da gals won.. best commander is yee yeong.. form 2 shi jie's team won... then form 1 sarah's team won... all gals sehh.. ahha.. then best commander for guys is bryan yeoh.. i dunno how da hell he got it.. bt since da form fours gave it to him.. i mite as well accept da fact... best theory for form 3 is jie ping.. form 2 is wei keong... form 1 is melissa wong... i teach de ler! ahhaa....bangga sehh! anyway... comp over liao.. hope they'll strive harder for nx year lo... muz try their best n win... i know they can do it de... k la... wont make this entry too long... will post da pics now!

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heyyxx... me back to blog again.. yepx... these few weeks quite sien la. goin to sch on n off... nv go into class oso.. always at sudut bacaan wid js n yx... otherwise at dewan teaching juniors how to march...

well went to sch on thursday.... yx went back at 9 sumthin... me n js went to cs at 9.30.. at breakfast at mc d.. then went to coffee bean.. ordered tea n studied there... not bad la... nice place to study.. hehe... neway... went for tuition after that lo... oh ya... got distinction for my new south wales english test... heh... mum brought me to eat japanese food.... yay.. heh...

friday... went to sch oso... had this moral talk majlis penutup... damn boring n stupid lo.. had to sit in da hall summore... after 1 hour plus.. cannot tahan ade... so me n js cabut.. went to da dewan to teach juniors marching... then wang loong came oso... he cudnt tahan oso! haha... so we went to da sudut bacaan... with gen yao waiting for me there to teach him guitar... so we played n played n sang n sang all day... ahah... till sch ended.. damn nice wey.... long time nv touch my guit ade lo.. heh.... then sumthin horrifying happened lo! a vvvvvvvvvvvvv x infinity scary gal suddenly came n sat beside me n interupted me n wang loong's conversation n started her babbling abt a guy shez crazy over with... n she juz took my fone to see without ebe askin for my permission lo.. i was sooo pissed off lo... then go open my fone book n start questioning abt the frenz i hav... damn man... luckily wang loong came for my rescue... haha... he went to take his bag... n when he came back... he asked if i wan to go to da canteed... i quickly nodded n off we went man!!! really hate dis kinda ppl lo... tok to me juz bcuz i'm useful to her... n open my autograph bk without my permission oso lo... dun hav any respect for me at all.. although shez my senior.. she cant so this ok... dammit.. make me angry onli... bt anyway... it was nice singin wid wang loong la.. still remember da laz time we sang together was in form 3 during da singin comp organized by da chinese society... we sang a duet... ok.. lets juz not tok abt our disastrous performance... AHHAA...... lalalala.... nvm..

well... today gen yao came to my grandma's hse at 9.30... wid yee keng.. to my suprise... hahaa... nvm... then find the chords for him... n taught him sum chords... for tomolo's performance... then they left at 1 sumthin... then i went for tuition... n came back at abt 5... then he came alone at 7.... ask me to tune the guit for him n teach him another song oso... then he had dinner in my hse... KFC! hhaha... then my mum featched him back at 10 lo... haha... my whole day... yeah.. ahha... i wanna train him man... no matter wad it takes... i see da enthusiasm in him... well i didnt regret for choosing him to take over my post in music club as the instrumental performance director... heh... hez gonna do well... i hav confidence in him.. wait till after spm la... gonna teach him more... since he stays so near.. heh....

k la... wanna slp ade... v late now... gotta realy study tml... nitez!

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i'm back... after sending my laptop to da shop twice.. haha... dunno wads wrong la... 1st the SD slot.. then my keyboard started producing wierd sounds whenever i type anything... but its okay ade la...

well i cant really remember wad happen during the absence of my laptop... so i'll juz start with today then.. went to sch as usual.... En. Rosle gave VERY touching speech... really... his english was NEVER good AT ALL... haha.. but today he gave a speech... in english. yepz... although got sum grammar mistakes la.. but i can see him trying v hard... not bad la.. for a teacher.. still not giving up in learning english... we applaued for him.. yeah.. we did... for da 1st time... it wasnt those... erm.. finally-hez-done-with-it type of applause... but really take my hats off him..

anyway... after that.. our choir team performed... well... it was.... i dunno wad to say... standard dropped alot... ALOT.. haihz... dunno y they dun wanna use the pre recorded melody... then no guys sang.... then onli can hear soprano n da main 1.. others... none at all.. haihz.. damn disappointed wid them la... wonder wad's gonna happen nx year? nvm la.. i wont be there anymore anyway...

today cabut-ed at 10.30 wid yixian n jyeswei.. went to jotic.. sunway office to ask abt da pre-u programmes there.. go there like sesat onli.. cuz i dun intend to go to sunway university college at all.. ahah... so acc them onli lo...

after that we went to cs... ate lunch at pikachu.. keluar duit for yixian.. haihz.. n it added up to 50 buckz... man.. my 1 week's allowance finish in juz 1 meal.. haha.. nvm..

today damn tired lo. i know i dun hav much tim left to study.. but i dunno y la... cant get anything into my head... haihz... k la.. gonna slp ade.. signing out...

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my eyes r swollen... after 30 minutes of non stop crying... yea... where shud i start... ok... this afternoon... my dad asked me to help him to load sum songs into his memory card.. then he went out... so i tried to load it in.. it was a memory stick... my laptop can onli put in sd memory card... but he gave me an adapter... so i put da memory card into da adapter n tried putting it into my laptop sd slot... but halfway through.. it kinda got stuck.. so i thought.. hmm.. cannot.. so i pulled it out... then dad came back in da evening askin for his card.. ao i told him cannot... then he ask me to copy the songs into another card... so i put his sd card in.. n there was no click... there was supposed to be a click sound when i put da card in.. n it got stuck there... had to pull it back out... then onli i found out my sd card reader was spoilt... then my dad got anxious lo... check here check there.... then scolded me... ehh... its not my fault okay... his card wasnt compatible... but he told me it was... now da clip spoilt become my fault.. he was angry lo... very... dunno la.. then mum was angry at him for getting angry at me... cuz it was juz a small matter... then she started shouting at him lo... say we waited so long for him to come back but this is wad we get... his black face.. then she said dun wanna go out ade... damn angry la she... haihz... n i was in my study room... crying.. i dunno y... juz felt like crying la... n i cried.. for a full 30 minutes... aihz... long time nv cry ade... felt gd actually... then went upstairs n talked to my mum... then we watched tv together lo... yea... dats abt it... haihz... dunno la... damn swollen la my eyes... hmm..

anyway... smsed wid wang loong da whole day today.. haha... toked abt everything... mostly music... haha... yepz... toked abt forming a band... then we all shiok sendiri.. ahah... damn funny la... abt 40 smses lo.. ahha... geng ler... its been a LONG time since i smsed till so jialat... long time nv tok to him liao ma.. haha... still remember we entered a singin comp together n we sung yu jian together... funny things happened la.. like no sound comin out frm his mic... hahaha.... nice memories la... then we talked abt guys... gals... haha... cheered me up alot... although he didnt know i cried... haha... lookin forward to playin duet wid him after spm... he play piano i play da guit.. haha.. ok... me shiok sendiri again... bt its nice to know frenz hoo know music la.. at least we hav things in common n share the same interest.. nx time find bf muz find sum1 hoo knows music... or at least knows how to appreciate music.. hehe..

k la... v tired frm crying juz now... gonna slp early.... bye!

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lets see... dat day was... wednesday.. yea.. had chem tuition replacement... so went for tuition at 11.15... finished at 1.15.... then i walked over to kerrys with shau chong... my mum was there shopping wid her fren ma... then sc acc me till abt 1.30... my mum came n his bro came oso... so he went home... went to secret recipe for lunch... met hann n steph there... then after lunch.. my mum said she wanted to shop summore wid her fren.. ok lo then... i told her i'll walk alone... then i was lookin arnd when i saw han wei... he waas wid his godsis.. ahha... so after his godsis went back... he came n look for me.. then we went to look for hann.... found him in da cd shop... dunno buy wad cd ler? ahah.. then walk arnd a while. then they wanted to go to king surf... n dragged me along... then hanwei stayed there n play lo! humph... say wanna acc me back bt stayed there pulak... then luckily hann acc me back lo... there was this cat lying outside da place... so disgusting lo... da tail was like... broken wid a bit of the bone stiking out n flies flying around... we tot da cat died ade lo!... n it moved... ewwww... nvm.. went back.. walk walk walk.... unti, hann's dad came... at abt 3.... then he went off... then i was alone again... then went upstairs.. saw ing ying n kae wen... so we went dwn n i belanja them mc d ice cream... saw juivy there... went over n said hi n chatted for a while... damn zhun lo! go everywhere oso see her.. ahha.. nx time muz ajak her keluar... i ade promised to write a song for her to sing n we're gonna record it in my hse after spm! ahhaa... dunno when onli free to write the song... haha... then after eating ice cream... ade 4... n they went back lo... n i was alone AGAIN... n i walked like a zombie liddat.. up n down da escalator... till 5... onli my mum called me n told me she was done... haha... damn kesian man... haha.... damn tired lo my legs... haha...

well.. mums car offically came ade... yesterday went to pick the car up... so yea... yesterday tried watching dvd on da car.. not bad la... haha...

today went to sch.. went to yi xian's class.. hmm.. nthn much la... onli dat rahman n zaleha came into the class n taught us malay.. TOGETHER.... how nice ehh? how often do u see 2 malay teachers teaching in 1 class? didnt really listen though... was tokin to yixian most of the time.. oh yea... got back sum papers.... n i failed my bio... oh man... haihz... so many ppl fail bio lo... then wad else... est... even more saddening.. i actualli got an A2 for est! i was so disappointed lo! i tot i had a sure A1 ade lo... haihz.. nvm... mod maths got A1 lo... then add maths... got back paper 1... much better than i had expected la... didnt even think i wud pass the 20 mark line... but i did.. haha... got more than that... juz hope paper 2 dun get too lousy marks... well... thats abt it... the papers i got back... dun wanna think abt other subz ade la... my trials like shit la this time... argh... if my spm oso liddat i can go shoot myself or swallow 10 strips of panadols ade la.... haha...

oh ya... sumthin v saddening happened today lo! theres this cute guy frm another sch... quite gd lookin de lo!... n u know wad... js told me today she saw him wid his gf! AAAAA!!!!!!!!! so sad.... haihzzz..... he actually has a gf.... SAD!!!! haha.. ok la.. i'm crapping... but hez cute anyway.. ahha!

another thing.. Ada came to sch today.. then we celebrated jeremy, shao ni n ben's budday in advance... so nice... i wonder y no1 of my music club frenz ever remember to even celebrate mine? suan liao la... sumtimes dun even know if i'm one of them... nvm la.. at least got yx.. js.. ms.. ly.. n the others... yeps... at least they care.. hehe..

juz now this guy called me... damn odd man. i've never met him b4... he juz started calling me last year.... hez 17 oso.. 3 days younger than me n hez not studying anymore... yea... n he juz kept calling.. until suddenly he juz stopped... i was thinkin... finally... then after a few months.. guess wad? he called again juz now... everytime askin me to give him a chance... ehh.... its stupid la.... i've nv met him b4.... i dun even know hoo he is... he works in a factory... walao... i'm not dat stupid to fall in luv wid sum guy i dunno la wey.... haihz... but how to ask him to stop calling me? haihz.... nvm la... nx time he calls juz tell him i'm bz... hope he'll finally get my message that i have no interest in him at all...

mum's been really cranky these few days... can get angry over da smallest matters... have been quarreling with her almost every single day... dunno wads wrong with her la... haihz.. i cant even use the fone without telling her... stupid la..

anyway... i'm really tired ade... so yea... gonna slp soon.. i think... haha.. so yea.. bye bye! nitez!

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mum's new car is here ade!!!! yepz.. we sold off the sportage... n bought a naza citra... i know dis car not v often seen on da road.. still quite new ba i think... bt quite nice la... compact.. gt DVD player summore! can watch movie! yay! ahha... anyway... the colour is chrome silver... nice... then.. its a 4 wheel drive... juz in case u dunno.. hmm.. wad else... 7 seater lo... dats abt it i guess... hmm... oh yea.. it has a cool feature too.. when u reverse right... it tells u how many meters left before u hit da car or wadever behind u... nice ehh? anyway... still cannot get the car back yet cuz still no number plate yet... da number is 6626... v nice oso la... ahha... if terbalik then a bit like the last 1 la... 6263... haha..

well... went for tuition at 2.30.. bm... u know wad i always do there lo.. the teacher nv comes anyway... then wanted to go Angsana after dat... bt tak jadi... cant find any parking there...so ended up goin home with my mum.... sien.... bt at least got to watch Hong Kong Disneyland's Grand Opening.. on Astro... damn damn nice.. they asked sum original singers frm US to go to HK to perform... loved the songs... esp A Whole New World.... da ori singer... wow.... meltzz!!!! his voice.... really really melts my heart lo! ahha.. bt most of the translated songs arent that nice lo.. compared to da original ones.. they translated them into mandarin n cantonese... dunno la... juz lack tt kinda feel lo... hmm...

then dad came back lo...n we watched The Myth together... DVD la of cuz... bt those vvvvvvv low quality de... i fell asleep watching! haha... cuz i watched once b4 ade ma.. wid yixian... really lurve da song la.. gonna find it... yepz....

heard frm yx n ej tt frm nx week onwards, we'll be divided into 4 classes. A,B,C,D.... depending on our setara marks... bla bla bla.. wad ever la.. not like i'm goin to sch dat often... do exercise onli ma... change classes then change lo.. i dun think there'll be much changes oso la... my class's results... its not like no1 knows how lousy my class is... actually i'm even quite delighted tt we r gonna combine with other classes... or shud i say my class wud be separated.... lets juz hope i dun get into da same class wid da few brainless morons in my class... which doesnt really seem possible judging frm my lousy results during setara... bt anyway.. juz pray for me k? i'll be truly grateful if i wun hav to see them in class frm nv week onwards... if onli they juz use english n est marks to divide us into classes... which is IMPOSSIBLE.. haha.. i'm dreaming.. lalala... well.. we'll see wad class i get into.. most possibly D... i'll be lucky to get into C... aya... who gives a damn.. i'd rather study at home... i'll talk more in sch anyway... k la.. wanna slp ade.. laz night slept at 4 sumthin.. haha.. damn tired now la... nitez ppl...

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:49 AM
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alright... lets see... monday went to penjara right... yea... i wrote abt it in my last post... then tuesday... went to sch... n u know wad? my class onli me n ivan came... ivan got bk test ma.. n sum malays la... then i went nx door... saw wangloong n some others.. then i onli realized... the whole form 5 onli less than 20 ppl came.. yeahh.. i mean those not takin any exams n juz came for fun de.. haha.. so i got all my documents signed... i mean.. my surat berhenti sekolah la... then i went to yi xian's house by taxi lo... went to lavender to meet up wid her.. her dad n bro were there... then her dad bought me some bread n we headed back to yx's house lo... then went to yx's room.... she let me watch da movie called You Got Served.. fooh... damn nice... its a show abt hip hop dancers... they were great man.. da dance moves... sleek man... but yx kept forwarding da whole show.. let me watch de dancing parts onli.. haa... nvm.. then she let me see her fotoz... soooooooooooooooo cute lo!!!! when she n her bro was small... really vvvvv cute! haha... then she asked me to watch Forest Gump.. okay.. i know... this is an old show.. but i've nv watched it b4... so yea... watched it... nice.... vv nice... we watched until 12.15... then we sorta rushed to leisure mall.. quite near her house ma.. she led da way... n led me to those small small roads with deep deep longkangs... ok la... mebbe it wasnt THAT deep la... wont die if i fall la.. but hey... i got acrophobia ler!! nvm... yx laffed at me like no1's business... n so we finally reached leisure mall at 12.17... fast ehh..i went n buy the 12.20 show.. The Myth... whereas yx went to buy our lunch.. Mc D.... saw trecia, ai chen, n ju li.. then we went in n sat in da same row as them... i tell u lo.. they sure can talk.. frm da start talked until the show end lo... but da show really nice... really really nice... but of course.. it wud be even nicer without them tokin non stop... haha.. anyway... after dat i went back to sch to wait for my granpa lo.. yea...

wednesday... had est test.. after that cabut wid js... went to cs... then when we reached PO.. a bunch of ec guys went on our bus... a BIG bunch lo... almost all i know de la... then we reached cs... walked for a while.. cant make up our minds wad to eat ma... then finally settled down n ate at secret recipe... cant help laffing thinkin abt dat day lo... we were chatting as we were eating ma.. then js kept on laffing until she almost choked lo.. ahha... then der were these few ang moh sitting beside us.. they practically read out da whole menu before deciding wad to eat... their appetite is huge lo i tell u.... 1 of them ordered a fish n chips... but she changed the chips into rice... ehh.. 2 big pieces of fish still not enuf wor.. rice summore.. haha... then after eating we went to buy cds... there werent any songs... so i didnt buy... then js... HAHA... okok... u see da dialog...

JS: I wanna buy The Myth..
CD Seller 1: Ohh... The "Miss" izzit... okok.. wait arr... (he then calls to his fren) Ehh! Get 1 The "Miss" for me!!
CD Seller 2: Okok! ( CD Seller 2 returns with DVD, puts it into da black plastic bag n hands it to JS)
JS: Ehh... I said I want The Myth... Y u give me THE MAID???
CD Seller 1: Wad? He give u The Maid arr?? Pai seh pai seh.. I go change 4 u.. ( he then shouts at CD Seller 2) Ehh! I said The "MISS" y u give The Maid??
CD Seller 2: Wad The MISS???
JS: (gets a bit fed up) Shen Hua by Jacky Chan
CD Seller 2: OHH!!! U mean The "MICE" Izzit?? Say earlier ma!!!

then finally js got her DVD... hahaah...
anyway.... went to buy movie tix after dat... js wanted to go hom ade... so i ended up buying tix fer the Cinderella Man.. 1.40 show... it was still early ma.. so i went downstairs n walk walk lo... saw desiree n gang... it was her budday... then saw sulyn n gang oso.. haha.. at rooibo... they ajak me to eat luch.. but i ate ade.. too bad lo... then i went back to da cinema... n watch da show lo.. bt da cinema vvvv empty lo! i sat at row F... n all the rows in front of me was EMPTY!! haha.. then 2 rows behind me oso empty expect for 1 guy sitting behind my row lo.. damn freaky... haha.. but really nice show la.... went to leisure mall after the show n met up wid my godma.. she bought me a t shirt! haha... then went home lo...

thursday... went to sch.. n found out my class was used for SPM Seni... so my class had no where to go... n no teacher came oso... so me, js n yx cabut lo.. went to the penjara yet again.. haha.. i became their tour guide lo... haha.... bt there were sum places i didnt goda laz time oso.. then we watched the video wid a whole room of primary sch kids... da caning video.. 20 strokes ler... kaoz... n its juz becuz da guy owned a pistol without a license... poor thing... da butt bled like dunno wad lo.. sum small gals were too scared to finish watching n went out of da room crying... then after that went to see da Rumah Akhir... u all shud go see man.. its da place where the prisoners stay b4 being hanged... da 3rd lockup.. haha... yea.. u alll shud go see... there was this dummy hanged in da lockup damn scary... n right opposite it was a head covered wid cloth.... haha... got a scare man... js didnt even dare to see lo! hahaa... then... hmm...read sum news paper cuttings abt a millionaire staying there for a night for his mum cuz laz time she drive after drinkin n had an accident with another car.. all the ppl dat kena langgar died on da spot... so hez like... staying there hoping to lessen her mother's sin... then da officer made us tell the whole thing to da sk students! ahha... js told them da whole story lo.. * clap clap clap.. haha... then after that we went to cs lo... had lunch at Mc D... ate da breakfast.... me n yx ate happy meal! haha... then both of us bought the Mc D toy! damn damn cute.. hahaa.. then walked around... then me n yx headed back to sch while js went home lo... then ux followed me to schumann n went home.. heh...

friday.. which is today la.. nthn much happened la.. didnt go to sch... slept till 12 sumthin.. haa... yalo... hmm... dats all la... blog vvv long ade... gtg! chao!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:39 PM
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yupps... today had physics paper 3.. ok la... then after that we went to da Penjara!!! hha.. yea... u know wad... da bus didnt stop. n went straight to PO... so we took taxi there again... 5 bucks sia... wasted.... anyway... da jail not bad la... many ppl though... reached there at abt.. erm...10 sumthin ba... then juz as we weer lining up... eejie whispered in my ear:" ehh... look.. hez here.." then i was like... oh man.. of all places... of all timing... muz i see him here.... at a JAIL?? hmm.. nvm... saw sum of his frenz too... anyway.. back to da topic... went in.. man.. it was sooo fully packed wid ppl lo.. i think there were 2 SJK(C), 1 SK, n 1 SK(T)... so there were like... small small kids all over... chinese.. malay... indian... LOTS OF THEM.. yea... so me, EJ, n Jasmine walked together lo.. after we got separated wid da others.. or shud i say.. we seperated frm da group ourselves... yea... went to look around... there were workshops for making shoes, wood crafting, n also they make clothes there... then went n see the cells... oh man... it was so so so so so so so so so extremely small lo! if u've been to my room.. u know how small it is la... but the cell is like.. half of my room.. or even a bit smaller... n its for 3 person to live in lo... i was like.. wth... then watched some videos... on canning de..ewwww..... the butts... so bloody lo.... then saw the place where they cook the food... man.. da kuali.. SO BIG lo.. its like... a person can juz lie in there... so yarr.. we walked arnd for 1.5 hours liddat... thn we went off at abt 11.30.. thn we went to CS.. then we went to sushi king.. ate lo.. then after dat i wanted to bring the to Floor 13A ma...the study club la.. then as we were walkin... guess wad? we saw him n his frenz yet AGAIN... wad a day man.. u know right b4 that i was telling my frenz.. dun let me see him here... n well.. i did... we juz acted as if we dunno each other... how nice ehh? then... nvm. dun wanna tok abt that anymore... went to 13A... the study club... stayed there for a while... chit chatted wid da ppl there.. then at 1pm.. i went back to sch lo... waited for my mum..she came at 2.. went for lunch. n followed her back to da college to get sumthin... n we waited till 4.30 for da person to give us da bloody air ticket.. my mum goin to kl ma... to mark exam papers i think... walao lo... wait so long for da man lo... idiot.. then nthn interesting happened after dat la... tml goin to sch n gonna cabut... dunno go where... still thinkin... hmm....

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:28 PM
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i look upon the moon and stars at 8:40 PM
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yepz... today its my godbroz budday!! haha.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOW!!! hehe... laz night called him n gave him a suprise.. hehe... of cuz la.. hoo wud expected me to call Australia wor.. hehe.... long time nv hear his voice ade.. still da same la.. gt a bit of australian accent ade.. ahah..... i wonder how's his ball today.. hmm... tml ask him if i see him on9... haha... oh yea.. after calling him.. i found out da calling rate for aussie... i called for abt 7 minutes... n it costed me abt 7 bucks! haha.. so yea... 1 minute=1 ringgit... gou li manz... nvm la... once in a while ok la.. summore its not like i nv use my fone.. haha.. u ppl shud know my phone bills rite? HAHA... k la... gotta go memorize moral ade... tml gt moral... n history.. aaa... didnt even touch it 1 small bit.. nvm la.. tomolo objective.. so hoo cares... hahaha.... k la.. gtg... will update more.. mebbe tml ba... chao!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:52 PM
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No matter where you are and what you do,
we will always be Friends Forever
Everyday when you return from your school,
whether or not it is from a secondary school, college, a polytechnic, or Uni,
you would probably think that school sucks.
All those work and torture under your lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials...
not to mention midtermtest, semester test and exams.....
But think about this, i mean really think.
All the time we spent with our classmates, all those laughters, sorrows, and the happiness of being with our friends in class.
Because
No matter how boring aclass can be,
it is worth to be part of it because when you look around you,there will be some familiar face that feels just like you,
they might not say anything but we will understand each other feelings just by looking at them and their presence alone is enough to lift us and brighten the most boring class.
We wont realise how precious those time is until we finally lose it.....
We have gone through good times and bad times together, memories of those sleepless nights before the exam and those fun times that we have during vacation seems like it just happen yesterday.
But
No matter good time or bad times,
we have gone through it together....
Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or even all of them.
You may not realise it,
but when advancing into the next level ofeducation,
it is inevitable that some friends will be parting with you.
What is all this you ask yourself,
what I ask is, of you to think,
what do those people who were once or were still your classmates and friends meant to you. Those people that spend years sitting beside us in class and fight along side you in our biggest battle ----> EXAMS
Anyone who has just finished their schooling days and has graduated from respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates and friends.
Not knowing when will you see them again.
Perhaps the next day,
the next week,
month,
years,
decade
or will it be forever.
Perhaps one day,
you too would finally realise how bitter sweet those memories were,
the fun you had with your classmates and friends.
That is why ever so often when you asked someone which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education,
they would often have that sadness and tears in their eyes,
but yet,
they have the most wonderful smile in their face.
It's the memories of their school friends.
Those unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in school.
Those good old days that wont come back anymore.
All of us had suffered under the same stresses in school.
The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict.
But we never gave up cause we know that when we fall down there will always be a hand that will pull us up.
So treasure your schooling days,
don't complain,
because you never know when will you lose them.
And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured times in your youth.
or perhaps you dint even bother to care for them anymore...

yepz... touching isnt it... of cuz.. i didnt write this... haha.. found this sumwhere n decided to post it here... i almost cried reading this post lo... its so true.. we may not realize it but when we graduate.. we'll look back n say.. hey.. i miss my friends! yeps... but well.. that definitely doesnt apply to my class for sure.. i onli hav bad memories there.. but other than that.. i really enjoy my schooling days... cant really believe in abt 3 months.. i'm leaving sch ade... every1 leaving.. parting.. each pursuing their own dreams.. cant really picture that happening... but well.. life goes on doesnt it? we juz have to accept the fact... so yea.. hope u enjoyed this post... chem n history test tml... gtg.. peace out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:23 AM
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saw this bulletin in friendster.. like it V much... yea.. can describe my feelings PERFECTLY... so ya.. i'm gonna post it here.. so here goes..

Your'e such a liar..
All the things u told me was all a lie..
I was a fool to believe it..

Falling back for u was a big mistake..
I shouldnt..
I do admit,its was my mistake..
Falling back for a liar was my mistake..


Your words used to sound so real..
Like everything u said was all true..
Your words made me feel special..
It made me happy..

Your sweet words was hard to resist..
Your sweet doings made me collapse..
Your sweet kisses was so tempting..
Your sweet hugs made me feel warm..

You were the one that made me changed..
I changed cause of you..
I try to be what u wanted..
I try to keep your heart..
I gave you all my best..

But in the end..
i realize..
No matter how hard i try..
It wont change the fact that your'e a liar..

You told me i was special...
You told me i was precious to you..
You told me you love me more then anything in the universe..
You told me you never wanna lose me..
You told me you were serious..
You told me you wont break my heart..

All the things you said..its all a BIG FAT lie..
You never meant what you said..
You were lying all the while..

I cant help feeling pissed with you..
I hate you so much..
I've never seen such a JERK like you..
Your'e the worst in the entire universe..

But...
i miss your hugs,your kisses,your warm embrace..
i miss your sweet words,the way u used to look at me..

But now..
its a different story..
i wont miss you..
i wont trust you..
i do not love you anymore..
I mean what i said..
Its over now !!

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:25 PM
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yepz.. trials hav started... yesterday had my chinese paper 1 n 2.. paper 2 came 1st.. all of us had da paper in da hall... so yea.. i was lookin on da white board on da stage.. it was written there..

Bahasa Cina: 7.40am ~ 9.55am
Bahasa Arab: 7.40am~ 8.55am

i dunno wad was goin on my mind... i didnt see really see da time.. n i thought.. ok... 8.55 finish.. hmm... so i did my paper... i didnt really rush or wad.. juz did it like normal... n when i finished.. i checked da time.. 8.50... yepz.. perfect timing... haha... then i checked throught.. n waited till 8.55.. i looked around... hmm.. y no teacher come n take our papers de? then i looked at da stage.. n i found out i had 1 MORE HOUR... ya... how's dat... then i looked around again n i found out half the ppl were already sleeping... so ya.. i joined in da sleeping game.. ahhaa.. slpt till 9.30... saw ppl passing up da papers ade.. so me n ej passed up lo.. then we had paper 1 at 10.30.. da essay was ok la..

after dat had st john meeting... da last meeting wid our juniors *sniff sniff sobz sobz* yea.. then went for rohaini's tuition... sulyn came quite early... n asked me to sit wid her... so i went lo.. i think she n yvonne regretted... HAHA.... i duno y la.. dat day i vvv sot... keep on laffing n laffing onli... then da teacher was tokin abt hoe to keep ur money... then toked abt keeping the money in bras.... hahahaa.... then we came up wid even more wacky ideas... wont write it out here though... later ppl say we pervert.. HAHA.... anyway... had fun la dat dat... made me momentarily forget abt my trials.. ahah..

anyway... nx week i'm having bio, chem, add maths, n history paper n i'm so so so so so dead.. ahha.. so ya.. gtg study ade.. chiowz!

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:16 PM
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today went to sch.. had history class.. n had recess at 8.40 today.. early right.. cuz we had da teknik menjawab soalan fer biology.. so yea.. during recess.. asked yixian n jyeswei to acc me to go photostat some things.. n u know wad.. they tricked me... YEA... thay TRICKED MEEEE.... haha... thts a long long story.. i dun really know how to write it dwn here.. oh yea.. as i promised the both of them... i'm gonna say it now.. CHA YI XIAN!! I HATE U!!!! GUAN JYE SWEI!! I HATE U TOO!!! hhahah.. ok la... its damn funny la... i almost killed yixian though... haa... da ceramah sucked sucked sucked.. me, yixian n jyeswei sat together.. well i think for the 1st 15 minutes we listened.. then after that we juz gave up copying her notes.. she was so so so fast.. n we juz chatted.. haa... talked abt out future.. talked abt wad wud happen 10 years frm now.. yeah.. time flies.. oh ya.. i found out on my birthday.. 22 nov.. we're having moral paper.. ahaha.. damn sien diao.. nvm la.. 1st time birthday in sch oso not bad la... ahaha...

anyway.. i thought abt some things last night.. yea.. i've come to a conclusion.. nvm abt tht.. juz damn fed up wid sum ppl.. well i guess dats all for today.tml not goin to sch.. yea.. nites ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:10 AM
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well lets see.. recived sum suprising smses not too long ago.. well.. seriously.. i dun really know who should i trust frm now on.. should i believe him? or should i believe my close friend.. i really dont know.. the things they tell me r so different.. i really wonder if any of them are telling the truth at all? yea i know.. ppl change.. but to not believe in a friend that has never lied to me before is quite impssible.. as i said.. i hate liars.. i do.. i really do.. but when its a good fren or sum1 once close to me.. i cant believe that they would lie to me.. i mean... y would they? r they juz trying to help or r they juz trying to make matters worse? these ppl r really making my confused.. y cant they juz let me off? y cant they juz let me hav my simple life back? y cant they juz stop interfering with my life? well i was quite suprised tht sum1 actually reads my blog.. although i dunno hoo that person is.. i guess u can ignore me this time.. i'm juz tired.. tired of living.. tired of studying.. tired of everything around me.. i want to be happy.. i want to be free.. free of liars.. free of hypocrites.. free of irritating brainless idiots frm my class.. free of arguments.. free of my own problems.. but i cant.. this is reality n in reality.. life sucks to the max.. this is life... the cruel reality.. i've come to realize there isnt really anyone u can trust in this world.. well.. for me at least.. i've yet to find sum1 that is really true to me.. some1 who really understands me.. ppl always tell me they'll be there for me if i need sum1.. but when i really need sum1.. where r they? when i try to call them.. wad i always get is an unanswered call.. n for those who picked up.. well.. they r juz as depressed as i am.. n in da end.. i hav to act optimistic n console them.. this is so so so stupid.. n that incident.. i dunno.. u tell me.. who to believe?

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:33 AM
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i look upon the moon and stars at 9:26 PM
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i have feelin low these few days.. well all i can say is thanks to him.. but anyway.. i'll be okay in a few days time.. i'm writing my 3rd song ade.. now writing the lyrics.. then i'll write the melody.. n as usual.. its gonna be a sad song.. i duno why the music i produce are all so sad.. its like.. i cant write anything happy.. my poems.. my songs.. everything.. juz goes around n around the same topic.. well.. guess i'm juz suited to write sad songs ba...

anyway.. wei lian won da project superstar champ.. good job man.. although i dun like kelly but personally i thought kelly did a better job tonight.. but nevertheless.. wei lian's determination won.. i should really learn frm him...

really tired nw.. so i guess i'll get some rest la.. oh yea.. nx year's ssi st john board is out ade.. i mean.. among seniors la.. yea.. hope they'll do a gd job nx year n do us proud n prove to us we made the right choice.. well yea.. i should be goin now... bye.. nitez..

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:45 PM
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well.. this post is for sum1.. although i know he'll never read this.. i'll still write it here.. well.. i hope u r getting on with life better than me.. cuz u r making my life miserable.. i couldnt believe when a freind told me wad hav u been telling ur frenz in sch... y cant u juz let matters rest? its been a long time since i cried but because of u.. yet again.. i cried.. y cant u juz let me hav my life back? u don't know i know every single thing u tell ur frenz but i do.. they're ur frenz.. but they're my frenz too.. its over.. juz stop it.. i know its ur mouth n i can't stop u frm saying anything.. but if u still hav some respect for me.. pls stop it.. every singe friend of mine hates u.. i dont.. i never did.. cuz i know u onced loved me n i dont see any reason to hate u.. at least i respected u.. the onli reason i contacted u after so long is that i wanted to break the silence.. cuz i still treated u as a friend.. but u juz dont seem to give a damn abt it.. n let me tell u again.. the present i gave u doesnt mean anything... pls stop thinkin i still like u.. pls stop making wild guesses... if u hav no means of being friends.. juz tell me.. dont need to act nice in front of me n talking bad abt me behind my back.. i had enough.. if u r doin these to get back at me which i dont see a reason y should u.. juz stop it.. if u dislike me in anyway.. u can juz tell me straight in the face... dont need to do it behind my back.. its not the 1st time ade.. i know it.. n to his friends or ppl hoo know him.. tell him wad i wrote.. let him know.. i dun wish to hear anything abt this anymore.. dont make me hate u..

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:20 AM
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well yea.. laz sunday was da st john ambulance perbarisan tahunan... it was held in my sch.. well it was quite a major event.. 500 st john members from 12 schs came... well i reached sch at 1... then every 1 reached at abt 1.30.. marched into the field... stood there... n it started to rain.. NON STOP... n guess wad.. we stood in the rain n waited for the VIPS to come... n finally they came... gave sum boring speeches... n we juz stood there.... watchin... 1 by 1... members fainted... yea.. wad a nice scene ehh... at least 10 man... mostly gals... n there we stood.... 3 hours... in the rain.. yea...

oh yea.. i forgot to mention abt the commander... with his hillarious commands... lets see.. hav u ever heard of this :" diam, diam barisan tengah, diam!" haha... laffing now? yea.. dat was my 1st time listening to that sort of commands...

well the whole thing ended at 4 sumthin... damn tired n soakin wet... went home.. bathed... ate dinner... n slept frm 6.30 pm... til 9 am the next morning.. not bad ehh.. haha...

well today watched 2 movies at grandma's house... unleashed n constantine... quite nice la.. studied a bit of bio.. yea.. nthn much la... neway... feelin tired... wanna chao ade.. so yea... peace out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:43 PM
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lets see... quite alot happened last week... got to know sumthin... abt my frenz... yea... now i really know where i stand in their hearts... now i know my importance in their lives... i should have known long ago... i juz didnt want to admit it myself.. i didnt wan to admit they juz dont care a shit about me... they wouldn't even care if i was dead... yea... so called good friends of mine ehh... i knew that was goin to happen since i got into dat class... i dunno y.. i juz knew it... i hoped it wouldnt happen.. but again n again it did... i'm getting tired of all these arguments n cold wars... i realy had enough.. wad izzit dat i hav done wrong to get all these? y do u ppl juz like to treat me like sum trash or garbage? throwing me around where ever u please n juz dumping me in da dustbin when u finally get tired of playin with me? hello! i'm a human being here! i have feelings too ok? y izzit always my fault when most of the time it isnt? y izzit i'm the 1 being ignored when u are the ones who did me wrong? y izzit when i'm absent n sick but no1 seems to give a shit abt my absence? now i know y... cuz u ppl nv treated me as a friend.. yea... i know u'll say i'm too much.. but go home n think abt it urselves.. wad hav u ppl done to be considered as i friend? mock at me? ignore me? having cold wars with me? not telling me wads goin on? sharing things among urselves n acting stupid when i ask abt it? or come to me when i got sumthin u wan? ask for my help when there are things u ppl cant solve? THANK YOU VERY MUCH... I DONT NEED FRIENDS LIKE THAT.. if that is wad friends are for, i'd rather i nv got to know u ppl in the 1st place. i really hope u ppl will read this.. dont think that by ignoring me, i'll forget abt it some time later.. i'm not goin to! now u know y i'd rather skip school than to spend my time wid u ppl... u nv give a damn abt me anyway... all u care abt are guys... once they r there, u juz completely forget abt me.. as if i was nv there in the 1st place.. u think i dun mind.. u think i dun care... izzit so? wad if ur friends did the same thing to u? u think u'll feel nothing? u think u'll juz act stupid? no.. not me. n after all these time, i've realized da level of trust u ppl hav in me... i've known u ppl for 5 years... some even longer... but what are the answers i get everytime i ask u abt sumthin? u ppl nv tell me anything at all... all u tell me is that its a secret.. but all of u know abt it n talk abt it among urselves... even wid ur guy friends when i juz sit there like a dumb ass not knowing anything.. u think thats fun? let me tell u.. it isnt. time after time i hav been telling myself.. u ppl r my friends... n time after time i found me lying to myself... its time for me to wake up... i've really had enough with u ppl... whether u agree o not wid wad i say... i'm not goin to be nice anymore.. everytime i try to be nice.. u ppl juz take me for granted... this is da laz time i'm keepin quiet... believe me.

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:15 PM
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heyx.. i'm back to blog again! haha... well yea... lets get back to laz week... crazy week sial... my mum brought students to mersing for a camping trip... my dad went to indonesia.. so i stayed at my grandma's house lo....

MONDAY... went to sch... was feeling sick... i WAS sick.. ok.. then headache... didnt hav the mood to study... so during recess.. i took my bag n books... n walked straight out of school! haha... da guard juz looked at me for a while then look away... haha... so i went to cs... 10 sumthing onli.. so i sat at mcD.. bought chicken porridge... n ate there lo... then after i finish eating.. look at my watch.. damn.. onli 10.30... ahah... so i went to buy a egg sandwhich n a cup of coffee n sat downstairs... dis time i made sure i ate VERY VERY SLOWLY... hhaa.. lookin at ppl comin into cs... frm 1 by 1... became groups bt groups n when i finally finish eating.. cs was quite filled with ppl ade... so i went upstairs n walked around lo... walk walk walk... then saw sumthin v nice n bought it fer my fren as budday prezzie... then it was 12.45 ade... still considered early la.. cuz dat day i finish class at 1.40 ma... n so happen i passed by da snow ice stall n i bought a bowl of snow ice... man i tell u.. it was GOOD... >.< haha.... vvvv nice.... i strongly recommend da peanut flavour... i love it man! hahaa... then bought da taiwanese fried chicken chop or watever it is called... it wasnt worth it lo... 5 bucks for a few little pieces of pathetic looking chicken... n summore da worker go n cut into even miniature pieces... haha.. but i cnt deny it tasted gd oso la... ahah... then after ddat i went back to sch lo... juz in time.. n acted as if nthn happened.. hee...

TUESDAY... Woke up in da morning feeling giddy n stuff... so ended up staying at home... went to see da doc at 11... who was my fren's dad.. an indian... he kept on tellin me nt to go to sch da nx day oso lo! hhaa... so zadao man... but i juz asked for mc for dat day itself.. then i went back homw n had lunch... ate medicine... n fell asleep again.. n guess wad.. i woke up at 4... ahahhaa...then ate lunch... maggi mee lo.. then taught my cousin chinese... she had exam the nx day ma.. i think i was too harsh on her la... gave her too much work.. n she cried... man i really dun like seeing children cry... argh.. nvm.. then i left her wid my grandmother n went for tuition.. nthn much happened dat day..

WEDNESDAY... went to sch as usual... regretted not taking another day's mc.. haha... i so wanted to go for history class n guess wad.. da teacher didnt enter my class... darn... spent the whole morning in st john room wid yi xian, liyinn, n mei shyuan... help then make booklets for ssi iu day... then after we finished... it was recess ade... u know wad... i took my bag n books n headed straight for da gate... i dunno y la... dat week really no mood to even stay in school.... went to kerrys n met up wid gor... he didnt go to sch at all n was there since morning.. he treated me breakfast loo... hee... then went into da mall n walk arnd for a while.. then we got bored... then he decided to go back to da cyber cafe n continue playin games whereas i went to cs alone again.. ahah... went to coffee bean n ordered a vanilla drink... it was heaven man i tell u.. i loved loved loved it.. haha... 1 of da best non coffee drinks i had in coffee bean... n i had a piece of raspberry cheesecake.. a bit disappointed though.. not as gd as i had expected... then it was still VERY early.. 1 onli... i told my granspa i stayed back till 4.30... so i went upstairs to see if there were any movies to watch.. n ended up watching Stealth alone.. haah... nice lo.. 1st time watch alone... the show was... ok onli... the storyline was expected.. kinda like I Robots... nthn special... but da effects were nice... n so i went back to sch at 3 sumthin... expecting to see yixian n gang at sch practicing their dance... but they were no where to be seen.. so i went back early...

THURSDAY... went to sch late... holiday ma.. da juniors had NCO kelayakkan test.. most of ttheir performance were quite expected... some were disappointing though... n i found out on weds... yi xian n gang were indeed still in sch at 3 sumthing.. they were at the counselling room practicing... no wonder i couldnt find them anywhere.. haha.... well helped joel n jye swei on their performance... n they ended up askin me to play da guitar for them... so they called their interact juniors who havent reach sch yet to find a guitar n bring it to sch for me.. n finally... they found 1... their junior was like keep apologizing to my becuz according to her.. the guitar was vvvvv lousy n in a vvvvvv bad condition... she kept on apologizing... haha... then she left... i took out da guit... it was a classical guit.. sure enuf.. there were dents at da sides... n it was is a bad condition... then i layed it on my lap in looked inside... guess wad words i saw on the label? HAND MADE GUITAR.... MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS A HAND MADE GUITAR!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!! N SHE DIDNT EVEN KNOW?!?!?!?!?!??!! hahaa.... i was so so so so so so so excited lo... i quickly tuned the guit.. n strummed... fooohyooo... da sound... i dunno how to describe... ahhaa... vvvvv nice.... n i really mean VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV NICE... hahaa.. so joal n i figured out the chords n he practiced singing wid jye swei lo.... then i started playing other songs n joel used his hp to record wad chords i was playing.. ahhaa... damn funny lo... then i went to cs AGAIN.. for da 3rd time in a week.. for lunch la... went wid js.. but parted once we reach there.. she had other programmes... then i went back to sch at 1.30 n went for guitar class... asked albert abt the chords of da song i wan playing for joel n jye swei.. At The Beginning... n he found out there were some missing chords in between... so we found the chords n wrote it dwn lo... nice... haha... then went for physics n chemistry tuition lo.. went home v late n canceled da last tuition of da day... too tired la....

FRIDAY... i stayed in sch for da WHOLE DAY!!! guai ler... ahah... ee jie told me my form teacher almost called my mum.. AHHA.. OOPS.... ok la.. i know i bad la.. hee... it wont happen again! heee... had rehearsal after sch... yi xian asked my acapella team to perform oso... so we practice lo.. everything went on pretty well... went for bm n add maths tuition after dat lo...

SATURDAY... the day... ssi iu... fetched joel to sch... had rehearsal... n it started at 9.. i think... saw christine!!! SHE CAME!!! ahhaaa... happy lo...my acapella performance was at 10.30... we did a nice job.. heh.... then i played da guit for joel n jye swei's song... da guit was a bit too loud but overall it was okay.. then i went to da hall to sit lo... saw ee wuen... shaked hands wid me.. he said our performance was gd.. ahaa.. happy seh!then saw sim yen n da rest.. they were late!!! AAAA.. hahaa.. nvm la... then saw sum other ppl i knew la... saw my dear meix joy oso!! didnt expect her to come lo... took sum photos wid her.. then saw dat yean rui... HHAHAHAHA.... da guy dat kena me n js kutuk teruk teruk during ec iu... long story.. then saw desmond oso.. said hi lo... er... others i cant remember la.. too many.... saw da classical guit performance.. da guy was gd.. i super super super love da drama... vvvv well done.. ahah... v funny.. n yixian, mei shyuan, n liyinn DANCED!!!! AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA.... i nv expected i cud see them dance in sch man!!! HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA... v nice la... ahha.... ms was damn cute.. ahah.... then helped sim yen tune his guitar..then me n js shiok sendiri keep singin n singin n play guitar... then he like... bangang there.. haah.. sorry la.. ahaha..... then ian came n he started playin... nice lo! haha.. he played marriage d' amour.. nice nice nice.. ahah... then we went back to da hall.. everything ended ade.. took fotoz lo.. n we helped arrange the tables n chairs lo.. n finish cleaning up at 1.30... then ian fetched us to kerrys to limteh.. then we chat chat chat until 2.30.. mei shyaun left n went for tuition at omega.. me,yx n ly stayed there wid ian n continue tokin.. haha.. we skipped our chinese tuition n went back at 3.40... hahaha.... well it was v nice lo.. long tims nv see our dear shi fu ade... hehe... oh ya... his prezzie still wid me.. muz remember to give him.. ahhahaa

SUNDAY... had hi tea wid my godma, cuzzies, n grandparents at blue wave.. heh..

anyway... nthn much happen after dat... oh ya... ee jie didnt come to sch today... n we did alot of mod maths ade... so i ended up doin her work for her.. juz now spent 1 and a half hours drawing abt 10 drawings for her... haha... k la.. gtg... chiao!

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well... i havent been writing anything in my blog for a long time ade... no mood to write la.. or wad so ever... hmm... so lets tok abt hari koko.... it was nice la... da whole open hall was crowded wid ppl... n lots of stalls selling mostly food.. not forgetting some game stalls n body art stall.. yea... my club.. music club sold mochi, ice blended mocha, n ice kacang.. ours was da 1st stall to finish selling everything... nice food ma... n good ppl relationship...

well.. there were sum other interesting stuff... like da fried ice cream stall... they had this huge box wid fried ice cream ads all over n a guy wearing dat box walkin all over da open hall blowing a whistle to get attention... it was quite fun to look at... then there was the canning demonstration by the prison officers... man it was wicked... da guy was so huge.. n da cane was at least one inch thick man... they had this v fake dummy wid a v fake bleeding butt wid da hands n waist tied firmly to a pole... n da officer canned it 10 times... i tell u everytime he canned da dummy... sum ppl screamed... when da cane landed on da dummy... a loud crack could be heard... i was quite a amazed da dummy's butt didnt burst after da 10 canes... i really cant imagine da cane landing on real human's butt... man its gonna hurt real bad..

anyway.. was dragged to da photography club stall by sum lower 6 frenz... kena cheated 5 bucks there... i havent even say yes they ade finish cookin da food n askin 5 bucks frm me..... SIAL... bt nvm la.. all my frenz... support a bit lo.. overall.. it was nice la.. cuz its da 1st time i was free throughout.. no nid to care abt anything.. no nid to care abt anyone... quite happy la...

then after that... had da music club party rehearsal.. dat idiot dicipline teacher chased us out of the classroom n forbade us to use da classroom.... dun u think its absolutely absurd?! students cant even use classrooms in their own school... was v fed up ade... went to astaka to practice.. n every1 needed me for their performances.. i was like.. v bz ade.. then when i'm practicing this.. the others will be like waiting for me v impatiently like as if it was my fault.. then lastly i couldnt control myself n screamed at jasmine.. made her cry.. sorry again yar jas.. really really didnt mean it.. juz too stressed up n tired of everything.. skipped chinese tuition n practiced till 2.30.. yeah.. then went home n went to cs again..bought a 256 memory card for my Motorola E398 n bought a new bodyglove sling bag... v tired la dat day..

then came sunday... our music club's 4th budday party... i was da emcee.. involved in da stomp performance.. choir.. played guit for 2 group singin performance.. acapella.. n drama... we invited singers frm ma3 yao2 to perform... an association la.. all local singers.. they were ok.. then after i performed.. the guy frm ma3 yao2.. da guitarist came n talked to me...asked me abt my guitar.. my Yamaha APX-3.. then commented on my performance.. said overall i played quite well... of cuz la.. i was playin C Major my dear fren.. haha... if i was playin in F sharp.. see if he will still say i played gd.. haha... if F sharp i sure die.. all those chords.. man.. difficult.. then he said its onli the 2nd time he seen a gal playing guitar on stage.. well.. me myself oso can really figure out y so few gals play guitar.. i mean.. its cool wad.. n so much more easier than piano.. although i learn piano oso... mebbe they cant bear the pain of da guitar strings cutting into their flesh... well i myself almost gave up at 1st oso.. left hand fingers swelling... bruised... right hand fingers bleeding.. haha.. yea...its quite scary isnt it... but well i pulled through.. n luckily i did... he asked me if i was interested to continue playin n work in da music line... i was like... huh? i nv really thought of that.. cuz i had always categorized music as a hobby.. not work... i wud love to play music.. but i need to think abt my future... unless i was really gd otherwise music wont be geeting me anywhere... but anyway.. wad matters is my studies now... he gave me his name card.. well i guess i wont hav problems finding a job after spm if i wanted to work while waiting for my results.. haha.. dat guy seemed v interested to ask me to join his company n was quite disapponted when he found out i was still studying... haha..

anyway.. we invited abel's band Envy too... they rawked... real nice... of cuz la.. wouldnt hav wasted my money right... wont elaborate too much on money.. ahah.. anyway.. really loved their performance..

the drama was v funny.. but a bit too long.. 45 minutes ler.. no kidding... then lastly... everything ended... it was quite ok la.. although there were sum hiccups through out..

this week really gotta start studying ade... trials comin in a month... muz try n find da motivation.... i keep getting distracted.... hav been skipping classes... every friday... 3 weeks ade... whole day nv go into class.... dunno y... juz dun feel like studying on friday.... haihh... i muz stop this la... trying to.. i know its not good n not right.... but i juz cant help it... i dun learn anything in class oso. i dun even know wads da point of goin to sch.. the teachers dont seem to giv a damn abt my class... all their hopes r on da 1st class... hoo wud even care a bit abt da laz science class in ssi.. da class wid da most diciplinary problems.. the class dat never showed up for classes on time.. the class that seldom had all da students in da class at da same time.. da class that almost evrery student r bound to fail at least 1 subject.. hoo wud care abt us? yea.. the principal.. all he cares is da sch's name... premier sch... my shit la... its juz a name.. a fake name... the teachers are all bias.... the 1st class students will never do anything wrong.. n even if they did... nthn will ever happen to them.. there will always be teachers there to stand up for them... th speak up for them... unlike us.... teachers will try their very best to put the blame on us... well.. sum1 has to take the blame right? of cuz it will be us.. the class with no hope... thats da cruel reality... i dun wish to admit it but its true.... if only the teachers treated us da same way as how they treated other students... well i cant blame it all on them... da attitude problem of some ppl in my class is getting more n more outta hand... i dun wish to say their names here.. but they know it themselves... dats y i'd rather not go to classes than to see their disgusting faces... suckers with no brains... they know how to pick on ppl.. they know how to critisize ppl.. yeahh thay know.. they r so good at it.. but their studies? u wouldnt want to know.. i really wonder how they got into SSI in da 1st place.. n i really wonder y hasnt the sch expell them... they send them for useless councillings hoping they wud change... yea right... they dunno hoo r they dealing with... do they really think those bastards care abt the stupid councilling sessions? wake up my dear teachers.... they'l juz laf at u for ur naiveness.. they'll juz mock at u like an idiot... wake up my teachers... its time to WAKE UP...

enuf of this shit...wel... i started contacting him again... after so many months of ignoring each other.. i decided to put a stop to it... dun wan this to go on like this.. i hope i'm doin the right thing.. my frenz are already questioning me y am i doin this... i dun care if he made me sad.. i dun care if he once made my life miserable.. n dun ask me y dun i hate him.. i never did.. not once..i've decided... n i'm not gonna regret wad i'm doin.. i juz dun wan da 2 of us to keep ignoring each other.. well i cant help thinkin abt the promise we made to each other sum time ago.. we promised each other that even if we break up 1 day.. we muz remain as best friends.. although its not da way it is now.. n u might think i'm naive.. but i really hope we can still remain as friends.. well.. 1 more friend is better than 1 more enemy right? i'm sure u'll agree with me on this... so my frenz if u see this.. pls dun interrogate me as if i did sumthing wrong ok? i know how to handle my personal things myself.. n thanks to those hoo stood by me through these saddest moments of my life... i've walk out of da past.. i'm fine now... really..

anyway... its ade 3am.. gotta get sum sleep now... typed alot ade.. so yar.... signing out.. chao!

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me.. chou hur.. ed n wei sern.. wads wrong wid ed arr? ahaha

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the chinese society! 

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pei xin so bz oo..  

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:56 PM
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n there went the cap of da shaker... sweet liquid splashing all over every1.. ahhaa 

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ahahaa... jeah loong looks damn funny..

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:53 PM
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our dear senior wei ming... yayness! 

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uh huh! i caught wei ming trying to steal sumthin! 

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see wei ming kacau-ing wingee.. haha 

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hey... good business wey! 

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